DOSE:

6 seeds

oral

H.B. Woodrose

BODY WEIGHT:

63 kg

First time using this tool, after much contemplating and as I had only recently turned 18 I acquired the seeds. Experienced user advised me to only start with 4 seeds but opted to a normal dose instead, had tried morning glory seeds prior bringing me only physical effects. I had informed myself on the subjective effects… it wasn’t going to be a smooth ride.

After 30 minutes on that summer afternoon, with music playing. I found myself lying down, as if in and out of reality. Staring blankly across the room, there was a heightening nausea along with dysphoria… It took an hour since the ingestion until I had to purge.

The music irritated me, I wasn’t having fun. What was there to do? No visual or auditory hallucinations. Still lying down.

+2h, I managed to regain strength while still feeling blank. Boredom was definitely not anticipated. At that time I tried to philosophize, gain insight -if there was any to be gained-. Would think of things that usually angered me but this time I couldn’t get mad. People who annoyed me, past experiences, bad ones. I felt like forgiving it all. That felt so unusual of me. At that moment I had no feelings, was emotionless. No internal monologue, but also self conscious. I felt terror! Scared of who I’d be without my emotions. I wasn’t me. Im usually joyous, but I was stone faced. Had lost my identity and probably here’s the insight. My emotions are who I am. If I wasn’t me I’d be anyone else. Everything is part of me. Even my queerness!

+4h As it was getting late at night had to pick myself up and go for a walk, my eyes fully dilated now, mouth dry as the Sahara. Walking felt strange as if lightheaded, street lights would shine through the blurriness.

+5h after returning home needless to say I felt restless and could not sleep for many hours. The next day hangover was noticeable.

To conclude, although since the experience it’s been a year. Am not sure whether to categorize it as a bad trip or ego death. It was definitely challenging. Best to have a trip sitter, be prepared and stay safe<3

Exp Year: 2022	ExpID: 118109
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 18
Published: Dec 19, 2025	Views: Not Supported
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