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Floating In Self-Pity
DXM, Fluoxetine & Atomoxetine
Citation:   Catharsis. "Floating In Self-Pity: An Experience with DXM, Fluoxetine & Atomoxetine (exp115414)". Erowid.org. May 10, 2021. erowid.org/exp/115414

 
DOSE:
T+ 0:00
150 mg oral DXM (liquid)
  T+ 2:00 150 mg oral DXM (liquid)
  T+ 0:00 20 mg oral Pharms - Fluoxetine (daily)
  T+ 0:00 40 mg oral Pharms - Atomoxetine (daily)
BODY WEIGHT: 170 lb
I was 19, just out of a mental hospital. Before I was admitted there, I used DXM occasionally to help with my depression. There are few things in life as beautiful and serene as a 600mg dose of DXM.

I decided to take this dose carefully though, seeing as I was on Fluoxetine and Atomoxetine. I took a 150mg dose of DXM, about half the bottle, and waited 2 hours to take the other 150mg dose. I always take DXM with 50mg of Diphenhydramine to dull the nauseau. In about 90 minutes I felt my balance going off-kilter, a bit longer than the 60 minutes it took before my medications, and shortly after at the 2 hour mark redosed it up to 300mg total.

At the 2.5 hour mark, I noticed all the usual feelings that accompany DXM: bouncy balance, serene bliss, and vivid daydreams. But there was a feeling of dread, or perhaps self-pity, that crept in, it didn't ruin from the experience, but it influenced my daydreams. I began to look at my life from a third person perspective, seeing all the events and processes that were there throughout my life. I tried to explain to my tripsitter this third-person feeling in words, but I couldn't find the right words to express that feeling of sympathy for myself.

The feelings stayed with me for about 5 hours in total, after that, I just felt the after effects of positivity for 24 hours after my initial dose. The positivity usually feels like this beautiful energy that pervades everything, it feels like everything is beautiful basically. However, the positivity, or afterglow, was dulled from my usual afterglows. I still felt a positive energy, but not really a beauty in everything.

Overall, I felt the medications dulled the euphoric aspects of DXM. Though admittedly, it was far from the smartest thing I've ever done.

Exp Year: 2021ExpID: 115414
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: May 10, 2021Views: 477
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