Citation: Magnar . "Cosmic Dream State: An Experience with Fentanyl & Hydrocodone with Ibuprofen (exp113302)". Erowid.org. Jun 30, 2019. erowid.org/exp/113302
I regularly use opioid medication for several chronic pain conditions, for severe rheumatoid arthritis, and interstitial cystitis. Without the opioids life wouldn't be possible, suicide would happen without them as the pain is far too crippling.
I use a combo of fentanyl patches, 25mcg/hour and vicoprofen (hydrocodone/ibuprofen) 7.5/200. The high from such a potent drug like fentanyl is absolutely heavenly then adding hydrocodone to it is an experience of itself. So here's a writing from my journal about what fentanyl is like.
Whats it like to have fentanyl flood my brain, every receptor, oh its wondrous heaven on earth. The deepest opioid high one can get, for a risky price I assure you. This high is so deep I float into deep space, gazing into an indigo sky, tiny diamonds dot the deep violet velvet, sparkling as I close my eyes. Vivid colors in day, the crisp blue sky, the green of the trees seems to pop out before me. I feel as I am floating, a deep sense of peace floods me, all seems well.
I feel as I am floating, a deep sense of peace floods me, all seems well.
The poppy has kissed my cheek, every neuron coated by this calming embrace. Pain disappears, it's as if it never existed, music is so deep and vivid to the fentanyl flooded mind. Calmness radiates, everything is calm and peaceful. No wonder they give morphine to dying patients, now I'd love to die that way knowing nothing of the misery of the illness, knowing nothing but peace and sleep. Fentanyl is a love affair, it loves me and I love it, an eternal dance with the poppy.
Now fentanyl and hydro, it gives off the most deepest, relaxed state. My dreams flooded with vibrant colors, I had an experience that I describe as a waking dream, where I was dreaming but I was awake not asleep. I was half conscious half not. I'm a starseed and these drugs helped me awaken deeply hibernating memories. I dreamt of space, other worlds, galaxies, my home galaxy and world, stars, the earth itself radiating, in rhythm with it's heartbeat, the earth has a heartbeat you know? I'm also a shaman and use opioids in my rituals. The physical effects of these drugs were just as pleasurable, intense warmth radiating all over my body, as if I were kissed by the sun. Numbness, pain no longer, like a cool soothing wave over a harsh desert. Pleasure radiates from the mind, and when I put earbuds in and listen to music, fentanyl makes music godlike, every beat, every acoustic, every sound amplified. My body and mind sync with it, becoming one with fentanyl! Oh fentanyl I miss you so, ever since we had a problem with losing our pain doctor, I went through a brutal withdrawal. I'm still waiting for a new doc, and new patches. The fentanyl, and hydrocodone really is a cosmic dream.
I personally think opioids should be used as recreational drugs too, and for depression. I've suffered with depression for a long, long time. I am a survivor of severe child abuse, and have two chronic illnesses, but that's never going to stop me from livin', life's too precious for worrying about health all the time, and I'm working towards my goal to be a lead electromagnet engineer! I'm getting back surgery in a week, so things will be okay.
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