DOSE:	15 mg	oral	Pharms - Zolpidem
	1 glass	oral	Alcohol - Beer/Wine
	repeated	vaporized	DMT

BODY WEIGHT:

270 lb

My experience also involved 15mg of zolpidem and a single beer. Zolpidem seems to loosen me up for the experience without diminishing my memory for some reason (seems counterintuitive). My dosing came in several stages over the course of roughly an hour , though the clock began to confuse me and I'm not sure exactly when it started.

Dose 1: I began with a small dose of 15mg in a GVG. I find that this helps loosen me up for deeper experiences. Generally I do a very light puff, allow the vapor to sit, and take that and hold it for 15 seconds. After I get the initial feeling, I do a heavier hit to clear out the dose and then one more to finish out any remaining. Doing steps like this prevents the shocking experience of entering the world in a rapid manner. I was mostly aware at this point, and given I have experience with DMT, I felt ready to push a little further. After a few minutes I went to the staging room to weigh another dose as all of the inanimate objects stared at me (an experience I am now accustomed to).

Dose 2: This time I believe I weighed up around 30mg and I was still feeling significant effects from the first dose. I took this dose over mostly two hits, with a third and fourth for cleanout. After this dose, I mainly laid back with eyes closed and dove deep into hyperspace. I don't have an incredibly clear memory of this stage, but I felt as if the entities were telling me to dose again, but to be careful. I then found myself in the staging room again, very deep in coded visuals overlaying everything with vials and bits of powder residue dancing as if they were alive. I recall "speaking" (in my mind) with the entities that surrounded me (one was in the form of a blanket, who had a face, of a sort). They helped to guide me and make sure I measured a safe dose. I recall asking "is this too much? is this safe?" My feeling was that it was ok and that I should take my time, but push further and further.

Dose 3: I believe I measured about 40mg, but it gets fuzzy at this point with the dosing. I began to feel as if I had been re-dosing over and over (very deja vu) I'm not sure if this is the dose I remember best, so I will leave the greater details for the final dose.

Dose 4 (there may have been more): This time I measured a full 70mg and was fairly deep, but completely aware of my surroundings. Everything simply had a layer of code and fractals over the time of it with the same strange lifelike movement of inanimate objects. I'm pretty sure that the deepest point came after I had consumed the majority of this dose.

I have a piece of art that is nothing but a face. There were other entities showing me shapes that made some sort of sense and communicated something to me that was both meaningless and important. I recall lifting my arms up and feeling as if I was literally creating the universe at that moment. I was not conversing with "others". I was merely conversing with part of myself that I was not typically aware of. I recall thinking "I am God. I AM Jesus." (keep in mind I'm an atheist).

At the same time, there was a feeling that none of it mattered. Whether I were the creator of myself or there were another creator, even God doesn't know what the fuck is really going on. Even God is lost in an infinite universe. Even God is the subject of some type of creation that is ineffable. None of it matters, but that does not make it less beautiful. It's no more meaningful than your favorite video game or your favorite story. We are merely art. Why not just enjoy the art?

I found myself with my arms up, manipulating shapes, moving objects, tilting the room I was in, all kinds of crazy stuff. It was really nothing like any breakthrough I've read about. There were definitely entities I could see being described as "machine elves" but it was more like they were intertwined with the shapes they were using to communicate. The geometry was all very complex. I don't recall anything like "orbs" which I often read about, but who knows. I went pretty deep. I realized that there were tiny changes I could make to the room around me, but that I couldn't remember the original form before the changes, so I can't tell if anything really changed in the end.

Anyway, I think my dosing methods are far superior to the daredevil three puff methods I've always read about. I find that heavy dosing from the start is far too jolting and leads to anxiety and panic. I prefer starting slow, getting comfortable, diving deeper and deeper and then when I feel ready I just go for it. I've broken through before this, but this was FAR deeper and I sustained it for a much longer time. Not once did I feel frightened or agitated. Start low and go slow. . . then let it rip. I've had some good but frightening experiences with the faster method. The slower method has been pure joy and truth.

Exp Year: 2020	ExpID: 114504
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 34
Published: Jun 15, 2020	Views: 672
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