The Rock N Roll Benzo
Citation:   Fleming. "The Rock N Roll Benzo: An Experience with Triazolam (exp116127)". Jun 21, 2022.

0.25 mg oral Pharms - Triazolam (pill / tablet)
    oral Alcohol - Hard  
The first time I heard anything at all about the medicine Halcion was while reading the Mötley Crüe / Nikki Sixx books, 'The Dirt', and 'The Heroin Diaries'. The infamously debauched hard-rock band used to sniff a combination of Halcion and cocaine, which they dubbed 'Zombie Dust'. I later saw mention of Halcion again in one of Hunter S. Thompson's writings. I'm too young to have ever seen a real Quaalude, but fortunately I did get a few chances to take Halcion (Triazolam).

I have always had a difficult time with dentists. I've had multiple root canals, and I shake like a leaf on a tree before I even walk into a dental clinic. I'm extremely sensitive to pain, and I sometimes have to patiently explain to doctors "No, it's not just a little prick - you are sticking a piece of metal into my body and it hurts like hell". My involuntary shaking and squirming is seriously dangerous, as it can cause the medical professional to accidentally cause me more harm than good when they're operating. When I was a teenager, I broke my front tooth on the bottom of a swimming pool, which led to the aforementioned root canals. My old dentist was an elderly gentleman who had served as a medic in the Second World War. Old guys like him are way more sympathetic towards people who are experiencing pain - but sadly, they're nearly all retired or passed away now. He was replaced by a pair of much younger dentists would would say extremely disrespectful things like "You are not in pain, you are experiencing discomfort."

During a procedure when I was 19 or 20, I finally convinced the younger, smug, arrogant dentists to prescribe a pitifully small amount of Valium (diazepam) so that I could get through the operation without jumping ten feet in the air. They actually admitted "Hey, you were right. That Valium really does work, huh..."

Eventually, the crown that had been installed over my broken tooth began to degrade. By the time I was 30, I could feel the rough material deteriorating when I ran my tongue over the tooth. I was homeless at that time (WHILE WORKING - I've mentioned this in previous writings) and I had bottom-of-the-barrel government health insurance (which I had paid for many times over with my taxes). With that in mind, I made an appointment at a dentist's office in Colorado, USA and prepared for the worst. To my astonishment, the dentist at that clinic was actually quite understanding about the pain and anxiety associated with dental procedures and he offered to provide me with "a sedative". I asked him what the drug was, and he responded "It's Triazolam, also known as Halcion". I picked up the prescription and left the dentist's office with a healthy smile on my face.

When I filled the Triazolam prescription, I was surprised by how low the dose was. Triazolam is extremely potent, with pills in the 0.125mg - 0.25mg range being the norm. It also has a very short half-life, which explains why dentists prefer it to longer-acting benzos which might impair the patient's judgement long after they finish the procedure. I was instructed to take one pill the night before the appointment, get a good night's sleep, and take another one about 30 minutes before the beginning of the procedure the next day. The bottle contained only four tablets. I viewed the drug I held in my hand as a "collector's item" and made sure to use it wisely.

I took the first pill the night before the appointment, while hiding like a rat in a wooded area. I had a small tent obscured inside a large, shady willow tree, in order to avoid police brutality. This is unfortunately a common issue for homeless Americans, and it causes way more than enough anxiety on its own. That night, I slept like a baby, and actually felt incredibly refreshed when I woke up. As a homeless person I didn't get to experience that very often. When the moment came, I walked to the dentist's office, popped another Halcion with a big glass of water, and submitted myself to the care of the professionals.

Halcion is one of those drugs that gets people so "fucked up" that they don't even realize they're high at all. If anything, it made me feel "more normal" - but fortunately, I'm an experienced drug user, so I didn't try to fool myself. I knew I was totally impaired. The dentist was able to inject me with Novocain, carve my old tooth/crown down to a stump, and install the new/improved crown in less than an hour. I barely moved at all, and the dentist actually thanked me for being such an easy patient. I, in turn, thanked him for providing me with appropriate medicine. He told me to go relax for the rest of the day, which is exactly what I did.

First, I walked to a restaurant in the same strip-mall as the dentist's office and ordered a medium-dry vodka martini, shaken - not stirred. I was still feeling the effects of the Halcion, and I know it's dangerous to mix it with alcohol, but I was not driving (couldn't afford a car anyway) and I had nothing important to do. I also used alcohol-logic to convince myself that the martini would be beneficial, as it would sterilize the area around my new tooth. As I had expected, the combination of Halcion and vodka was much stronger than either drug by itself. I only had the one martini, and then I retired to a local public park to chill out by a small lake.

I still had two more of those beautiful, tiny, American-football-shaped Triazolam tablets. I decided to hold onto my "collector's item" for a while and save the remaining pills for either a time when I was free to relax, or an emergency situation in which I would need to calm down very rapidly. I ended up using them for a slightly different purpose.

Unfortunately, Triazolam is very difficult to find, and it's actually illegal in a lot of countries. I can certainly see how such a potent, smooth drug could be dangerously habit forming. Oh well... I did not crush it up and snort it, and I sure as hell didn't mix it with cocaine - but then again, I was never a member of Mötley Crüe.

Exp Year: 2014ExpID: 116127
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 30
Published: Jun 21, 2022Views: 890
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