DOSE: T+ 0:00	32.5 mg	oral	Pharms - Zolpidem
T+ 1:30	13 mg	oral	Pharms - Zolpidem
T+ 2:00	60 mg	oral	Hydroxyzine

BODY WEIGHT:

170 lb

I've been prescribed benzos since I was 12, I'm now 32. So I've been on them the vast majority of my life consistently without break (alprazolam, lorazepam, Clonazepam, Diazepam, tamezepam, primarily, sometimes prescribed together, sometimes on their own) .

Blame my doctors for putting a child on such intense medications at such high doses. But here I am now just figuring it out.

So I state this just so people can bear in mind I have an absurd tolerance. I have horrible panic disorder, PTSD, the world, and sometimes I'm genuinely just desperate to get sleep. I'm currently in a span where I can't seem to fall asleep with THC, CBD, CBN, or just good ol hydroxyzine, Lyrica, Klonopin, nothing seems to be doing it but Ambien in higher dose.

It's about 5:00pm and I take 5, ER 6.5mg pills on an empty stomach. Empty being, I haven't eaten today. I'm slightly excited and nervous as I wait for it to kick in. The prospect of sleep after none for 5 days, at this point, feels like a god send. When I get this sleep deprived I tend to go to the hospital if this doesn't work.

6:00pm starting to feel quite comfortable but struggling to focus my eyes. My mind is also having a hard time retaining information. I feel fine and quite relaxed. I almost have tracers in my vision but that could also be from the lack of eye focus. I'm going to drink more water and give it a bit then check it. My mouth feels quite dry and my ears are quite warm and red.

6:30 still just feeling relaxed, and quite heavy, my arms don't want to lift off the bed at all and I'm quite out of it. May be experiencing slight tracers or my eyes may just not be focusing well. (Well shoot I said that twice apparently so I definitely am having tracers haha) I took another 2 of the 6.25 mg pills and am hoping that helps me finally get sleep.

7:00pm the last two definitely started to take effect as I'm really tired, and my body feels exceptionally heavy and warm, I took 60mg of hydroxyzine just as a fall back.

7:40 I'm absolutely going to bed. Seeing things in the corner of my eyes but not being stressed and just feeling comfy no matter how I lay down has been nice, but sleep will be nicer! If I make little sense I'm sorry, I'm probably going to read this tomorrow and smack myself upside the head.

It's been relaxing but definitely not a "party drug" in my experience. Helps me relax then crash out and stay asleep till morning.

I likely will have almost no memory of the time after I took it so it's absolutely best to try and sleep immediately and if I don't, I just stay in a safe space with someone who I trust who can make sure I don't take off driving or something wild. It's frankly scary how I wake up and just have glimpses of my night, it doesn't feel like I even experienced it. I likely wont remember much and it can cause anxiety in itself.

Over all it's something I'll do many times more. Don't remember last night at all, don't remember writing any of this but I know I was safe and I know I got sleep!

Wok up at 7:00am with no alarm and no bad side effects, aside from thirst maybe, though I did have some strange dreams.

Exp Year: 2024	ExpID: 118419
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 31
Published: Aug 11, 2025	Views: Not Supported
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