DOSE:	repeated	insufflated	4-AcO-DMT	(powder / crystals)
		smoked	Tobacco - Cigarettes
			Cannabis

BODY WEIGHT:

120 lb

I’m 19 and I’d say I have more drug experience than the average party girl, I’ve done mushrooms at least 30 times, tripped acid about 10 times, had a good bit of experience with opiates, benzos, nitrous, other inhalants, and even some rough times with Benadryl and Dramamine in my earlier days. I’ve had very spiritual trips- various psychedelic breakthroughs, and plenty of difficult and dangerous moments on different things.

I had just gotten done with a week long binge with my partner, nothing crazy but we did light doses of 4-Aco-DMT (less than 5mg, highest we did was 7.5mg), some hydros, nitrous, and shared lots and lots of cigs.

I wanna preface by saying 4-AcO is actually a really nice drug! We would take one to three 2.5mg lines and have great times! It’s very gentle compared to mushrooms, less visual and more clear headed, it just adds a nice soft edge to everything without being too much tho I will say it can be overwhelming when psychologically or emotionally distressed. We both had nightmares one time after passing out 20 minutes after redosing.

That being said, this drug is NOT worth doing a lot of, for the most part I do not get more than enhanced colors and depth visual wise, it is very enjoyable and can even give cool closed eye visuals, but I dose low and appreciate the experience for what it’s worth. In my experience it even mixes well with things. And without further adieu here’s my story of not respecting said chemical~

- At 9:40am I snorted ~6mg
The girlfriend I’d been spending the week with had to go home the day before, I was very distraught and subconsciously chasing the feelings we shared together, I never wanted to come down from her being home with me. Keep in mind prior to this we did 2.5 mg lines and only between 3-8mg in a night so this is already a fairly high dose. I somehow decided what the hell I'm gonna do a fair bit in the morning on my off day and enjoy it, thinking it would be easier to abstain till she came back home next month if I got my urges out of the way. It was enjoyable from what I remember, I did some cleaning and was for once very excited about seeing her again- normally I feel very hopeless when she leaves but this time I was looking up :3

- Just after noon I snorted ~4mg
I thought ah yk this is nice, I'm home all day, and I figure I could dose in a manner that kinda keeps me at the same level for longer- I wanted to enjoy my day and honestly not let her absence set in.

- at 12:15pm I snorted yet another ~2.5mg
In hindsight this is already getting a bit out of hand, I didn’t even wait the 25-60 minutes to let my dose kick in I just sorta took more. Maybe I was manic that day- maybe stupid, probably both but it doesn’t make a difference in what I somehow did. The high was still nice though, I was getting a good bit of cleaning done which felt good, my room had been a mess from disregarding it for the last week to get the most out of my time with my girl. I was very excited to call her soon on her lunch break. I took a nice shower and enjoyed my music and the hot water on my back, I closed my eyes and could vividly imagine what it would be like exploring downtown in summer with my two partners, I was thrilled to be almost done with February, and the upcoming summer months were calling my name.

- at 1:05pm I smoked a cigarette
I sat in my car on FaceTime with my lovely lady, enjoying my energetic air and having lots of fun enthusiastically yappin to her about whatever came to mind, it was wonderful sitting with my nic buzz in my car with her just like we would when she was here. Our banter was very soothing it felt like she’d never left, talking was so natural just like in person. I noticed driving was fairly hard at this point, depth was really thrown off and I’m glad I only had to drive around the block real quick to my smoke spot. Feeling good, I went back inside after our call.

[Erowid Note: Driving while intoxicated, tripping, or extremely sleep deprived is dangerous and irresponsible because it endangers other people. Don't do it!]
- At 2:58pm I snorted ~3mg
My wife had come home from work, we decided we should go get lunch since neither of us had eaten and I was not in a state to go anywhere, she took me for a nice car ride to a local sandwich place and naturally my junkie ass wanted to reside for our adventure! The ride was pleasant, we talked happily while we sang along to our jams and I had a blast sticking my hands out of her sun roof and feeling the cold air run thru my fingers. Still feeling happy and energetic, socializing wasn’t too bad though I stumbled thru my order a little bit.

- at 4:13pm I snorted ~4mg
This is getting dumb, the high is so convoluted at this point I’m trying to figure out what to do to enjoy it and nothings quite hitting. Full of yummy sandwich now I tried playing some video games, nothing lasted long, they all disinterested me like they normally do when I’m down and missing my girlfriend and I think deep down that scared me. I can’t stand the hopeless feeling of being away from her. Her living situation is majorly abusive but she’s sort of stuck there for now so we gotta make the best of it and get thru for another year or so. The prospect of this starts to set in more and I guess I kept chasing my urges. I remember joking to my side ‘heheee should I be excessive tonight?’ Not knowing how much I took or how much is too much she didn’t press me not to. She was supportive as always an said hey if this is how you need to rest and recover go for it. I should’ve been more conscious of what was happening, or what I was doing or what I was planning on doing. I somehow decided to recklessly do all this shit without consciously second guessing anything. Maybe I was fueling some mania with psychedelics and only getting more manic lmao. Whatever the case I decided to do something really really stupid.

- at 5:45pm I snorted ~3mg
I railed another line, sat with it for just a sec and thought wow I’m not seeing much and I’m kinda losing what little of a high this is- I wanted more out of it like mushrooms or something, I wanted distorted visuals and fractal patterns and meshed colors and the warbly adventurous feeling mushrooms would give me, and supposedly people report this drug as ‘indistinguishable’ from shrooms. Major bullshit lol. As if I wasn’t being stupid enough already, I decided to completely reckless

- at 5:47pm I snorted ~9mg
All at once- one fat ass line. This is fucking insane I don’t even know exactly how much I took this time round cuz I didn’t even measure. I knew one of my little spoonfuls was roughly 10mg so I dumped some out on my tray and knocked it back with no hesitation. I wanted more, I agreed to be sober whenever my gfs gone and this wasn’t satisfying me how I thought it would. I ended up calling her shortly after this, we barbered for a while and I was very energetic and giggly. She pointed out that I was being silly and it sort of set in that I didn’t fucking tell her I was doing all this. I promised to save our substances for us and somehow without catching myself I went against that. I think subconsciously that started to become apparent but in my excited state I tried to enjoy the night with her- that’s all I really wanted in the first place was to still feel close to her.

We talked for a while, all is well. I notice at some parts I get quick perception shifts- it feels like I’m briefly falling into the tv across the room at times. Occasionally I’ll get a sudden flood of increased color hues, things get brighter for a Moment and fade, I’ve experienced this before on 4-AcO but not this often and to this extent. I think I had so many ‘waves’ because of how many times I redosed. After talking for like an hour and a half we decided to play gta lol it was fun, we bantered more as I drove fast cars n stuff,, we did some average gta bullshit and blew some stuff up.

At probably 7:30ish things started quickly going downhill. I was just blabbin on the phone happily playin our game and at about the same time we realized I was somewhere random, like I just ran a few blocks away from where we were without noticing. I was completely unaware I thought I was very actively gaming and pressing buttons an suddenly- where tf am I?? I thought maybe I died in game or something but she said I just walked off. It started to be apparent I wasn’t all here right now, I drank some water, started feeling sick so I decided to go to the bathroom. Just after getting in I realized something was very wrong, my vision was fading and I felt woozy - not like when you stand up too fast or anything but I realized I was passing out. I started walking back to my room to go tell my wife, checking my pulse on my neck as I walked. My vision continued to fade, my face felt weird, my pulse was strained- it felt like my heart was beating very hard but very slow and I could feel with my hand there wasn’t enough blood in my neck, it wasn’t continuously flowing. I got back to my wife, told her I didn’t feel good and was passing out or something. My hearing started to go at this point, everything muffled accompanied with tinnitus. I laid on her and out her hand to my neck and asked that she keep me safe. The time now is about 8pm.

She started talking to me, my condition started improving and I was more able to explain and process that I did way too much. I came clean and told her I was reckless and didn’t measure and redosed too much and did more than I ever heard of someone taking. She asked how dangerous this is and I shrugged. It’s a research chem it’s all tentative. It’s a psychedelic so probably *less* physically dangerous, but I knew things like ‘brain zaps’, overheating, seizures, hot flashes, etc were things that could happen. We talked more, things started to get really weird. Visuals and experience went crazy as if I was on 3ish tabs of acid, or upwards of 2 grams of shrooms. I saw through things, objects didn’t have dimension they were shadows of things unfathomable to 3rd dimensional being, a world of eyes and angels and wheels and rings presents itself through the fabric of reality, my wife forgave and understood me, she told me this won’t happen again, she spoke straight to my soul. The world showed me what could’ve happened. I watched myself collapse on the bathroom floor. I wasn’t absently seeing a vision like in other experiences of mine, it was all happening to me right there, I stared into her eyes and what reflected in my mind was all that could have been. Thru light thru eyes, thru rings, thru feathers I was shown grace. The world (thanked?) me for my sorrow- appreciated my penitence. I went against what I value, I betrayed my lover, I endangered us. I will learn from this. Nothing is ruined, but this I cannot take back. This cannot happen again.

I spent the rest of the night shaking, sometimes crying. Shivering and reflecting. Processing what happened why it happened how it happened. What I should’ve done, what I could do still, and how I would be better going forward. I came clean to my girlfriend too,, I counselt bear not telling her even though I was messed up I needed to talk about it. We had a very productive conversation, especially for being intoxicated and us both hurting and concerned. At about 10pm I finally got some sleep and went to work the next day 👍

In summary: respect your substances, respect your wishes and values and loved ones. Don’t ever get stuck in the sky when you’re high. This was no more enjoyable than a couple 2.5mg lines.

Exp Year: 2024	ExpID: 117930
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: Apr 19, 2026	Views: Not Supported
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