Citation: KosmicKool76. "Total Satisfaction and The Nexus Loop: An Experience with MDMA & 2C-B (exp113016)". Erowid.org. Mar 22, 2019. erowid.org/exp/113016
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Background: I had 5 previous MDMA experiences prior to this experience, 3 of which had just been MDMA. My last time with MDMA was a nexus flip and although it was a positive experience, the flip section of the trip was a bit challenging and not as I was expecting. I would describe it as weird and uncomfortable. Still, I was curious about giving it a second shot should the opportunity arise in the future. Well, four months later and I found myself with that opportunity once more and decided to give the Nexus flip one more chance.
Set and Setting: My set at the time was pretty positive, despite a rough past few months. I had taken an extended break from most drugs for awhile and had focused on my job and some side projects. Things were looking up. For my setting, I decided to do a solo roll at home in my bedroom as I wanted to really focus on the effects of the 2cb once it kicked in during the nexus flip.
In preparation for this experience, I found some cool LED lights and set them up in my room, I also bought some fruit, gatorade, and gum, and made sure I had plenty of water close by. For supplementation, I had read online that taking the supplement NAC for days ahead of a roll could help make the roll stronger. So I took 1 dose of NAC everyday for the week leading up.
I took 1 dose of NAC everyday for the week leading up.
I didnít take any other supplements before the roll.
The planned day of the experience was a Friday in the early spring, weather was still fairly cold out and there was talk of a snowstorm that evening. I was anxious most of the day at work and couldnít wait to get home. I ate a light lunch and then skipped dinner and instead took a 3 hour nap when I got home, so that I was well-rested going into this. An hour before dropping, I drank a cup of ginger tea to help with nausea. I was feeling pretty nervous now at this point, which I usually do before taking this drug for some reason, but I was also really excited.
(10:45pm) I took a capsule of 140mg of tested crystal MDMA, with some water. A few minutes subsided and all of my pre-trip nerves suddenly vanished and I was feeling nothing but excited anticipation for what was to come. I put on a live performance video of one of my favorite trance DJs and watched that during the majority of the come-up period.
(11:15pm) The music in this live concert started to sound slightly altered in a good way. Very subtle.
(11:30pm) The first hints of real effects were felt, a sudden pleasurable wave of excitement washed over me and disappeared within moments. It was the familiar feeling of the MDMA come-up, which I always seem to forget exactly how amazing it feels. My excitement was rising.
(11:45pm) The MDMA started to kick in fully. I put on my music playlist and couldnít help but start dancing in my room as the first wave hit me. Everything was suddenly pleasurable. My body felt light and wonderful, music started to feel amazing to listen to, my vision was clearer, my thoughts were 100% positive and empathetic. I felt an immense energy growing and knew it was only going to get better. The intensity in the music changed and took on a new level of amazingness and energy.
(11:50pm) I took my re-dose of MDMA. 60mg in a capsule, with water.
(12:00am - 12:45am) The rush built in waves of pure euphoria until it was at full peak. The peak was wonderful. Music sounded so good, my thoughts were euphoric, even just looking around my bedroom was euphoric. Everything was good and I was full of empathy for my life and left myself some notes in my phone:
You are wonderful
You can get over it...
You are doing great!
Don't overthink it.
I have always had some social anxiety and struggled with it, so it is no surprise that my thoughts would go to this right away. Especially in such a significant altered state where anxiety seemed like the stupidest thing ever, so silly and dumb to even dwell on. At this point, everything was wonderful. Each song I was listening to felt like an epic journey through emotions and feelings. My vision was also crisp and the LED light patterns looked so crystal clear as they danced around the room. I sat on the edge of my bed, wrapped in a blanket, just enjoying the experience. My sense of touch was enhanced and the blanket felt so good. I took deep breathes of air and realized that with each breath, every single bit of stress in my body vanished, it was the most relaxing feeling of total satisfaction. I was in complete awe for my life and humanity.
I was in complete awe for my life and humanity.
Time usually seems to move very quick on this drug, but for some reason this time was different, maybe it was because I was alone and could really focus on being in the moment that time wasnít an issue at all.
(1:30am) I felt like going outside and exploring for a little bit. It was pretty cold outside, so I kept my walk short, plus it was almost time to take the 2cb. I noticed that the best effects of the MDMA were pretty subdued once I stepped outside. Music still sounded really good and the neighborhood at night looked really cool. Especially trees, they had a certain look to them that was altered compared to normal and just looked cooler than they usually do. However, the actual feelings of the drug were overtaken by the cold I think. I was outside for a total of 15 minutes before I returned home.
(1:45am) As soon as I stepped back inside, the feeling of the M came back, although I could tell that I was now at the tail end of the peak as the effects were slowly starting to diminish. It was time to take the 2cb. I took 20mg in a capsule with some water and returned to my bedroom.
(2:00am-3:00am) I sat in bed, still wonderfully comfortable from the M and now eagerly awaiting what the 2cb would bring me. It came on slowly over the next 30 minutes or so. I donít remember feeling much different except for a slight change in the headspace and my bedroom started to pop out a bit more in color, everything got a bit more saturated. Then I started to trip out and it was a bit crazier but more enjoyable than the first time I had done this. My thoughts started to become way more trippy but they were also euphoric which was interesting coming out of the MDMA peak.
I got caught in some loops of very strange thoughts, realizing weird thoughts about life and myself in general. I closed my eyes and started to experience intense and intricate closed eye visuals. I felt my vision of myself in my minds eye slowly break apart into more and more copies of itself, they were eyes and they split out and were moving out in all possible directions into infinity, I could feel it and sense the immense space. I felt like everyone was me and I am everyone. It was incredibly trippy.
This moment seemed to pass really quickly, but because of time dilation seemed to last awhile at the same time. In reality, it was probably 15 minutes or so. The 2cb peak never lasts very long for me but it was very intense for those few minutes and I was getting lost in the psychedelia. The headspace was super clean however and even though these effects were weird, there was zero anxiety at all and it almost felt like my brain wasnít even surprised at these effects at all, it just seemed normal in the moment.
(3:00am) After the peak of the 2cb died down a bit, I went to the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. Colors were still enhanced and there were yellow flashes of light pulsing in my vision, kind of like when you stare at a light for too long and look away. The painting on my wall in my bathroom was moving and morphing a bit. When I returned to my bedroom, I suddenly felt really cold and some negative feelings from the MDMA comedown which is always pretty harsh. These feelings didnít last too long though and I found that I was able to drift off to sleep very easily and I had a wonderful night of sleep.
The Day After: I woke up suddenly around 9am, feeling a bit terrible. However, once I ate some breakfast, I felt like a million bucks for most of the rest of the day which I attribute mostly to the 2cb afterglow.
Overall this is not my favorite combination ever as something seems disconcerting about going on the psychedelic voyage at the tail end of the MDMA trip, the comedown of the M seems to effect the 2cb trip negatively in my experience. But, it was still a very positive experience overall and one of my favorite rolls yet, plus the 2cb peak was pretty thought provoking.
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