DOSE: T+ 0:00	30 mg	oral	2-Fluoroamphetamine
T+ 1:00	30 mg	oral	2-Fluoroamphetamine

BODY WEIGHT:

77 kg

First Chemical Experience

At a Sunday evening, after a lot of investigation on trustworthy websites, I planned to do my first chemical experience at home. Before I took the first pill, I already was in a good mood. My purpose of this experience was to use the emotion suppression effect of 2-FA and the super good mood to use defusion techniques on sentences that in a normal situation give stress. Also make it a enjoyable evening in the meanwhile.

Defusion is a psychological technique where thoughts that hurt are bended in a totally different context so the sentences/thoughts don't hurt or cause stress so much anymore.

At 17.55 I took the first 30mg (1/2 of a 60mg pill). I had some long sets of electronic music video on that I usually like and started moving around a bit. Within 15 minutes I was dancing already but I assumed this has nothing to do with the 2-FA, normally I like dancing too. Around 18.30 I really was enjoying the music, dancing on the rhythm, where I normally felt like closing the curtains because I am worried the neighbors could see me dancing, I just did not care. I can get goosebumps quickly from music, but I noticed that I get them really a lot and felt euphoric feelings.

Around 19.00 I took the second part of the pill. Finally I closed the curtains while I still had the feeling like 'why should I', and I switched on a color changing light with laser stars. I never experienced such a care free evening in my life. I was dancing by myself and totally forgot about the purpose of the adventure.

Around 20.00 I realized that I was in the peak moment. I had a big bottle of water. I think I drank 2 liters water in 4-5 hours. At the peak moment I was investigating what I felt. Like a total free head of thoughts and no second in my mind to sit down. I tried saying a sentence that usually gives me stress, however I noticed that I was still enjoying the music, end kept dancing. So I was repeating these sentences and thinking of other thoughts that usually hurt when I think them. I did this for like 30 minutes while feeling totally euphoric about the music.

Around 20.30 I put some other electronic music on that took me in the vibe of the beat. I think I danced till 23.00. After I started a game for a hour about a girl who can revert time to solve puzzles and following the story of the game. Around 00.00 I went to bed and did notice I was tired but also still felt active. In the dark I saw a shadow that scared me a bit, but I was able to ignore that feeling and felt a sleep after I think 15 minutes.

Around 02.00 in the night I was awake and still felt like dreaming and remember that the time travel from the game was something that took part of my dreams. The night passed by with moments of sleep and being awake however with an insane amount of dreaming.

I had a 15 minute appointment at 08.00, and I was easily able to get up at 07.00. the rest of the day I did not do so much, just enjoying the sun. My mood was ok. I tried if the defusing technique worked, and the sentences did not hurt me so much, however they still felt a bit uncomfortable to think about. I had a small headache and felt thirsty. After drinking some water and coffee and a warm shower I felt better.

I will check in the upcoming time if the pressure is gone from these hurtful thoughts, if not I might do a defusion evening again. If not needed I might use this for pleasure however I was enjoying it so much that I had to remind myself that I really have to use this occasionally, because I was already thinking to plan another evening. Based on my experience, I see advantages for myself to do it more from time to time... But I want to be careful with the amount I will use it.

This experience was written not as an advice or to say that this substance might be useful for defusion techniques. Only to share my experience of this evening.

Exp Year: 2022	ExpID: 116260
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 34
Published: Apr 29, 2022	Views: 1,100
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