DOSE:	200 mg	oral	Pharms - Sertraline	(daily)
	300 mg	oral	Pharms - Bupropion	(daily)
	repeated	oral	Pharms - Gabapentin	(pill / tablet)
	48 oz	oral	Alcohol - Beer/Wine

BODY WEIGHT:

149 lb

I have been experimenting with Gabapentin for a while now and I have come to accept whatever feeling it may bring depending on dose. At first I was prescribed 300mg of Gabapentin, then my dose was increased to 600mg to take 3 times a day. Now it wasn’t just given, I had actually told them it helped me a whole bunch with my daily activities just so I thought of how I was trying to experiment before, and wanted more so that I could conclude my curiosity. My psychiatrist was in a partial hospitalization program that I was in since I was all depressed and suicidal or whatever and although the past is the past, I am still living in the current. Nevertheless, over the span of my morning to the end of the day, I ingested over 6000mg about 4 days in a row now, including right this second. I read a lot about what gabapentin can do and I just wanted to see for myself as I am a curious person and I enjoy an altered reality.

8:00am- I wake up and take my daily meds (200mg Zoloft, 300mg Bupropion). Then take five 600mg pills of Gabapentin totaling 3000mg along with a bottle of water.

9:00am- I go to the dollar store down the street and buy a couple of Corona tall boys (24oz.)

9:10am- I get home and crack one open and start sipping. I went back to my bottle of Gabis and took another five, 600mg pills more. (270 pills, big pill bottle). At this point, I do feel what the excess of Gabis outta make me feel, but being me, I want more. I feel a certain feeling like empowerment, but very subtle. It may be in conjunction with the beer but I’ve been taking them before and the feeling with alcohol seems to be slightly amplified.

10:00am- I feel good, good enough to play my PS4 and hopped on Hyper Scape with my homie. Talking to him like normal and no impairment noticed on either end. Still not feeling anything to write home about.

11:00am- I start rehearsing for a virtual interview I had scheduled at 1:00pm. I have a feeling of a soothing confidence that complimented my morning.

12:00pm- I crack open the second beer and I’m laughing and talking to myself more than usual but enjoying every moment. My eyes start to get heavy and I want to close my eyes but I have to be ready for the interview. I get dressed and look at myself in the mirror. No signs of impairment on the outside-in, but my eyes seem to move a lot slower than usual. I know it’s due to the Gabis as the past times I’ve experimented with a high dose, it was a recurrence.

1:00pm- I am on zoom with the lady I was interviewing with, feeling as great as can be and I ended up killing my interview as I read off my resume, and everything went great.

2:00pm-I take another three 600mg pills of Gabi, and wait for a feeling I seem to chase but can’t grasp.

2:30pm- I start to feel a whole lot lighter than usual and I still feel great and confident, and my eyes are getting even slower while looking around. My mood is great, and very minute signs of impairment on my end, being the eyes being slow and whatnot. My dad gets home and tells me to pick my little brother up from school and of course I oblige.

2:40pm- I drive to my brother’s school and I wasn’t affected enough to stop me from driving, in fact, I feel as if I’m able to put a thread through a needle.

3:15pm- I get back home, let my dog out, then went back to my room. I took another 3 Gabis and I have actually lost count of how many milligrams I ingested , and also not afraid of overdose since I have been trying this days prior to today.

4:00pm- I have cottonmouth like a mf and my eyes are still heavy and slow to move around. Mentally I feel great and physically, great as well. I can’t note any feeling that’s attributed to most substances abused, whereas something like MDMA enhances all senses etc. I feel more creative at that and decided to write a poem of a line I’ve had in my head for days.

5:00pm- I feel great enough to continue writing, so I decided to share my experience and began typing.

5:38pm(current)- I feel lazy. My eyes are still heavy and I feel at peace inside my head. Prescribed for anxiety and that for sure is taken care of, at least for me. I sat back in my chair and closed my eyes and I can notate very pretty patterns that aren’t moving like you’d imagine. They are still and flurry almost like the sprung tail of a peacock. One on each side, both eyes see the same just individually per eye. My eyes are very heavy and I notice it a lot.

Adding up how much I’ve taken adds up to 9,600mg. Again, that is a very high dose over my day and I potentially may take more. Its not even about the feeling it gives at this point, it is just my lust to feel something else but normal.

I conclude this experience as partially positive as it isn’t anything grand, but it is something I can enjoy as the feeling of confidence and lack of anxiety is great. I am not so sure about dosage and trying to get more out of it. I have tried taking a lot at once, and also over the span of a day to try and get some sort of perfect dosage to feel the full potential of this med. It also is great when going out in public as I have before, and ended up being talkative and positive all around. Not so bad after all.

Exp Year: 2020	ExpID: 114948
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 24
Published: Dec 12, 2020	Views: 1,774
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