DOSE: T+ 0:00	4 mg	oral	Pharms - Clonazepam	(pill / tablet)
T+ 12:00	2000 mg	oral	Pharms - Tramadol	(liquid)
T+ 22:00	1 cup	oral	Coffee

BODY WEIGHT:

130 lb

I am currently addicted to tramadol and every other opioid I can get (tapentadol, codeine, and tramadol). However, I live in a country where opioids are rarely prescribed and as recreational drugs they are hardly used. Anyway, I was hooked after suffering a herniated disc in my lower back 2 years ago.

12 hours ago I took 2x2 mg. of clonazepam for anxiety and as anti-convulsant (I hope it don't cloud the opioid euphoria, like so many times). Empty stomach. Last meal: 5 years ago (sandwich with meat, avocado and tomato), 1 small coffee (about 50 ml of caffeine). Last use of tramadol: 24 hours ago (300-400 mg.) I plan to take this drug at night alone, relaxing by watching TV or listening to some music, as this is how it always gives me the best results. I plan to take small doses (100 mg.) every 15 minutes, because people swears it's better metabolized in that way. I'll use Tramadol oral drops solution 100mg./1ml by OPKO Lab.

T + 0:00: I took / drank 100 mg. of the tramadol drops with a dispenser. It don't taste so bad but it's necessary to drink it with some juice (without calories), water or soda (personal choice). I hate the minty flavor they put in it. What the fuck! there's no other flavor available than all those medicines come with mint flavor. Damn it.

T + 0:15: 100 mg. more. This time I did it "a lo macho". Direct from the bottle with a dispenser (100mg / ml). Without juice or water. Just putting the dispenser directly into my mouth.

T + 0:30: 100 mg. more. Wow. How quickly time passes with tramadol. A kind of "mania" or "over-stimulation" came to me and I began to clean everything and tidy up where I am now (my living room). Fuck. Luckily, no one woke up (I don't live alone. And this addiction is my little secret).

T + 0:45: 100 mg. more. I'm writing this report and article on a blog about some other stuff and I feel pretty good. Will Smith's movie "I'm a Legend" is on and for some strange reason I like it more than before.

T + 1:00: 100 mg. I keep writing my report. I think I'll put on some music to liven up this. I still don't feel much, except for the stimulation (from serotonin rush I guess), But shit I feel the words flow like never before. I'm pretty bad at writing (I think this proves it a bit), but this time at least I can write fast and without overthinking the words hahaha.

T + 1:10: Listening to Bob Marley's Redemption Song. Wow. It sounds a thousand times better than sober. It's as if I could transport myself and hear him sing next to me. I assume that some of this tramadol is metabolizing in my body.

T + 1:15: 100 mg. I feel relaxed and happy. I'm definitely feeling it. The great thing about tramadol is that despite my extreme tolerance, I still feel its mood-lifting properties. Last week I lost my job, but right now I don't give a shit.

T + 1:30: 100 mg. Okay. Now I'm feeling something different, like a kind of tingling in the legs, I could not explain it well. There's no nausea. In fact, I have never been nauseous on tramadol despite its bad reputation.

T + 1:45: 100 mg. 800 mg. in total. An insane dose for almost everyone, for me it's a normal day dose.

T + 2:00: 100 mg. more. Listening to "It's All Over, Baby Blue" and I feel like Van Morrison is singing in my ear. That's how good I feel. Music on opioids has always felt a thousand times better than sober. Sometimes songs that sober seems nah to me, high seems great t I think I'll listen to a Classic Rock mix on YTB. I feel a mild MDMA-like high, I saw a girl in a movie on TV and it made me want to walk across the screen and just hug her and kiss her. It's not even libido, right now, I can't even get an erection. I get up from the sofa and kiss my cat and tell him how much I love him. In these moments, I love everyone.

T + 2:15: 100 mg. more. Man, the Stones sound better than ever. I hadn't thought about it but Memory Motel (Black and Blue, 1976) must be one of their most underrated songs. I feel a slight nausea but nothing serious. Shit! I'm almost finishing my article on the blog, this is definitely a lot better than the Modafinil shit I bought a month ago.

T + 2:25: Shit. Now I believe myself Mick Jagger and I'm singing at the top of my lungs. Definitely some o-desmethyltramadol runs through my veins.

T + 2:30: 200 mg this time and I hit 1100 mg. or 1200 mg. I lost count. Scary thing. But this is getting fun. No muscle jerks, nervousness or headaches that are so often heard with this drug.

T + 2:40: All my anxiety is gone. I constantly suffer from social anxiety and even talking to strangers makes me nervous, but this time I'm talking to someone on a chat and I feel extremely relaxed.

T + 2:45: 100 mg. And I think I'm at the peak I'm starting to get a little sleepy and feel some opioid sedation, similar to codeine. I don't know how to describe it, but I feel like I'm not in my body. I also feel extremely light.

T + 3:00: More sedated than ever. I miss a coffee but caffeine has opioid antagonists so it's not an option. I feel in love with everyone and everything, all music or movies look or sound like works of art.

T + 3:45: 100 mg. I already lost count how many mgs. I took surely more than a gram. I begin to confuse the words easily and typing is kinda hard. That stimulation is no longer so present. Only sedation. The most curious thing is that I have not eaten for almost 10 hours and I am not hungry at all.

T + 4:00: Listening to Fleetwood Mac. Running my hands over my face and my head and face feels so good. My body feels heavy. The sedation is incredible, despite having slept 8 hours ago. 200 mg.

T + 4:30: 100 mg. and I felt the nod. I feel like all my problems are gone. Everything is happiness. I feel a bit silly, I forget words easily and I have a hard time typing (double vision?).

T + 5:00: I took everything that was left of my second 1000mg bottle. I guess about 200-300 mg. I feel pretty good except for the double vision and the extreme sedation. I notice some respiratory depression but nothing serious.

T+ 5:10: Shit. I feel pretty sedated but the movie shit I'm watching on cable looks more interesting than it's. So I try to stay awake.

T+ 5:30: I guess o-desmethyltramadol (opioid metabolite of tramadol) is reaching its maximum effect because I feel sedated like codeine, I have trouble walking, my eyes are red and I have never seen my pupils so small.

T + 6:00: Oh yeah I definitely feel the o-desmethyltramadol for good. I have a hard time typing this report hahaha. I confuse all the letters. I'm not hungry at all. And I'm half asleep-awake.

T + 7:00: I'm having a hard time staying awake. I see blurry and I laugh at any stupidity even if it's not.

T + 7:30: I feel a little dizzy when I get up and I have a hard time urinating.

T + 7:45: Double vision at its best. I'm looking at the new Spiderman movie and I could swear that I see two spiderman on my TV hahaha.

T + 8:00: I'm definitely high like never before. I started to nod and confuse everything (as I write I am, I am chatting with someone else). I see certain things move. I started to feel hiccups hahaha that always happens to me with high doses of tramadol but never as late as now.

T + 10:00: I finally fell asleep on the couch I was on. My chat friend asks me what happened to me. Why didn't my answers make any sense? I still feel sedated but somewhat hungry for sweets (so typical on opioids), so I make myself a coffee with fruit and some bread and jam.

T + 11:00 : The caffeine takes effect and the sedation wears off. I still feel excellent but there is no more euphoria.

T + 12:00 : It was quite a long night and I decide to go to sleep. I usually have trouble falling asleep but this time I fell asleep right away.

T + 19:00 : I get up. Without any side effects. Maybe a little thirsty but nothing more. Despite not having had caffeine in 7 hours, I feel extremely motivated and stimulated. No side effects. No headaches, nausea, confusion, muscle rigidity, etc. Maybe the only side effect it's that I've trouble starting or maintaining a urine stream, but this may be related to another health problem and has nothing to do with the consumption of tramadol. Perhaps the only downside to tamadol are withdrawals, which are immense.

Exp Year: 2020	ExpID: 114987
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 31
Published: Jun 6, 2023	Views: 1,159
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