DOSE: T+ 0:00	5 mg	oral	Pharms - Lorazepam	(pill / tablet)
T+ 48:00	2 glasses	oral	Alcohol - Beer/Wine

BODY WEIGHT:

65 kg

I quit weed about a month ago because I was developing severe anxiety problems. I went to the doctor, mainly to get my heart checked, as the panic attacks I had been experiencing felt as though I was having a heart attack (palpitations, severe pressure in the chest, difficulty breathing, sensations that I was about to die, etc...). My doctor prescribed me Lorazepam aka Ativan and told me to take 1 mg if ever I were to have a panic attack again. I had never taken benzos before and was curious about the effects so I decided to try it out, see what it was like.

I took two 1mg pills on a Friday at 17:40 and waited for a while. I had read that people who get benzos prescribed for daily use take up to 3mg doses three times a day so I thought I'd start slowly and see what the effects were like before upping the dose. I planned to take a maximum of 5 mg. I knew it's a drug that affects the central nervous system so I was hoping for some sort of mind alteration or psychedelic experience. I'm very introspective and I have an intense curiosity for the nature of the mind and altered states. I will say this: Lorazepam was very disappointing. After a couple of hours all I could feel was drowsiness, lightheadedness but no mind alteration, just a feeling of being somewhat sedated, a bit uncomfortable, actually.

At 20:00 I took 1 mg more, and another mg at 20:30. All I can say from this point onwards is that I don't remember anything else from that night. I completely blacked out. I know that I took the last tab of 1mg for the total of 5 that I had previously planned at 22:30, but that's only because I wrote it down like I did with the previous doses. I was alone at home and I don't remember how I got to my bed. I probably just sat for hours on my computer watching youtube videos. Next day I woke up, still feeling very sedated, had a yoghurt for breakfast and threw it up 10 minutes later. But the story doesn't end here.

Remember I took the lorazepam on Friday. On Saturday I had a normal day, did some work, chilled in the afternoon, nothing worth mentioning, still feeling slightly off because of the benzos, but again, no mind alteration, just a body high, just like feeling sedated, rather uncomfortable, but maybe that's just me. But the main reason I'm writing this report is because on Sunday, a full 44 hours after taking the last pill of lorazepam I had a couple of beers with some friends at a bar.... I said a couple, 2 beers, no more, no less. Now, I don't have an amazingly strong tolerance to alcohol, but I know I can stomach two beers without even feeling slightly drunk.... Not this time. My friends had to take me home that day. I felt completely smashed, as if I had downed a whole whisky bottle by myself. I immediately knew it was the benzos. I cannot imagine what would have happened if I had taken those beers on Friday, because it did cross my mind at the time. Pretty sure I would have ended in the hospital or worse. I probably metabolise the stuff pretty slowly but I am absolutely shocked that I reached that point of total wreckage a full 2 days after taking the stuff and with only a couple of beers. Head spinning, no balance, had to lie in bed praying I would soon fall asleep so that the feeling would go away, feeling as smashed as those nights at university after spending the full weekend drinking non stop, something I thought was behind me.

For anyone feeling curious about the drug, all I can say is it really wasn't anything interesting from a psychoactive point of view whatsoever. And that stuff they say about being careful about mixing it with alcohol: IT IS NO JOKE. That stuff is suuuuper dangerous. I'm glad I had enough experience with drugs to not go crazy with it and take it on a night out because I'm sure it would have been the end of me, or at the very least, a guaranteed trip to the hospital and some very fucked up memories for the rest of my life.

Exp Year: 2021	ExpID: 115804
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 28
Published: Oct 8, 2021	Views: 2,387
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