Citation: turboguaso. "No Recreation for Me: An Experience with Alprazolam (exp115751)". Erowid.org. Sep 21, 2021. erowid.org/exp/115751
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| T+ 1:35
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| T+ 1:50
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Alone night time with long-awaited downpour rain in the city. I'm doing Pregabalin on a regular 2 times a week, which I read being a "safer" and perhaps not so "physical" benzo-like high. Had benzos other times but only to get me to sleep, no recreational use intended in my previous experiences. This time I'm after some fun times though.
T0 > 2mg alprazolam
T+ 0:25 feeling my body heavier, sense of light headedness but followed by some heaviness of the limbs, moving slower as if they were heavier, but not actually needing more strength to move of lift my body generally. No psychological effects to report, other than the brain reaction to feeling my body physically different.
T+0:55 coordination is still manageable but only with low complexity movements. Feel some fine movements will not be possible with 100% accuracy. Drank 2 sips of red wine, will evaluate the situation later on. Possible plans caffeine pills + monster energy drink, little concerned about possible stomach being upset if I go that way, as I've just had dinner, but think can be manageable. So far physical relaxation and feelsgoodman, but if euphoria was north in a compass, I'm walking east
if euphoria was north in a compass, I'm walking east
I was planning my night to play Zelda on the Switch and get just absorbed in the game, but somehow I think my attention span be rather low and won't be so engaged. I was expected a lot more out-of-the-blue motivation as the hidden feature of the paradoxical "inhibition of the inhibitory system" feature on this, hope to find it soon.
Nex steps, roll tobacco and breath in the smell of rain, a rain we waited for weeks now in this region. Caffeine pills and energy drinks available (and even PEA) in case of early shutdown signals.
T+1:35, rocking at some good old playlist, tracks seem to last shorter than I remember. Planning on lift up on 2X 500 mg phenethylamine caps, hoping a lift up and not a dopamine release crankiness. Finished 1 glass of red wine
T+1:50, chugged down 500mg PEA pill
T+2-2:30 crushed on bed, dominated by exhaustion, and unmotivated to even use any other stims to lift it up.
End of report
Overall I can't say I enjoyed this. Felt like fighting an ever increasing fatigue during 2 hours and having no room to have actual fun while at it. Disappointed of having wasted a night over this. And to think it's not even prescribed for insomnia mainly, but for anxiety. I imagine how the other benzos must be, let alone the Z's. Can't believe people do this over and over to get a tolerance and find that room for recreational value, and I find it a lot more clear now why it must be hard as fuck to quit.
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