DOSE:

repeated

inhaled

Inhalants

BODY WEIGHT:

65 kg

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I bought a can of air duster to clean stuffs like keyboard, mouse, etc, but I realized by accident that it could make you high while I was surfing the internet and it made me extremely excited to try huffing it. I have never done any drugs but I used to smoke and vape. It was 9 AM on Wednesday, the air duster I ordered came. I could feel my heartbeat getting really fast because of how excited and nervous I was.

Around 9:05, I tried spraying and inhaling with an open mouth, I felt little to nothing. On my second spray I huffed with closed mouth and about 5 seconds after it entered my lungs I got hit with a sudden sensation of weakness, headache, tingling around my entire body, tunnel vision and distorted sounds, and finally, a really intense euphoria and relaxation. I forgot what I was doing and all I could think of was just how amazing I was feeling.

The high was unfortunately short, only lasting for about 20 seconds. I suddenly found myself lying face down on my bed instead of standing up near the study table after the high wore off, I don't exactly remember how I got there. This time I wanted more, so I exhaled and tried to empty my lungs as much as possible so that I could fill it with as much duster gas as possible and held my breath to keep the duster gas inside my lungs for as long as possible. I suddenly got hit by a really deep feeling of heaviness and headache and I burst out laughing because of the overwhelming happiness. It felt like everything was fine and at that point I subconsciously thought that I wanted to feel like this forever and I was willing to die for this, but I dismissed the thought of it because I still felt a slight fear.

After the second high wore off, I felt compelled to do the 3rd huff, then I huffed the 4th time immediately, and this time I started to feel like I almost got paralyzed. My entire body went tingling so bad it almost became completely numb, my tongue felt really stiff, I struggled to keep my eyes open , my hearing became almost deaf, and my lips couldn't be moved. I was planning to only do it once just because I was curious about what it felt like, but I couldn't resist doing it again. It was the happiest moment of my life up until that point, I started laughing even more than before, but this time my mouth couldn't open wide so it was more like a giggle.

I kept on huffing and at that point, I was too high to care about the consequences, I didn't care if I could get brain damage, or even die. My body wanted me to stop but my brain wanted to keep going. There was only one thought in my mind that I couldn't shake out: "Huff till you die". I realized that I became enthralled by the air duster but couldn't do anything about it. At that point, the process of me huffing became fully automatic and I didn't even need to put any thought into it.

I kept huffing and lost count of how many times I did it until I started feeling really sleepy, and before I knew it, it was suddenly 4 PM. I felt a massive headache, nausea, shivering, cold tongue, and chest pains. I tried standing up but I couldn't keep my balance. I puked the stomach out of me and coughed the lungs out of me, I felt really awful and I had the urge to do it again, but this time, my fear hit me and told me that I'll suffer if I keep doing this. I noticed that huffing took a huge toll on my cognition and motor skills. I lost my sense of hunger and forgot to eat that day. My hands were unsteady and I couldn't think clearly for several days from that moment on.

I was possibly lucky to not have a good sleep on the previous night, I could've stayed awake and huffed more and likely would've caused permanent damage or even death if I weren't sleepy. As of writing this I am still feeling the aftereffects of air duster and I still crave it, the fear is starting to become weaker and the only thing keeping my fear up is writing this.

it's extremely addictive

Exp Year: 2022	ExpID: 116154
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 18
Published: Mar 31, 2022	Views: 1,555
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