DOSE:

120 mg

oral

DMXE

(liquid)

BODY WEIGHT:

56 kg

120mg live report:

ROA: oral

Goal: An experience similar to a K-hole. Hoping for psychedelic effects, as my previous experiences only have had dissociative effects.

Tolerance: Slight tolerance due to prior DMXE use, though I’m very sensitive to substances. 20mg was quite intense for me, so keep that in mind.

Prior DMXE experience: I’ve tried up to 60mg (oral), and it was a very nice experience. Although I still didn’t get any “psychedelic-dissociative” effects, just pure dissociation and a warm tingling in my body.

T+0:00 measured out 0.24g, and dissolved in 5ml solvent. Taking 2.5ml with an oral syringe for a 120mg dose. Solution smells very strong in comparison to prior DMXE solutions of mine, due to a higher concentration. The solution is very cloudy and has a very slight tan. Taste is very both bitter and sweet, though still fairly easy to get down with water.

T+0:11 No effects so far.

T+0:14 Mild effects. Feels equivalent to a couple of beers but nothing more. I think I’m starting to feel the come up though, but I’m not sure.

T+0:19 Coming up really strong. I'm already extremely dissociated, and kind of second-guessing my choice of dosage.

T+0:23 Starting to realize what I'm in for. Holy shit. Intense dissociation, and already can't feel my lips whatsoever. This is MUCH more intense than any prior experience. I can feel the characteristic warmness on my face. I had to stop watching Youtube because I can't figure out what people are saying or doing.

T+0:27 feeling very malleable, can't rely on my depth perception whatsoever Everything is moving, but not in a psychedelic manner. It more so feels like my brain can't remember what information it's supposed to take in and how to process it. It's a miracle I can still type

T+0:31 I can't feel my tongue anymore. My whole face is completely numb.

T+0:51 I've spent the past 20 minutes inside the audio-waves of psytrance music exploring different worlds and galaxies. I saw familiar realms with the beats of the music bringing me back to real and unreal places. The all-encompassing nature of the psytrance music and sounds in it got me close to a hole, although not quite. I'm still typing with my eyes closed, at my desk, head too heavy to sit up straight. Feeling far away from reality with a ringing in my ears but I don’t mind it. The ringing is comforted by the smoothness and warmness of the experience. I feel like there’s a force that's pulling on me. It's a warm force though. I don't know how I'm typing these words out right now.

(Note from the day after: At this point I was in my bed, laying in some weird position with my eyes closed, feeling like I was flying through space IN the music as if I was part of it. This was the first time I’ve enjoyed psytrance, it fit what I was experiencing perfectly. It was very DMT-esque, however, the visuals were not as bright and colorful, though still as complex. The body feelings were very intense as well.)

T+0:59 I feel like an alien in my own body. This is insanely interesting. I'm trying to sober up but it's hard when I'm this dissociated. I keep being surprised I'm hitting the right keys on the keyboard. I keep my eyes closed most of the time for the CEVs, as they are showing me places I've never been to. I feel as though I'm on another level of existence, and sensory overload is very present. I keep warping with the music. I'm half blacked out. I have no idea how I'm still typing.

T+1h I've never been this dissociated before. Everything is squishing and whooshing past me. I'm numb all over and my mind is taking me to places where I've never been before. I still feel like I'm teleporting, kind of, I cannot act sober at this moment. My feet feel funny and warm and cold at the same time, it's like a wave that keeps rushing over me.

T+1:13 I think I've hit the peak, and I think I'm still peaking. Still traveling these untraveled worlds from what feels like underwater. I'm completely numb but I feel good.

T+1:30 Finally feel like I'm coming down. I had to go to the bathroom while acting sober, as my mom was in the hallway, I managed to do it without arising too much suspicion, even though I can hardly walk in a straight line. I feel like I’m both shorter and taller than normal, which is very off-putting when you walk. And on top of that, it feels like gravity is not only pulling me downward but also forward when I walk. It's very weird. I'm still incredibly dissociated, but at least I'm coming back to real life. That was probably the most intense non-psychotic experience of my life. I can't wait to sleep. It's gonna be interesting to see what kind of dreams I’ll have if any.

T+1:45 I have regained relative motor control. I can now keep my eyes open and be in the real world consistently. I'm still dissociated, but I feel relief that it's almost over. Not that it was a bad experience, it was just incredibly intense. At the peak, my heart was also beating a bit too fast for comfort, not sure what the actual bpm was though.

T+2h dissoed but more functional. Feeling very sleepy.

Went to sleep at around T+3 hours, mostly sober but still feeling some residual effects on my balance, motor control, and ability to think normally.

Conclusion: Wow! For a good 30 minutes, I was in another dimension flying through the spaces in-between. I could feel the soundwaves of the psytrance, physically with my eyes closed. CEVs almost as great and all-encompassing as DMT, but with a layer of comfort and anxiolysis, I’ve only experienced with dissociatives. It seems that large “hole” doses produce profoundly psychedelic experiences, which is quite exciting. For me, this was definitely a “strong” dose.

Exp Year: 2021	ExpID: 115267
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 18
Published: Apr 10, 2021	Views: 3,065
[ View PDF (to print) ] [ View LaTeX (for geeks) ] [ Swap Dark/Light ]
DMXE (926) : Alone (16), General (1)