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Habitual Use
Citation:   hendy1969. "Habitual Use: An Experience with 4-Methylmethcathinone (exp114599)". Erowid.org. Jul 23, 2020. erowid.org/exp/114599

  repeated insufflated 4-Methylmethcathinone (powder / crystals)
I discovered mephedrone (Meow meow as the media called it) in my 2nd year of uni around 2009. I was desperate to be a druggie that was part of a culture that could be described nostalgically to my grandkids in years to come.
I was desperate to be a druggie that was part of a culture that could be described nostalgically to my grandkids in years to come.
The 60's had LSD and the summer of love, the late 80's had MDMA the 2nd summer of love and the 90's had cocaine and booze.( I'm sure there were some drug cultures in-between..). So what was in store for the late 2000's well, in the UK for me we had strong weed, average coke, shit ecstasy pills, and a gradually emerging Research chemical market. "Research chemicals" were nothing new, and gave visions of wide eyed nerds in lab coats shooting up the latest substance with lab book in hand. Research chemicals had already messed up ecstasy pills by pumping out a nauseating mixture of the very cheap "Ecstasy substitute" BZP, TFMPP and MCPP in place of the desired MDMA. Piperazines were to be the legal alternative ecstasy but unfortunately they were sh*t.

Mephedrone changed this and bought the RC scene to the forefront of recreational drug use. Why? because it was f*ing good, cheap to manufacture and legal!

I first tried mephedrone as a 150mg bomb on my own in my uni room and knew it was something different. It felt good, no noticeable side effects at this dose except lack of sleep.

I saved the rest of the gram for me and my 2 mates the next weekend we naively racked out 3 lines of the remaining 850mg (283mg each) and snorted the lot after a skin full of booze. We were not expecting the pure euphoria and fuck*dness that ensued. At this dose we experienced a markedly trippy experience but the general feeling was this is amazing. That night I lay in bed still off my face listening to Bob Dylan and felt at peace with the world. Doing what I would call bed dancing. It was too good.

This experience started my several year long addiction to mephedrone. The comedown the next day was horrific and my mate who had to work the next day had it the worst! and vowed never to partake again. This didn't stop me and my use escalated to on average every 3 days. I would tend to get through nearly a gram in a session and due to the cheapness this didn't seem that excessive. My use was often reclusive. I introduced some friends to it but I found the most joy in using on my own listening to music and soaking up the goodness without the risk of being bought down by na´ve drunks wondering what drugs I was on (because it's hard to hide you're on it!).

My social network for mephedrone was an "underground" forum that discussed research chemicals and often encouraged the use of high amounts of mephedrone. This forum normalised the use and gave an outlet to lonely drug users which is where I found myself. This forum made me a psychonaut not a lonely drug user. Many of the users were amateur or accomplished pharmacologists with genuine interests in the effects of new drugs. Many were addicts. The line is thin.

I went through a general cycle of getting high, feeling like shit for a day and then gradually being reborn into a fully functioning human ready to get high again. At times the rebirthing was therapeutic! But ultimately the damage it must have done to my system must have been fairly high. For one thing the drug really tapped into my addictive thoughts. I could be sitting in lecture and all I would be thinking of was doing a line of mephedrone. I've never had that same sort of addictiveness with any other drug. I'm sure over time the drug changes the way my brain was wired up and made me search out the drug. I would estimate I did over 50 grams of mephedrone (4mmc) in the 3 years or so.

When it was finally banned there was a year or so that it was still fairly available and then eventually it started to disappear. 3mmc popped up but was nowhere near as good and since then I've never bought "4mmc" that has given the same feeling. In a way I see this as a blessing. For me 4mmc was not a sociable drug, a night out became all about the drug itself. Amphetamines don't have this effect for me and become and accompaniment instead.

Mephedrone was euphoria and that was about it. But maybe this was the drug culture I will tell my grandkids about. The unbeatable euphoria that people used to confuse with bath salts...

July 2020

Exp Year: 2008-2011ExpID: 114599
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 23
Published: Jul 23, 2020Views: 1,296
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