I Am a Mailbox
Salvia divinorum (80x extract), Cannabis & Cigarettes
Citation: C. "I Am a Mailbox: An Experience with Salvia divinorum (80x extract), Cannabis & Cigarettes (exp116744)". Erowid.org. Aug 28, 2025. erowid.org/exp/116744
| DOSE: |
smoked | Cannabis | ||
| 1 hit | smoked | Salvia divinorum | (extract) | |
| joints/cigs | smoked | Tobacco - Cigarettes |
| BODY WEIGHT: | 170 lb |
I smoked 3 times within about a weeks time, twice one day alone, then once with friends about a week after, ending with too strong of an experience and ended up giving the extract to my friends. I am writing this report as the trips have stuck with me, and salvia was unlike any other drug I had or have tried. I used about 100mg of extract/plant matter each time.
Trip 1:
I arrive at my grandparents house with the salvia extract. I am eager to try this drug, but also cautious as the experiences I had read about seemed more intense than other drugs. I sit on a picnic table on the cement patio, and load the bong. As I inhale I remember to hold as long as possible. It tastes and smells awful, a smell that has stuck with me. I hold the smoke for 30 seconds, then exhale. I don't notice anything at all, I think to myself something like "well, this is bunk?" and immediately I start to feel strange and super super high. Like my head is a balloon full of helium. Dark rectangles start to appear to the right of my vision, shooting from left to right top to bottom, eventually completely encompassing my vision. I can almost feel the shape of the visual distortion I am seeing, I can feel the hard edges of the darkness. Eventually everything goes black from the rectangles. I think I'm blind for a second, then realize I have closed my eyes and open them again.
I start to feel this burning/ dry sensation all over my body, like my skin isn't my own and has some sort of strange spiritual fire like energy coursing through it. I want to take off my cloths and let my body breath and I remember reading about that happening in others experiences so I fight the urge to rip everything off and run to the grass to ground myself. When I touch the grass I start howling like a dog, I am out of control, I try to move my arm, its moving itself partially, like I only have half control of it. Its like I can move one direction but it (the salvia) controls the other 2 axis. My legs are taking me all over the yard. I try to point a direction to them but they don't listen. Suddenly I become my deceased dog from childhood, his name was Spencer. Not physically but mentally. I run around the yard barking like I'm him, trying to get my body back under control, then eventually I gain more control and go hug a tree till I come down from the salvia.
2. About an hour later I go up to the forest by my grandparents house and smoke another bowl out of a pipe. I feel different, I don't remember much, the spot I smoked at is significant in my memory still even now but other than that I don't remember much happening aside from creative thought.
3. About a week later. I go to visit my friends/ weed dealers house. I bring the salvia because I know they are into psychedelics. We smoke some weed (small amount), there are friends A and B. A is B's girlfriend. Anyways, B is the first to hit the salvia. We sit in a circle in their room and B takes a huge hit. He exhales after holding and then passes the bong to A. B is in a giant trance, he is just sitting and staring, A hits the salvia, then about 5 minutes after B hitting the salvia A passes bong and I hit the salvia. I load a big hit. It might have been closer to 200mg. Immediately I start to feel it. I start to panic, I smoked too much, I have to go smoke a cigarette to calm down and regain some control. I go to smoke, A and B join me.
I hit the cigarette, it was a Camel Turkish Royal, half way through the cigarette I feel like I'm gonna pass out and hand the cigarette to A or B. I go to the grass outside to have something soft to fall on, then my body starts to freeze and plank while I'm standing. I go completely rigid, my body completely planks, and I leave reality. All the sudden I am a mailbox.
I go to the grass outside to have something soft to fall on, then my body starts to freeze and plank while I'm standing. I go completely rigid, my body completely planks, and I leave reality. All the sudden I am a mailbox.
Suddenly I am ripped away from that conscious experience. All the sudden I am thrown into a forest, there are inhabitants there and they start shooting arrows at me. I feel the arrows piercing my skin, not painful, but very mentally uncomfortable. I feel the arrows themselves, in my body, as well as my body with the arrows in them. I think they didn't know what I was and were frightened. Then I wake up, lying on the grass, A is shouting at me asking if I'm ok, I open my eyes and A is a ferris wheel but the carts aren't carts, the carts on the ferris wheel are her head, and they keep circling around and around. I say I'm ok and lay there. Eventually I come back, and everything seems to be normal.
We go back inside, B starts playing some music and puts a cool music visualizer on the TV, I watch, until it starts to feel like the light in the tv is pulling me in. I realize I am still tripping, and the trip feels like the tv wants to bring me into a digital world forever and take me out of this reality, and it feels like the tv is physically sucking me into it with the light. I imagine what a digital life would be like, would I be able to contact the people I know from inside? Would the trip ever end? I eventually realize I am too high to watch this stuff and just look at the fabric on furniture. Eventually I come down, and as I'm leaving I give the salvia to A and B cause the experience I had was too much and I was still feeling light effects after about 30 minutes.
I never fully came back from that last experience, I still constantly feel like I could still be in a dream or tripping on it and not realize it, have bad derealization, the experiences I had were powerful, enlightening, and frightening. I take an antipsychotic now, have for 8 years, it's terrible, wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy, and I feel these experiences may have made my mental health much worse. I highly recommend to be cautious and respectful of this drug, as to not suffer permanent mental consequences. For my age at the time, I should have been much more cautious. I do believe it can be safely used and highly beneficial to the expansion of our understanding of consciousness.
| Exp Year: 2013 | ExpID: 116744 |
| Gender: Male | |
| Age at time of experience: 17 | |
| Published: Aug 28, 2025 | Views: Not Supported |
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