Citation: Kaleida. "User Control Panel: An Experience with Cannabis (exp113303)". Erowid.org. Jun 18, 2019. erowid.org/exp/113303
I generally don't write trip reports for just cannabis, but this brief experience that occurred earlier today seemed worthy of reporting.
My family is full of stoners like myself and I was smoking with them in the early afternoon before getting ready to go off and be busy for the rest of the day doing something that would prevent me from smoking any more cannabis until late at night when I got home, which is now. Most often we smoke two bong bowls between us at a time, but since we were trying to make up for my upcoming lack of smoking for the rest of the day, we smoked at least four, I want to say exactly that many but didn't really try to keep track at the time.
As the high was really peaking I was getting very much lost in my mind and exploring with some internal imagery, and I had a sudden idea to try something: I visualized the word 'SNEEZE' and "moved it" from my mind's eye down into my internal perception of my own body, which has faint and monotone. Immediately, I sneezed. I tried it again, and sneezed again. And again and again. I did it with 'YAWN' and I started yawning instead. I did 'LAUGH' and burst into hysterical laughter as if I had just done a large balloon of nitrous oxide while on a psychedelic. I did 'ORGASM' and immediately let out a series of loud and full vocalizations. I did 'CRY' and started sobbing, and I pushed it further and further until I was sobbing harder than I ever have before in my life. I started experimenting with more abstract commands like pushing an image of my middle finger up or my tongue curled up, and both immediately happened without me thinking about it. I tried pushing an image of a muscle movement I can't do and nothing happened. I tried a few more things at least but this is what I mainly recall now. Some other alters in the system also switched out and tried it for themselves following my example, successfully.
As bizarre as all this was, possibly the strangest thing was that all of the instincts were "dry" even though they were complete. I cannot sneeze, yawn, laugh, moan, or cry to the level that I did in these experiences simply through acting, it was totally beyond that and absolutely what I do when actually instinctively and completely feeling those things, but nothing actually came out of the sneeze, the yawn was not associated with tiredness, the laughter felt a little uncomfortably forced if I tried to do it more than just a bit, the moan still made me feel good to do but was not associated with the actual physical release and pleasure of orgasm, and the sobbing even at the highest intensity did not produce any actual tears.
Some bizarre switch was triggered in my brain by this cannabis experience, one that I have never experienced before that I can recall, not like this anyway. My somewhat educated guess based on what I know and how I experienced this firsthand is that this state has something to do with the way hypnosis works, perhaps also facilitated in part by our natural dissociative experiences, but truly of course I have no idea what really happened here.
Subsequently, we ended up spending the whole day busy and I wasn't fronting or thinking about it again until now, and it doesn't seem like I can really do it anymore at this moment, but I'm also very tired and still a little tipsy from the day. Perhaps things will be different in the morning but I won't be surprised if this was just a novel brief reaction to the earlier high either.
Not that I actually needed it, but this was just another experience that reminded me of what a powerful psychoactive drug cannabis truly is, and one that I expect will stay with me and influence some of my future explorations for some time to come.
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