DOSE:	100 mg	oral	MDMA	(powder / crystals)
	repeated	smoked	Cannabis

BODY WEIGHT:

86 kg

Misc: No prescribed medication consumed beforehand. Rolled on MDMA twice before this experience. Countless mushroom trips, one LSD experience, taken Khat once and smoke weed regularly. Also have taken painkillers such as Genpayne and unintentionally taken an unknown large dose of DXM. Route of admission for MDMA roll was clear cap of crystals with high grade cannabis.

This is the time I dosed MDMA alone and smoked cannabis. I'm a 197cm tall and 86kg, last night I decided to dose some MDMA. I recently bought a 150mg capsule of "swiss champagne" MDMA crystal. I did not test the purity of the drug, however with what I felt during the experience I can say it was a much more pure dose of MDMA than I've done before. After my experience I contacted my dealer who is a trustworthy friend who told me he tested the product to be around 86% pure.

I split that capsule and took ~100mg of the 150mg dose at about 9:30 pm. After dosing I waited around in my room and slowly felt a mild buzz effect. About an hour into the experience I decided to call a friend and we went to mcdonalds. During this time I felt anxious and fuzzy. The come up too a whole to kick in and only by the time we left McDonald's was I feeling anything noticeable of an MDMA roll.

Finally we arrive at my friend house, we chill outside and decided to smoke a joint of some really high grade weed. At first the cannabis didn't seem to have much of an effect until I sat down and began to just stare at random objects around his garden. I had an extreme focus and intense interest in what I was staring at but at the same time I felt distant and very lethargic.

Shortly after snapping out of me staring at the ground was when I hit my peak on the MDMA. Bodily sensations were out of this world. I began walking around the garden barefoot on the grass and the act of walking felt like bliss. Rubbing my legs and beard felt amazing and my headspace was pure euphoria. I talked to my friends a lot about my life and how I was happy and privileged to have gotten where I am now and I learnt to appreciate how I got there as well. They weren't rolling but they played a big role in asking me the right kind of questions as I wanted this experience to help me value my life and where I stand , it was extremely spiritual and pure bliss.

12AM comes around, I decided to go home because my friends are tired. I get home and go straight to my room, I start feeling the comedown effects and decide to smoke some more weed. I smoked a bowl out my bong and felt very high, I switched off my bedroom light and lay in bed listening to music on some headphones.

This is when it got crazy. Before this I've done MDMA twice and never experienced this, I've done psilocybin mushrooms more than I can count and I've taken LSD once, nothing prepared me for what I went through. At first I sank into my bed and the complete darkness of my room engulfed me, I closed my eyes and focused on the music. That's when the faintest visual fractals started to manifest, but not as in a clear visual, it was more on a sound wave kind of feel if that makes any logical sense. There was endless geometry and fractals that were beginning to fold in on themselves and push out these rays of coloured dots that bounced to the beat of the music. As I focused on them more they became clearer and more intense, I felt like all of my life's struggles and victories and experiences were folding into one and presenting themselves to me in one giant mass of illusions. The music got more intense and so did the visuals, I saw a jester like entity with an evil mechanical type feel to it, around him were endless visuals of these fractal snakes that wanted to try and kill me. I gave in to the being and felt like I had been elevated to another plane of existence as he laughed at me and swirled around.

The bodily sensations were incredible, I began wiggling my toes to the music and it felt as if my whole body became a noodle that was floating in water and waving around with the music. I don't know if I experienced an ego death or not, I've never heard of someone experiencing ego death while rolling however the state I was in was nothing like I'd been in before, the spiritual and existential realization I felt from being thrown through these visuals was incredible. As I was elevated to the new plane of existence the jester tried to kill me again but I felt too overwhelmed by the experience and somehow managed to get up and put the light back on again. I wish now that I had given in to the experience and seen where it could take me. For the rest of the night I lay In bed watching YouTube and Netflix but was completely distracted from what happened. I couldn't stop thinking about my experience and was still very confused the next morning. I woke up this morning feeling okay, I dont have the monday blues just yet, but I do feel a deep sense accomplishment and self actualization and realization that I love myself, my family, my girlfriend and friends and that the choices I've made in my life are all right for me and they've brought me to where I am now. I'm deeply privileged and thankful for my experience and what I got out of it.

Exp Year: 2019	ExpID: 113738
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 20
Published: Apr 10, 2020	Views: 741
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