BODY WEIGHT:

73 kg

This bag of 250mg of 5-MeO-DMT has been sitting untouched for a long time. I did not take the time to prepare a planned experience of this substance and considered that I was not ready until a few days ago where my roommate and I decided that it was time to try it.

I have experience with cubensis mushrooms, salvia divinorum (both chewed and smoked, leaves, 5x and 10x extracts), cannabis, 1P-LSD, ketamine, mdma, nitrous oxide and various combinations of all these substances.

Set : I feel good, I’m at home with my room mate these days with the pandemic, I’m doing a semester of study in another country so I don’t have a lot of work, my life is quite relaxed.

Setting : In my bedroom on my huge bed, with 2 little lights, some Pink Floyd and Popol Vuh playing.

My room mate and I would both try this substance for the first time. The initial dose we wanted to try was 6mg insufflated, as we did not have good vaporizing technique. My friend started and did not feel it 30mins after taking his line so he took the other 6mg line and felt it, was amazed and tried with lots of difficulty to explain it to me.

Which leads to my experience :
I took the 6mg in my right nostril and did not really feel the burn, slight hotness but nothing too bad. I lie down, cover myself with a blanket and wait. My friend definitely did not take his first line correctly as I start to feel a somewhat intense physical sensation in my whole body, a warm and really pleasurable sensation. I also feel the nasal drip which hurt, but it’s quite insignificant knowing what I felt at the moment. I could feel every physical sensation of my body. I touched the wall slightly with the tip of my fingers and felt all the complex asperities of both my fingerprints and of the wallpaper.

I decide to take the other 6mg and I feel it coming way faster than the first line. My body started vibrating, this vibrating sensation came in waves, it was as if the particles of my limbs were teleporting at incredible speed, but I would perceive it quite slow because my perception of time was really precise. It was as if I was able to perceive time more precisely, like there was more frames to the film. At one point I felt like my breathing was not on point and It stressed me out a bit, I was able to refocus myself on the experience and it was incredible. I could see the flickering of the screen, light was flashing in the room. When I closed my eyes I would hear my heartbeat going very slightly, as if it was far. It had a dissociative effect that I could compare to what I’ve felt on ketamine, except that I was feeling a strong physical euphoria and that the boundary between my thoughts and the present perception was dissolving. When my eyes were closed, the position of my body was unclear, I did not know if it was everywhere or nowhere.

There wasn’t really any visual distortion, the room was a bit brighter, I was seeing the lights flickering a bit, but not really distortions as with other substances. It was more like perceiving things in a precise way, seeing it as it was, without it interpreted and distorted by the judgment of the mind. I was in the observer state. I could feel every little movement that my friend did on the mattress. My skin felt really soft, my forehead especially which made me laugh. I was quite in awe facing this new state of being that I just discovered. I now better understand why it is described as « non dual » states of being, it’s just a state free of categorization and full of precise experience of perception, enlarged perception. I lay down most of the time and was really comfortable in my bed, when I tried getting in a sitting position, a slight nausea would come up, convincing me to lie down again.

If I have to describe it in a few words I’d say : sensory enhancement, brightness, slight dissociation, partial ego dissolution, physical bliss.

I think that it’s a substance that one really needs to surrender oneself to, which might not be easy as one feels one's heart pounding and one's mind distancing itself from casual perception. Meditation is an incredible tool for psychedelic exploration and I’d say that this experience was the one where it was the most useful to me.

It was a fascinating first experience and I was allowed to have a glimpse of what the God Molecule has to offer. Next time I’ll probably take the 12mg in one line and see how it goes. I’d also like to try vaporisation as the drip was a bit harsh on my throat and the experience is quite different in duration and intensity as I’ve read.

Exp Year: 2020	ExpID: 114235
Gender: Not Specified
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: Apr 6, 2020	Views: 1,749
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