DOSE: T+ 0:00	600 mg	oral	Pharms - Gabapentin	(pill / tablet)
T+ 1:00	300 mg	oral	Pharms - Gabapentin	(pill / tablet)
T+ 1:30	300 mg	oral	Pharms - Gabapentin	(pill / tablet)
T+ 2:00	300 mg	oral	Pharms - Gabapentin	(pill / tablet)
T+ 3:00		smoked	Cannabis	(flowers)
T+ 3:00	5 mg	oral	Pharms - Zolpidem	(pill / tablet)
T+ 4:00	5 mg	oral	Pharms - Zolpidem	(pill / tablet)
T+ 4:00		smoked	Cannabis	(flowers)
T+ 4:00	Repeated tablets	oral	Pharms - Zolpidem

BODY WEIGHT:

160 lb

I was 19 when this happened and am a female weighing about 160 pounds. I’m a daily weed smoker and have minimal experience taking benzos. It also might be relevant to note that I take lamotrigine and wellbutrin daily.

Around March of this year, I was very bored and really wanted to get fucked up one afternoon. I read a quick post regarding getting high on gabapentin and was sold. My mom had a huge stash of 300mg pills in her bathroom and I quickly found out she also had a ton of ambien, neither of which she had been using. In fact, I’m almost positive everything I took was expired. I feel gross enough in hindsight for stealing medication from her, but what was to follow certainly strengthened this feeling of guilt. I decided to space out my doses along with a fatty meal and a soda, which I heard resulted in a stronger high.

This day is incredibly blurry for me, so my time stamps are probably not completely accurate. What I do know is that I took my first dose of gabapentin around 4:00PM.

Thursday, 4:00PM: Took 600mg of gabapentin with a fatty meal and soda.

Thursday, 5:00PM: Took another 300mg.

Thursday, 5:30PM: Another 300mg taken.

Thursday, 6:00PM: Took the final 300mg of gabapentin, resulting in a total dose of 1500mg.

[Erowid Note: Driving while intoxicated, tripping, or extremely sleep deprived is dangerous and irresponsible because it endangers other people. Don't do it!]
Thursday, 7:00PM: Between 6 and 7PM, I stupidly drove myself, my sister, and her friend to a place we like to go smoke. Around this time period we smoked weed. I literally could not tell you how much or how we even smoked as this is when things start getting fuzzy. I don’t know for certain, but I think I possibly took my first 5mg dose of ambien around this time period.

According to pictures I took, we got back home around 8:30PM. My sisters friend left and I talked to my mom for about an hour. At this point, I was definitely feeling the effects and felt very sociable and euphoric.

Thursday, 10:00PM: I definitely took another (or possibly my first) dose of 5mg ambien around this time. I vaguely remember smoking once with my sister and then I played some games on my Nintendo switch.

Friday, 8:00AM: I “wake up” but feel incredibly disoriented and even now, I barely remember anything from this morning. I genuinely thought I just fell asleep after smoking, but come to find out I didn’t sleep at all that night (which I’ll discuss later on). I get to my stepmom's house where I’m supposed to be babysitting after hitting my neighbors mailbox on the way. I legitimately barely remember any of this. She has struggled with addiction and immediately called me out for being high when I arrive and didn’t let me leave.

Friday, 1:00PM: After my stepmom talked with my mom on the phone, I guess I freaked out as I knew I had been busted and drove to my friends house that was like 45 minutes from my house. This is still very, very fuzzy in my memory. For some god forsaken reason I notice there is another ambien in my car (maybe more, who even knows at this point) and take at least 5mg. If there were multiple pills in my car, I’m sure I took them all. It’s a mystery!

Friday, 6:00PM: Another black hole of time. Apparently we went to the grocery store during this time and my friend freaked out because I was completely out of it. She said I was being weird and got frightened by artwork on her wall apparently, but she didn’t have much else to say about the time I spent there. I vaguely remember my mother telling me to come home around this time. I do not remember driving at all except that I was having complete double vision, like with everything I saw. I had to put a hand over one eye to even be able to see. Driving while this fucked up is seriously the biggest regret I have. I could have killed myself or someone else and I seriously would never make the decision to drive like that sober. I don’t think I even comprehended how high I was.

Friday, 7:00PM: I arrive home safely and kind of remember fighting with my mother. She knows I was fucked up and my sister ratted on me that we had smoked the night before (which she is not cool with). I guess I knew I was gonna be fucked because I left my weed and everything at my friends house in case I got searched. My sister later told my mom I took ambien, which I don’t even remember telling her, but I’m sure it was obvious how high I was the previous night. Apparently I was screaming at her and pushed her into a wall for snitching afterwards. The consequences of this day affected our relationship for months.

Saturday, 6:00AM: Woke up the next day for work. I was fucked up for a good 24 hours and felt incredibly out of it the next day, which is still very fuzzy to me. I realized my memories during that 24 hour period were either completely missing or unclear, which was distressing. I worked until 3:00PM but truthfully barely even remember the shift. Not completely gone from my memory, but definitely fragmented and distorted. I cried in front of my manager about my dad and had a lil breakdown though but thankfully he was super understanding and obviously didn’t know about the events from the previous days.

I made amends with my sister eventually and she told me about the night I took the 1500mg gabapentin dose. Apparently I didn’t sleep a wink that night. We were smoking weed until about 4:00AM. She said I was slurring my words and commenting about how the trees behind our house were moving and changing colors when we smoked. I do not remember this in the slightest. She showed me a video she took of me curling her hair at 5AM and apparently I also did her makeup. Again, zero memory of this. She eventually fell asleep and I left the house at 8AM to babysit, which is when I hit the mailbox. I don’t remember how much ambien I took from my mom, but it was a lot. I’m pretty certain I took more ambien after I blacked out.

I’m so thankful to have survived that because I could have easily wrecked and died that day, or even worse hurt or killed another person. Please be safe!!!

Exp Year: 2020	ExpID: 115005
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: Aug 9, 2023	Views: 475
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