DOSE: T+ 0:00	repeated	insufflated	Cocaine	(powder / crystals)
T+ 5:00	2 lines	insufflated	Ketamine	(powder / crystals)
T+ 55:00	200 - 300 mg	insufflated	Ketamine	(powder / crystals)
T+ 0:00	200 mg	insufflated	Ketamine	(powder / crystals)

BODY WEIGHT:

150 lb

This was nowhere near my first experience with coke, and I had done ketamine once before but only a smaller recreational dose, maybe .3 or .4 grams. I happened upon a sizeable quantity of both substances and was interested to see what a larger ketamine dose would look like on the tail end of a coke high. This particular batch of coke is good, not fantastic, but reasonably decent. So I went about my business, doing small lines and listening to music from about 4:00 PM to 9:00 PM. This was when I decided that ketamine would enter the picture.

I was still working on getting the dosage right and how often to administer, chopping up lines instinctively makes me think of coke which is a re-dose every 20-30 minutes type of substance. I decided that I would re-dose, but I would take a large portion of the ketamine first, then take a little more if I wanted to push the experience further. I insufflated approximately .5 grams of ketamine in 2 lines. The rush from the coke was wearing off but I wasn't crashing or anything yet.

After about 10 minutes, my room was suddenly a different place entirely, but also not? It felt as though I was out on the plains before the buffalo were massacred by the settlers, and I had a distinct feeling that I was with an indigenous person in the room with me, acting as a guide without uttering a word, but when I shifted my focus from peripheral to direct vision he was gone. My visual field became blurry and slowed down as if I went from 60 fps to about 10. Where was I again? Why do I feel so disconnected from my ego? Right, I consumed ketamine. I have had many experiences with other psychedelics like mushrooms, LSD, and DMT but this was something entirely different. After about 45 minutes of just listening to music, I wanted to up the ante. I insufflated another .2-.3 of the ketamine.

Now things really started to get strange. I was hallucinating for sure, but the visuals were so highly realistic. My visual field was warping and I continued to feel strangely comforted by my imaginary indigenous trip sitter. Fuck it - I'm doing the rest. Insufflated the last .2 or so that I had, and within 10 minutes my visual field narrowed down completely to about the size of a quarter, otherwise all black. Ah, this must be the k-hole. Couldn't speak, move, or do much of anything really. Just absorb the experience. Somehow I managed to climb into my bed and put on my noise-cancelling headphones to watch a live set from my favorite drum and bass artist. In no time at all I would have sworn to you I was there at that event, hearing the chatter from the people around me, the music bending and warping all my other senses in a very enjoyable way. It soon became clear to me that I no longer realized who, what, where, or when I was. Simply that I existed - everything else was up for debate. Am I at a rave? Am I sitting in an ambulance in an unconscious state? I had no clue. I just went with it, allowing the music to guide my experience. It was immensely enjoyable and completely baffling all at once. After about 2.5 hours, something clicked back into place. My ego took on its normal function - the little homunculus sitting behind my eyes and thinking my thoughts was regaining control. I switched over to some documentaries about space and cosmology and allowed the tranquilizing effect of the ketamine to get some rest, though calling it sleep would be somewhat inaccurate. The next morning I was largely back to normal, but felt less depressed than usual and could put another notch on my belt for all the experiences with substances I've collected.

Upon reflection, I did not experience ego death, which I have on high doses of LSD or DMT. My ego did not die - it was shattered, scrambled, and deeply perturbed. As the ketamine wore off, my mind slowly reassembled my ego back into its normal function. I remained a thinker of thoughts through the experience - but the processes by which those thoughts bubbled to the surface was unlike anything I'd experienced before. I was frankly glad I was alone, I'm sure if I had a friend with me they would have been troubled by my speech and behavior. I've been to music festivals before, seen people, and thought, what in the world is this dude on? Now I have my answer for sure. While bizarre, I look forward to future experimentation. Now I know that everything must be in its place before I consume and that I will largely be incapacitated at a breakthrough dose of this stuff. This is one of those substances where a large dose isn't just a more intense version of a small dose; it becomes a different experience altogether.

Exp Year: 2022	ExpID: 116910
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 32
Published: Jan 1, 2023	Views: 763
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