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First Blackout Ever
by Johnny
Citation:   Johnny. "First Blackout Ever: An Experience with Alprazolam (exp114979)". Erowid.org. Jun 3, 2021. erowid.org/exp/114979

4,5 mg oral Pharms - Alprazolam (pill / tablet)


Recently, my sister's boyfriend had fallen victim to xanax addiction. He was required to attend treatment cause he was on the path to losing his job and just about every relationship he had in his life. As a proof of giving up the drugs, he handed the remainder of the pills off to my mom and told her to dispose of it so she knew he didn't have any left. My mom decided to show them to me just as a "look how many he had" but little did she know that what I saw in that bottle was a fun evening. The next day, I snagged one and took about 1/4 of a pill. Not much happened aside from grogginess. I took another quarter pill later and the effects were nice. Felt sort of heavy, nothing crazy. Then night rolls around. 10pm my parents were asleep and I want to find out what xanax really feels like. I take a full bar. An hour later, I feel heavy and euphoric but I decide it's not enough. Another bar. Next thing you know it is somehow 10 in the morning, I'm groggy as shit and the first thing my mom asks me is "DID YOU TAKE SOME OF THE XANAX HE GAVE UP?!" yeah I fucked myself over. Apparently I fell asleep with my clothes on, glasses on and headphones in. I have absolutely 0 recollection of how I got there or when I lost my memory. Honestly just kind of embarrassing. I don't do drugs anymore, I was into them in high school. In fact I had tried most drugs in high school. I also drank like crazy in college to the point where I at least thought I blacked out but the next morning I'd remember most of the night. Nope. Xanax is what gave me my first blackout. It happened so quickly and so abruptly and thank god I was not in public.

Exp Year: 2020ExpID: 114979
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 24 
Published: Jun 3, 2021Views: 398
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Pharms - Alprazolam (98) : Alone (16), First Times (2), General (1)

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