Ego Death and Rebirth
ALD-52, Noopept, Kratom & Caffeine
Citation: SerotoninVampire. "Ego Death and Rebirth: An Experience with ALD-52, Noopept, Kratom & Caffeine (exp113806)". Erowid.org. Sep 30, 2022. erowid.org/exp/113806
DOSE: T+ 0:00 |
150 ug | sublingual | ALD-52 | (blotter / tab) |
T+ 0:48 | oral | Vitamins / Supplements | ||
T+ 1:41 | 1 - 10 mg | sublingual | Noopept | |
T+ 1:51 | 1 - 10 mg | sublingual | Noopept | |
T+ 2:34 | 1 drop | oral | Clonazolam | (liquid) |
T+ 2:34 | 1 - 10 mg | sublingual | Noopept | |
T+ 2:34 | repeated | Kratom | ||
T+ 2:34 | repeated | Caffeine | ||
T+ 4:24 | 150 ug | sublingual | ALD-52 | (blotter / tab) |
BODY WEIGHT: | 175 lb |
Extensive drug usage (of every type).
Depression and Anxiety (Moderate)
In search of Meaning, Spirituality, and just simple fun.
Preparation:
Earlier in the day had daily dose of kratom, noopept & caffeine "for depression."
Prepared by taking a shower, clearing my schedule today and the next day. Have packages containing other fun chemicals arriving in the next coming days so I am looking forward to that. Also have several benzodiazepines ready for reduction of anxiety and or sleep.
Experience:
(16:38) T+0: 150ug of ALD-52 Sublingually dosed, Clean up messy surroundings and prepare mentally by reasuring self.
(16:50) T+12: Start typing this, nothing to report. Listening to soulful uplifting music that means a lot to me to set the mood.
(17:01) T+23: Music seems to be a little nicer and is hitting me right in the soul instead of my head. I intend to see the sunset which will occur in around 20 mins.
(17:05) T+27: Swallowing tabs and going to see the sunset on my veranda. Will report how it goes.
(17:13) T+35+: It is a chilly and slightly overcast day. Beautiful blues and mild yellows dominate the sky. I am comfortable in a thick robe. Feeling a level of introspection already set in. This may be because I’ve been here so often. Some minor anxieties creep up about the experience ahead. Maybe they aren’t anxieties maybe they’re needed thoughts that I ignore in day to day life. I have grown enough from my past trips to get stuck in a mind set. Regardless I feel further away from everything, my phone is a much more foreign object. There are major changes going on in my life and I need to reason with them and confront reality. It’s always cloudy when I trip. Not that that’s a negative thing just a constant. I hope to see the rest of the daylight out and go inside when it’s dark. I have some painting to do. I get another blanket since it’s getting colder and feel a light force inside my body, as I type this it is growing. Music is now incredible, I feel every sound in every dimensional capacity. Even though today would be considered gloomy and overcast I see it as a wonderful display of the intricacies of clouds. There are many patterns and forces acting upon the sky above me. The usual lysergic side effects are coming on. Odd feeling in mouth and skin. Enhanced perception of touch. No discernible visuals yet other than mild enhancement.
(17:36) T+58: (Went inside cause too cold). I take Omega's, Vitamins, and Magnesium to make sure I'm fueled for what's ahead. I an considering taking some noopept to intensify the trip, but I'll wait until I'm peaking fully. I also feel a heisenburgs uncertainty effect writing this, that by currently writing my experience, my experience is grounded to the writing
by currently writing my experience, my experience is grounded to the writing
(17:57) (I'm giving up the T+ stuff math isn't currently functional) Music is taking whole hold of me. Speech is losing meaning. I am back to the place where I have been so many times before. Hopefully this time I will bring back fruits of the psyche. Picked out a few books of painters that I look up to Francis Bacon (1909), Monet, Escher, and Basquiat. Get caught up in some business for a bit but everything works out.
(18:19) Dosed a few milligrams of noopept sublingal/ orally to see how it affects the trip. Listening to Drain Gang bladee and vibin tf out. Tingles and odd sensations all over body, some shivers.
(18:29) CEV's, Colors Look immaculate. This (ALD-52) is in my experience entirely indestinguishable from the "real" LSD. Tracers have begun. Dose more noopept, this is really strong. Everything around me is breathing and amorphous. Space has begun to become a relative entity. I honestly do not know how to continue explaining my thoughts. Colors are so deep I feel them inside. Business once again distracts me. I'm researching anecdotal evidence of mixing noopept with serotonergic psychs.
(19:12) I am finally back, I know where I am, In this pseudo realm of existence, based upon a foundation of a real human being (myself). But now my mind is free, for better or worse. It seems to be looking for both paranoia and happiness in the same places. Have decided to watch a personally significant documentary. I added a small drop of clonazolam to ease the nerves and hits of noopept to keep me edgy. I am in psychedelia. Once I am coherent I will paint. Loving the documentary as I have before. I strive to be a significant artist. I am making a cocktail of energy (white kratom+noopept+caffeine) to get to painting. I keep on seeing ghostly non existent office workers next to me that vanish upon perception. Down the power up.
(20:04) I'm being inspired to dose another tab (150ug). I have a real strong urge to paint but the world around me prevents it for a few hours. Reconsidering redose, I shall keep for a later occasion. Coffee and noopept will be impotice for painting.
(21:02) ...or so I thought. Time is fast currently. And I will wait a little longer before I start painting. Maybe a redose of the tab (done...). I recognize this trance that I have entered but I am far from psychotic nor manic. Today has become far from dull and I am rather indulging in it.
(21:13) For some reason I feel at peace in this trance. I will have to paint soon but fear I will not be able to. Caffine, noopept and kratom seems to have very mild effects. I am calm. I am tired. I am hallucinating. I am fascinated. Is this life? It will be interesting to read this in the morning. This is immaculate. I am in a trance of half being. Dissacociated from what was only hours ago (name redacted). I think this is ego death. I am quite far from the miserable being that was of yesterday and closer to the portrait of an artist.
(23:03+?) I have experienced ego death today, Constant hallucination and morphs around me, ,,,but for what reason, antagonistic???? No! It will not, I am fully in control of my own mind for now. The world is beautiful. I don't know what I am. I wonder of what will come tomorrow. Am I a new person, am I me? Nothing will ever be able to explain this. I have calmed down, now I am able to put into words the new person that has been created. Out of the old comes the new. Ashes to ashes. Dust to dust. Phoenix.
(06:01) Fell asleep to a rain ambiance white noise track while deciphering the fantastic hallucinations. Now I am much more coherent and still feel the benefits of last nights efforts. I still wish to paint but if that will come to fruition is a matter of speculation. I feel as if I’ve been able to disassemble the tightly bound being that was of yesterday and formed what I am now. On that same note I am still slightly hallucinating. Noopept and LSD is a pathway to a flashbulb moment. I threw up a few times last night. I still want to paint. Good thing I have a full lifetime ahead of me to do things. I do not fully perceive how significant this all is. I’ve been ignoring life and happiness for nothing. I’ve been a ball of wires and ropes consisting of anxieties, depression, fears. But now I see how the human prevails. Existence is to be. Music is a temporal pleasure but the ambiance of reality is the true lullaby to a human psyche.
(9:04) I have slept once again and fully accept my rebirth. The chemicals have fully worn off. Time for life to go on. Also time to post this review.
[Reported Dose: ''300ug ALD-52, repeated 1-10mg Noopept, repeated 1 gram Kratom, repeated 200mg Caffeine'']
Exp Year: 2019 | ExpID: 113806 |
Gender: Male | |
Age at time of experience: 18 | |
Published: Sep 30, 2022 | Views: 568 |
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