DOSE:	0.25 hits	oral	LSD	(blotter / tab)
	0.50 hits	oral	LSD	(blotter / tab)
	0.25 hits	oral	LSD	(blotter / tab)
		smoked	Cannabis

BODY WEIGHT:

70 kg

The following details my first, and only experience to date, of LSD.

I set aside a weekend to explore this drug and bought the tabs on the Friday previous. I was nervous to try the substance, but I had done plenty of research beforehand into its effects. I decided to take the substance alone despite recommendations as I felt the presence of others could induce anxiety during the trip. I did however message a couple of friends throughout the trip and I suppose they acted as virtual trip sitters.

I woke up early on the Saturday and tried to clear and relax my mind as much as possible before the trip. I dosed a quarter of a 120μg tab at around 10:30am. The initial effects I noticed were that the techno music I was listening to became clearer and more pleasing, and the snow outside became brighter and more beautiful. Edges became sharper as if I was watching the world like an ultra–HD TV. These effects were very subtle and there were no mind-altering effects except a very mild, constant and pleasing euphoria. I decided, happy with the effects so far, to dose a further half a tab, bringing my total consumption to 90μg. I didn’t notice new effects at this dose, but rather the subtle effects became enhanced.

At this point I realised that I had to stop messing around and commit to a full psychedelic experience and go all in.

I dosed the final quarter, rolled a large joint up and ventured outside. It was as if the acid was beckoning me to seek out nature. I remember thinking as I swallowed the final quarter of the tab “you’ll be a hero”. I realise now that this was the beginnings of the grandiose thought altering effects I experienced. I walked along the streets and had to stop myself from laughing hysterically, the euphoria gripped me in ways no other drug had ever provided. The sheer happiness did not feel manufactured either, but rather a natural consequence of the thought altering behaviour of the compound. It felt as if people were staring at me, I felt as if I had some great power and people were noticing it. I had to physically grab my face to prevent myself from laughing as I walked past people, they probably thought I was unhinged in some way. At this point the visual effects were becoming more intense, the roads warped and swayed and flattened out as if I had no depth perception at all. I remember almost forgetting I had taken a drug at all and began developing a delusion that I had some sort of innate power that was enabling me to see details I had never before noticed.

As I neared the footpath that would take me to fields and woods, it became difficult to judge distances and avoid cars. I would not recommend doing what I did and go walking the streets on acid, I was putting myself in much more danger than I probably realise at the time. As I descended into the woods down the path I felt as though I was in stasis, not moving at all. I heard voices and footsteps behind me only to turn round and realise I was alone. The squelch of my footsteps in the mud had an almost whispering quality and the leaves and trees warped and swayed around me much more than the wind could achieve. In the centre of my vision, I began seeing pulsing geometry, but it was very faint and seemed to disappear as soon as I noticed it. As I neared the end of the path, which opened into a field, I realised that the ground beneath me was perfectly symmetrical, as if whatever I was looking at would become tiled across my vision. I should note that this was all pre smoking the joint - that took me to a whole other realm.

I began to develop strange thought processes, I believed I was on a journey, both into the woods and into my own mind. I thought I had been sent on a mission by some other worldly force. I remember at this point the thought loops began. It all started when I typed the word “bro” to one of the mates I mentioned earlier. For some bizarre reason, the word “bro” looped in my mind from this point forward and was present in all the thought loops I had. I remember thinking how stupid the word “bro” was and how pathetic it was that I, this spiritual traveller – or so I thought - was using such a worldly term. I really began to analyse language in this way from this point on, thinking how strange some words were and seeing hidden meanings in what my friends were messaging me. I decided at this point that nature was calling me to smoke the joint, a product of nature, to complement the LSD, a product of man.

This is where shit got really crazy. I made it about halfway through the joint and ventured into the woods. I remember looking down at my phone and my entire field of view curling comically away from me and splitting into RGB colours, outside of this was completely black – it was as if I was peeling away reality and viewing what was beneath. I could still type on my phone; my actual thought process was not yet altered. The hallucinations were comical, things warping and bending and everything splitting into its component RGB colours. Then they became more ordered, everything I looked at fragmented into triangles and branched or mirrored or warped. Everything was perfectly symmetrical and ordered. Then my mind itself began branching like a tree, mirroring what was happening to my vision. This sounds strange but it is the only way I can describe it. I remember trying to type this to my friend, but I realised I had become trapped in a thought loop, going to type to him before forgetting before starting the train of thought again. My vision spiralled and warped and matched the thought loop as if my entire experience was in frames of visuals, thought, audio etc and was being sliced and mixed.

I decided to go with it. I spun around in a circle for what seemed like ages. I had only made it a couple of footsteps into the wood and yet I couldn’t escape because if I tried to think to leave I would forget and loop back to the start of that train of thought. I remember thinking I could easily traverse the 3 dimensions of space home, yet I couldn’t traverse the dimension of thought and logic required to do so. This went on for a while although my concept of time was reasonably fucked so I have no idea how long I was standing there. I remember hearing a siren, I don’t know if it was real or not, but that audio became part of the thought loop, playing over and over.

Eventually I made it back to the footpath, it was getting dark and cold now – I barely felt the temperature but I realised this was probably drug induced and that I should get home to warmth particularly as it was snowing. The walk home was scary, I felt people were watching me the whole way back but I managed to calm myself by breathing slow and remembering I was on a drug. I got home. There’s no other way to describe it except I was absolutely and totally off my arse, I have never felt so drugged up. I encountered a flatmate and he knew straight away I was off my rocker. I quickly retreated to my room and experienced many similar hallucinations and thought loops. Music I listened to had an ethereal quality and sped up and slowed down. I created many works of art – fuelled by the intense synaesthesia I was experiencing. I got stuck in a few thought loops again but decided to allow them and let the acid take me where it wanted. Eventually I came down enough to leave my room. The effects of the LSD lingered for the rest of the day.

The next day I felt completely calm and relaxed. I’ve suffered with depression for a long time, but the LSD had an extremely calming effect on it. I hope to delve into this drug many times in the future and look forward to all that can be learnt from this substance. I would not recommend going it alone like I did but for me that was the best thing. LSD truly is a magical substance.

Exp Year: 2021	ExpID: 115152
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 18
Published: Feb 16, 2021	Views: 602
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