Citation: anon. "Impulsive Trip: An Experience with Etizolam & 1P-LSD (exp115328)". Erowid.org. Apr 20, 2021. erowid.org/exp/115328
___ Pre-Context :
I was using various chemicals when I was in my teens, from 2014-2018 I was a daily pot smoker, drinking and taking MDMA in festive settings.
In 2016 I discovered synthetic cannabinoids [JWH 0-18, MMB-Chminaca and a third I don't recall] and (ab)used in all of the way possibles : knife dosage of powder in cigarettes, homemade herbal blends, smoking on foil, vaping.
Other substances experienced : LSD (one time, half blotter), BK-2CB, psilocybin (5-6 times, mild dosages), ketamine, cocaine, amphetamines, various others.
I dropped from college and lost friends one by one because of my lack of effort to maintain those relationships. As of now I live at my dad house and don't consume any drugs except cigarettes and the occasional drink. All this made me agoraphobic and socially anxious/awkward.
I want to find my true self, live an exciting life and surmount my social fears.
___ Context :
I wanted to take acid alone for introspective exploration, so I obtained 1P-LSD and Etizolam as a downer in case things go south. I wanted to trip when my dad would go away for a week of holidays. But oh surprise! When I received the packet yesterday I felt like trying etizolam as I never took benzoís before.
___ Set :
House, calm suburban village with forests and fields, calm night with a few clouds.
___ Experience :
22h : took 0,5mg Etizolam sublingually
22h30 :I never took benzos before and felt it when I stand up, very slight balance uncoordination, peace of mind. I went to smoke a cigarette with CBD isolate.
After this I cant add time stamps or details because I didnt had sense of time/ took notes.
23h30? 1mg Etizolam : I consciously knew compulsive redosing was a risk but I took it anyway.
At this time I was disinibited and decided to trip tonight for whatever reason. I packed a bag with 2x1mg etizolam, 2x100ug IP-LSD, some apple juice with water, half bottle of wine, a sleeping bag, a towel, my trustworthy headlamp, smokes.
24h? Sat for a last smoke and drank a small amount of rum before going, I know, this is unadvised with benzo.
Put my headphones on, took 100ug sublingually and headed out to a relatively nearby field where I knew I wouldnt be bothered.
On my way I had difficulty maintaining balance, like if I was drunk. When I arrived I collected wood, lighted a little campfire and made my self a cozy nest. I felt really in peace with myself and the environment I was in, the warmth of the fire, the beautiful music I was listening to. I went in my sleeping bag and began gazing at the clouds and visual kicked in, morphing, swirls. It was cool but nothing extraordinary or overwhelming. Music sensibility was amazing tho.
I donít know if I fell asleep or if I gazed all this time but when I got out of this state the day was barely just starting to rise ( 6h42 after I checked)
I packed my camp and headed to a park, drank wine and smoked a cigarette while watching the sun rise, the trees were dancing and I was seeing them grow new branch, spring is here I sayed to myself.
Got back home and slept. I felt groggy when I woke up, probably because of etizolam.
I checked my bag and there was still the 2 etizolam and 1 blotter of 1P-LSD.
This was a great experience and I certainly learned a few lessons but I wish my memories were more clear. I donít regret doing this but I donít quite know why I did that, benzo disinibition is scary. The trip was not introspective. This makes me positive that a benzo will kill anxiety if I need to calm down for the next time I take LS because I didnt have any fear, anxiety even tho I was in a mildly spooky environment. I will do things in the right order tho.
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