DOSE: T+ 0:00	0.5 tsp	oral	GABA	(powder / crystals)
T+ 1:00	10 mg	oral	Pharms - Chlordiazepoxide
T+ 3:00	10 mg	oral	Pharms - Chlordiazepoxide

BODY WEIGHT:

240 lb

I was suffering badly with anxiety and the local doctors were next to useless, so I started to scout around for alternatives. I had been prescribed Librium (chlordiazepoxide) for a few weeks. Benzos work, but the British health service won't usually prescribe for more than a few weeks at a time because "they're addictive" and they don't want to be sued.

Anyway, for my first (and as it happened, only) time, I thought I would just take a half a teaspoon (about 1.5g?) of Gaba powder in case of any adverse side effects. I had read that people doubted whether this substance crossed the brain-blood barrier, so I wasn't expecting much, if anything.

How wrong I was (and it can be very dangerous to be wrong when self-medicating as I found out subsequently with other substances/combinations). I was unprepared for what was to happen. I am writing this seven years later, so I don't recall how long it took to have an effect, but an effect it certainly had, and a very bad one.

I became even more anxious to the point that I almost considered doing something stupid to get rid of the terrible feelings in my head. I certainly felt like calling for an ambulance at times, such was my panic that I was losing my mind; of being out of control.

This lasted for approximately an hour. I remembered that I still had some chlordiazepoxide left, so I took 10mg. Not much, but it calmed me down somewhat, but I was still very edgy for the next few hours and paced up and down because I couldn't settle. I took another 10mg of chlordiazepoxide a few hours later and I was more or less back to 'normal'. I wish I had had a larger supply of benzos.

I have never taken Gaba powder again. Perhaps I was not the best subject, as I find it very hard to relax and 'let my hair down'. Maybe the high (if that is what it was) was too much for my anhedonia and I panicked. Mind you, I have tried many other substances and never had this experience, at least with a single chemical in moderation.

Exp Year: 2013	ExpID: 114029
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 49
Published: Feb 7, 2020	Views: 4,962
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