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I Almost Died
Lithium, Buspirone, Lamotrigine, Escitalopram & Unknown (sold as LSD)
Citation:   Solpi. "I Almost Died: An Experience with Lithium, Buspirone, Lamotrigine, Escitalopram & Unknown (sold as LSD) (exp116719)". Erowid.org. Sep 30, 2022. erowid.org/exp/116719

 
DOSE:
1 hit oral Unknown (gel tab)
    oral Pharms - Lithium (daily)
    oral Pharms - Lamotrigine (daily)
    oral Pharms - Escitalopram (daily)
    oral Pharms - Buspirone (daily)
BODY WEIGHT: 100 lb
[Erowid Note: The term "acid" has been used as a common name for d-LSD since the 1960s. Although confusion associated with newer psychoactive substances has lead some people to use the term "acid" to refer to anything LSD-like or anything psychedelic on blotter or sold in drops, we believe this represents an error and not a useful evolution in language.]
Fall of 2021, I mistakenly took a gel tab of 25I-NBOMe from a dealer I never bought from before. I tripped with my girlfriend at the time who had no experience tripping. We got in a small fight right before we took the tabs about something small. I told her that hallucinogens are to be respected at all costs, but I myself didn't listen. I got anxious because I was trying to focus on keeping a good mindset but the fight brought me down a fair bit. In my head, I knew that it was wrong to go forward with taking the acid, but we've been planning and already decided to trip that day, so I took it impulsively. Either way, my mental state only contributed to the anxiety of the trip, not the physical side effects. This wasn't my first nightmare trip either, in 2019 I experienced psychosis induced by LSD. Saying that, I knew what was coming when I first felt that something was wrong.

I started to not be able to breathe. I desperately became hyperfocused on avoiding another nightmare trip but that frightened me even more, to the core. I tried to convince myself that I simply just needed to lay down and breathe manually because the inability to breathe normally was making me extremely anxious. I could hear and feel my heart pounding in my chest, increasingly growing faster and harder. I thought it was just the trip, but I was actually having an incredibly bad physical reaction to the drug. I realized that eventually. At that point, I knew I was going to die because it did not feel like LSD in the first place and my breathing was getting more and more shallow, which was not normal at all. I felt so terrible, I knew it wasn't just the trip making me paranoid. I knew it wasn't right. I was looping about how I was genuinely going to die. I was absolutely terrified. My girlfriend said I had the most terrified face she's seen on anybody. The entire trip I just focused on my breath, attempting to slow down my heart as much as I could to try and survive, even though it was still increasing in speed.

Eventually, I stopped moving and responding and I became lost in the visuals. I couldn't see. All I saw was red and orange because of the lighting in the room. I stopped being able to hear my girlfriend talking, at that point she sounded muffled and that her voice was fading in and out. I started to go in and out of consciousness. She began to panic and called over a close friend. When she arrived, I started seizing and foaming at my mouth. When the ambulance came, they had to call in four firefighters for backup because I was flailing uncontrollably, keep in mind I am a 4'11 female that barely weighs 100lb. I was also overheating and my face was literally as red as a tomato because I was so hot. As I said, I couldn't hear or see and I was falling in and out of consciousness, but I remember hearing a couple things such as the paramedic asking my acquaintances how old I was and what medications I take.

[Speaking of medications, I was an absolute dumbass and decided to take my medications (Lithium, Buspar, Lamotrigine, and Lexapro) that day even though a trip was planned. I underestimated mixing lithium and lexapro with psychedelics. I've tripped dozens of times but I hadn't tripped since I started lithium two years before.
I've tripped dozens of times but I hadn't tripped since I started lithium two years before.
I'm incredibly lucky to have survived.]

Five hours later, I woke up to the sound of a heart monitor flatlining (not sure if my heart actually stopped for a second or if I was just flailing so much that the electrode pads popped off) and at least three nurses around me trying to save my life, along with one on top of me pumping my chest as I was rushed into a room. The first thought I had when I woke up was, "not again." I didn't remember a thing, but the first thing I did was rush to my apple watch, which I was luckily still wearing, to write down my dad's number for the staff to contact. The only thing is, I didn't remember either of my parents' numbers. Then I realized I remembered barely anything at all, including important things that should've been engraved in my head such as my birthday and my girlfriend's last name. I was shaking a lot and I couldn't focus my vision. I had no idea what happened, but I'm glad I blacked out. I had no idea whether or not I ran away and something happened and a stranger called the hospital or if I did something stupid and hurt the people I love again. All I knew that I was still most definitely loved and cared for by my parents (I didn't know if I fucked things up with my girlfriend as that happened last trip) and that if I saw them I wouldn't be scared anymore. I went on my watch again then looked through my messages in case anyone was worried about me. It was miraculously connected to my phone which my girlfriend had because my room was right next to the waiting area. I felt more at ease because I didn't fuck anything up again and that they were all just worried and there for me. This happened during the time of covid, so there was a no-visitor rule. However, my mom works at that hospital, and thankfully she was able to convince them to let her in, which I'm so grateful for because I immediately sobered up and felt comforted when I saw her walk in. Once I got out of the hospital I noticed multiple, multiple bruises throughout my body because my blood was clotting quite a bit too.

After that, most of the after effects lasted for about a month. My short term memory was absolutely terrible, and I still couldn't remember anyone's phone number. For days, I even forgot I had a sister. I was in a deep fog, like I wasn't actually there. I also developed some minor fears such as crossing the street but that went away after a month or so. Red also used to be my favorite color, but it scared me for several months. Test your drugs kids. I wonder if I have any permanent heart damage now.

[Erowid Note: Unconfirmed Serious Injury Report. This report of a serious injury was submitted without verifiable details or contact information. Erowid is choosing to publish this report to invite public comment and to allow anyone who knows about this event to submit details that we can verify. Neither this report nor any report of a hospitalization should be considered reliable without details that can be verified through hospitals, police reports, family members, or news reports. If you have information about this incident or other experience resulting from the use of any psychoactive substance we cover, please contact sage at erowid.org.]

Exp Year: 2021ExpID: 116719
Gender: Female 
Age at time of experience: 21
Published: Sep 30, 2022Views: 1,157
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LSD (2), NBOMe Series (539), Pharms - Buspirone (155), Pharms - Escitalopram (304), Pharms - Lithium (91), Pharms - Lamotrigine  (432), Unknown (120) : Small Group (2-9) (17), What Was in That? (26), Train Wrecks & Trip Disasters (7), Health Problems (27), Combinations (3)

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