DOSE:

repeated

smoked

Salvia divinorum

(extract - 5x)

BODY WEIGHT:

209 lb

Background: I had tried smoking salvia 3 times prior about 9 years ago, recently decided to try smoking it again and had my real first vivid visual experience on it this time. I included details of past times as well for context.

First time: I was maybe 17, smoked what I believe was no more then 10x extract, out of a bong in friends parents backyard, daytime, my friend was sitting for me and me for him. After exhaling and while walking towards a chair in the yard I started to feel a strong physical sensation of my body buzzing/static and my body trying to spin in on itself as if my body was turning like the inside of a wave crest, visuals were a bit blurry but nothing other then that. Kept eyes open whole time, did not close my eyes during.

Second time: was sometime during next 6 months maybe, same stuff out of a water pipe, inside my bedroom, night time. This time I was alone without sitter. The flaming lips album embryonic came out and I decided to listen to it for the first time while on salvia (would not recommend). Took hit, then started album on my surround system when I exhaled. Same sensation of body buzzing and body spinning in on itself but this time the spinning sensation of my body was feeling very tight in the center of my chest, like if my body was liquid going down a drain with my heart being the tightest part spinning to go down into the drain, I didnt feel like liquid but best way to describe the tightness and spinning sensation of body. I kept trying to stop the tightness/spinning feeling then gave up, after I gave up it finished its last spin, it was as if my body felt as if my entire left side of body was having something or myself pulled off of it like I was Velcro. Once again only kept eyes open, did not close them.

Third time: was probably a month after, alone, same stuff out of bong, in living room, night time, just fireplace going. Layed down on the ground with some pillows propped up against couch looking into the fireplace from about 6 feet away. During this trip I had same body buzzing feeling at first but much less intense and alot more comfortable feeling. At one point I was looking at the curtains and counted how many different curves/waves were in the window curtain if that makes sense, there was 8, I then I thought the curtain into have 16, then 32, then 64, etc etc it multiplied and doubled itself idk how many times before it was absurd looking with tons of folds/curves. Then when I was looking into fireplace had sensation I was seeing randoms letters moving randomly within the flames and sometimes they would line up to form a word like a crossword puzzle, but it was super hard to focus quick enough and the letters were not super defined shapes but more like a sense of letters/patterns and words. Felt as if I was having a conversation in my mind and words I was seeing back were broken up responses back to me.
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Last time: So I've been reading; looking into salvia again last few weeks, reading into others advise and experiences and this time with a much better understanding and mindset as far as to having a goal. My mom was killed when I was around 3 years old and I have always struggled with it, along with depression, I wanted to either get a feeling that my mom knows about me still, or to better understand my own inner struggles with that and other stuff. All the times prior were just to try and experience the trip but without setting any goals/expectations and without much research.

This time I got dried normal leaves and some 5x, with intent to close eyes this time. Setting was at night time, all my lights off, laying on living room couch with very low volume atmospheric music playing (radiohead-treefingers) on repeat for around 30 minutes before sitting up and taking first hit of about 1/3rd of a bowl of regular leaf out of water pipe (all other times in past were full bowls) felt slightly weird and skin prickly but that was all, music still on repeat I wait maybe 15 more minutes before doing 1/2 a bowl of plain leaf, same feelings, but deeper relaxation, waited another 15 minutes, then hit 1/2 a bowl of 5x, held in for around 20 secs which is about as long as I ever can, lay down onto the couch and then as I was blowing out felt that similar body buzzing feeling but this time was alot stronger forcing down on me like a heavy wave.

I was trying to stop it in my mind from fully going over whole body but then gave up and as soon as it fully covered me, it was as if the darkness I was seeing with my eyes closed was abruptly ripped open like a zipper from the right side of my face/body, almost as if me, my apartment and this reality were inside of a sleeping bag (no where during the trip did I think of a sleeping bag but good way to describe it), my eye lids being the inside of this sleeping bag/reality, then it was as if the new outside of the sleeping bag that had ripped open was a new reality, suddenly it was like my eyes were open, daytime and my face/body along with the ground and dirt outside of my aunts house were then being flipped over onto ourselves from right side where the ground/light first broke thru to the left side of my body like a weird accordion or opened book type of movement with a trail image that repeated patters of the reality that was being flipped from right to left direction, I then could either just strongly feel or saw the presence of a bunch of my other family members who are currently in my life but they were younger around the age they were when my mom died same with my aunts house it was how her house appeared years ago.

My family either looked or just felt like their presence was larger then life, like giants in size, they were shocked I was there and I felt like they were all in on it, and trying to hide the place from me, like I was not supposed to see/know they were there. They were the ones then flipping the false reality back around to try and re zip/velcro me back into the reality of my apartment, at this point I just started to laugh out loud at myself after I started to say "oh my god, oh my god", out loud because going into it I was telling myself no matter what I wouldn't talk out loud, especially since entire time I was aware I was still on my couch and just could not believe how vivid everything was, then at one point when they were pulling the sleeping bag/zipper like reality back to zip me back into this reality my elbow, then knee got stuck, the zipper would not attach back unless I could move my elbow then knee, I could not do neither so I laughed as I told them they had to move my elbow and then my knee for me. I was to scared to open my eyes till I was re zipped up cause I kept thinking my eyes might not stay in one piece if I were to open them before they were fully zipped back together. After I felt myself zipped back into this reality I opened my eyes and came back to normal after couple minutes of prickly skin feeling.

It was interesting to me that during the trip I saw my aunts home as its the only place I know of visually that my mom has also been to prior before she died, she even lived there for some time growing up. Anyways just wanted to share.

Exp Year: 2019	ExpID: 112897
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 30
Published: Feb 12, 2021	Views: 521
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