DOSE:	1 hit		LSD
		smoked	Cannabis	(extract)
		smoked	Cannabis

BODY WEIGHT:

140 lb

LSD Ego Dissolution

About two weeks ago I used LSD for my sixth trip. I was at my home tripping for the first time besides a smaller microdose. I was tripping with a good friend of mine who I had used LSD with on three other occasions. Him and I are quite comfortable tripping at this point and are anxious for what this night will bring.

Upon tripping I began to feel euphoria within 40 minutes. Unlike any other prior trip however, I began to feel a greater level of anxiety than ever before. My stomach ached per usual, but I still felt something was just kind of off. My friend and I played some video games for another hour on the come up but once visuals began to hit hard we decided to just watch a show or do something else.

After consuming some THC through dabs as well as blunt, we headed back to the computer to continue our diverging search. This is when things began to feel just weird. I was seeing visuals only when I could overcome the strange anxiety that seemed to plague my trip. While suggesting shows my friend just seemed weird to me. An overcoming awkwardness, very unfamiliar to me and my close friend, just made the trip not seem to go to plan. Less to say I had weird thoughts of if he was gay, as weird as that is to say.

Everything he said just felt weird and an unopened question. Then while tripping I found myself saying the same weirdly interpret-able as coming out of the closet statements. I then realized how weird this was so I decided to overcome the now two-hour long awkwardness and get it off my chest to my friend what I felt like right then. Words fail to describe the over arching anxiety I faced for over two hours whilst internally battling the weirdness that was occurring.

As soon as I did he said he was literally thinking the exact same thing. It was an unspoken conversation that we had, we had both recognized a strange connection/bond that we were sharing and decided to look into it. I stumbled upon the idea of ego-dissolution and was set on the idea. I feel that through the trip me and my friend shared a sort of connection mentally, as crazy as that sounds, and I felt it was my mission to break the awkwardness and strengthen that.

For the continuation of the trip me and my friend sat for the next 5 hours and talked about life and the stress and anxiety we felt. Throughout my 8 years of knowing him, I had never once truly opened up upon so much of my life. We are both extremely similar, high achieving students faced with such similar problems and fears in the world.

I feel as though that LSD truly brought us together as friends more than any other experience as scary, awkward, and just mind-blowing as it may be.

Exp Year: 2019	ExpID: 113169
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 17
Published: Jun 28, 2019	Views: 615
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