DOSE:

10 - 305 ug

oral

1T-LSD

(pill / tablet)

BODY WEIGHT:

74 kg

*I used a translator, so sorry for spelling / grammar*

I am 48 years old and have smoked marijuana and hashish since my youth (16). At the age of 22 I ingested magic mushrooms for the first time, some MDMA, and have always been interested in LSD all my life. MDMA has always been a bit weird for me and limited to just the feeling of happiness. The day after was always quite depressed and I never really enjoyed it. Mushrooms were more interesting, but I had never taken a high or heroic dose.

In 2023, I discovered 1-D-LSD (which later turned out to be 1-T-LSD, because the lab had probably simply found a cheaper way and initially misinformed us all). I experimented with microdosing and slowly approached the LSD trip. I think I took a scientific approach and slowly increased the dose. After 10 – 40 μg doses, I prepared for the first real dose and took 80 μg. The experience was gentle and left me wanting more.

The next dose was 150μg and that was also nice and gentle. There were also first visual effects and very deep thinking.

More microdoses and then 250μg – the first ego death. I saw the white light and had the first moment of realization. It is fascinating, because in this moment you experience a reality that everything that shakes and burdens you, simply takes away any basis, can have an influence on itself at all. Definitely one of the most important experiences of my life. The visual effects were present for 3 hours, smooth and pleasant.

305 μg taken at 05:40 am, first effects after just under 20 minutes, much earlier than expected (although this possibility has clearly manifested itself in advance). The previous trip was 250 μg and led to ego death, the white light and first realization. Therefore, it was clear that a further increase in the dose would lead to stronger effects.

In the weeks before, the plan was in place, but everyday life has not really been merciful to me lately. There were extreme stressful situations at work, frustration in married life and to make matters worse, there were also 4 weeks of problems with the spine ... basically a huge slap in the face of life, which makes it clear that things can't go on like this and that the screws have to be readjusted. That was behind me in the last few weeks and I think I had managed to significantly reduce the importance of work and also had a clarifying discussion with my wife again.

The mindset was good, it's Sunday and I'm on vacation next week. Yesterday the time was changed – winter time, i.e. set back 1 hour. When I woke up at 5:20 a.m., everything felt good and I was delighted that the time worked out so nicely. My wife usually sleeps longer, so I wouldn't bother her.

I prepared a small breakfast and took my small packet of micro and macro tablets – eight times 10μg and one 225μg washed down with a good sip of water and then breakfast.

After about 20 minutes it became quite intense and really uncontrollable. First of all, the expected waves of happiness, but also significant changes in thoughts.

Basically, the rise was so fast that everything melted away. The central experience of ego death was not the center of the trip this time, but the ego was simply gone and the LSD began to act like fireworks in the brain and triggered incredible trains of thought that were incredibly profound and directly burst the pillars of reality and the mind.

Psychotic tendencies – clearly too deep and a shaking of the known boundaries of thought that brings one to one's limits intellectually and frightens the mind, thought dissolution, transcendental awakening. (Birth is chaos)

All conscious thoughts began to dissolve themselves, as well as to question the known reality. Normally, thinking has its limits and one is inclined not to delve deeper into questions of being and thoughts. Who am I? Why do I think what I think? In this level, every thought automatically led to these levels. Everything was picked apart and dissolved. Entire rooms and worlds were turned over in the mind and with every change of page one's own spirit was shaken and wanted to dissolve. No sense of time in this phase and even music was no salvation. I had played 70s child Crimson and I have to say that at that moment the complexity of the music was absolutely overwhelming for me. It felt like two hours that I needed to move from the couch to the CD player and turn off the music. Looking back, this was absolutely understandable to me, as a whole library gathered inside me to turn enough pages while my perception of my reality shook again and again. It slowly began to scare me, as it blew my mind and imagination over and over again. I'm not alone – suddenly I realized that I have my beloved wife just a few meters away from me. My wife, my great love ... a new goal.

But the next thing I didn't like was the silence and I chose wisely... Music for quiet moments by Robert Fripp. The calm spherical sounds were better and gave some inner peace. But now quickly seek the proximity of my wife.

A few months ago I had bought a psychedelic painting for the bedroom and had never seen it on Psychedelics before ... the picture fired colors and patterns at me so that I froze at first and had to absorb the shapes and patterns. A man in a meditation seat, surrounded by energetic rays and impulses, actually a very restless picture, but now everything was in motion and pulsating. But just a few moments later, the next wave of thoughts came and led to the same depths again. Everything transcended again and again to the deepest levels of existence. A feeling is absorbed, thoughts arise, like a stack of cards that you let fly into the air and the thoughts shatter into further thoughts, a feeling becomes an idea that explains and questions itself and questions its own existence more and more deeply, while at the same time fragments of existence explain themselves and at the same time are questioned (FLOP) and dissolve further and further. Every thought and every feeling multiplies and everything becomes so much more that you just can't grasp it anymore. At the same time, you have grasped it and simply cannot grasp it at that moment. (FLOP) The next thought multiplies into so many theses and questions, during which one understands a realization of the last FLOP, only to drown in another cascade of truths.

Too much, everything is too much ... into bed and hugging my wife's body.

This closeness and warmth ... everything is so beautiful and I feel love. The moment is beautiful and I manage to keep it. It is a calming feeling, of real pure love. It feels right and is analyzed naturally... the realization is quickly confirmed and makes my mind circle again. FLOP FLOP FLOP ... even in the quieter phase, the thoughts continue to dissolve and it is just so intense to experience how everything dissolves. One approaches more and more the limits that the mind can no longer grasp. But you still experience it, this realization that the problems of the ego are not real, but create themselves. The wisdom that everything is connected and flows together and everything is one.

It always leads to the point where you understand that reality itself dissolves as soon as you pursue this thought further. It is not fear, but a firm understanding that this level is not yet to be fully experienced. This is not yet the time, because we still have a physical shell and all the knowledge for physical existence is there.

The spiritual side has its experience, knowledge has been gained here and we experience a power through the feeling of unity, which we are now aware of and exist. There is no existential crisis, because being is the highest thing you can experience. All that keeps us from life are irritations that we impose on ourselves and manipulations that we have not yet recognized.

The next waves form and I feel stable and don't want to scare my wife. So back to the living room – the calm, spherical sounds are inviting and I set off.

Differentiation of subjective feelings, emotional status - after initial waves, which have a really strong effect on me, because I am not looking for a community / groups / cliques dynamic / or there is no reference. It's still difficult to classify the time, but I think it was now 8 o'clock and there was this moment when I briefly separated myself from the feeling I had experienced. It started an internal inventory and ran relatively autonomously. Subconscious fireworks, very effective and an increase in pulsating waves.

Good
Proximity was a primary need – must come as quickly and efficiently as possible.
Again a short visit to my wife and another dose of hug and body closeness. Slowly my wife was awake and realized that it had already hit me hard. At this point, the fireworks were under control and I could honestly confirm that everything was fine.
- 60 minutes classic MDMA heat / LSD heat
- 2 hours of madness of self-overturning thoughts and deep insights
- Very intense pulsation of the whole body for a good 10 hours

What we have in common – to experience together
At what point is it more merciful to be against oneself (here ego) and the feeling, the real one, and to experience beauty and joy together. The decadence of only going into enjoyment, of dissolving it, so to speak, in order to be closest to what we receive as desirable, maximally defined by ourselves. Release... just surrender ... sink into thoughts again and again and leave the ego behind. Thoughts go deep. Every emotion is dissolved and images follow that are fired into the mind and present connections. Emotional memory, all information is opened, like opening blossoms and the primal emotions fire up the soul and you feel the pure, pure emotions - from joy, to sadness, from hope to fear, social contexts, faces of passers-by tell stories, some people shine so beautifully, others are so lost and confused ...
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No matter at which point you think out, write out, everything becomes more bizarre and ego-related
….
Tear apart, comprehend and at the moment of creation .... Burst
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All the energy that enraptures and exists .... Existence in itself is always a good anchor point, also in relation to expectations.
It's a lot of spectrum
We define that there is something besides us
We define a world around us, the world is beautiful

No direct visual change, plastic effects and movement that develops into changing structures. All structures are considered and everything starts to move and flow.

Waves increase in intensity, whereby the question arises inside whether everything has not already been processed further than one realizes at that moment. (As mentioned at the beginning, the realization often came with a delay, which always makes it difficult to absorb the realization .) Every side of thought is immediately analyzed and evaluated, technically picked apart, until any individual existence that questions a uniqueness is immediately defined as an enemy.
Philosophical gimmicks that are deliberately controlled to protect the reality of the ego.

The problem is when the ego starts fighting itself efficiently...

In real terms, the trip started at 6 a.m
Peak should be 10-11 a.m.

In a strange moment, the impulse to use the laptop came. Tried to load From... and ended in an advertising popup madness. Advertising is like a raid in the forest ... hahahaha. It's fascinating how much that amused me at that moment. It made it clear that there are these regularities that the ego clings to. Routines that always keep you busy and define seemingly important processes. Very practical, because you are kept busy and cannot come up with stupid thoughts about life or your own existence.

At the same time, the disgusting systems that manipulate and control every area – symbolically here by the attempt to illegally help oneself to one medium, only to gift another system with its attention and to be attacked with massive advertising bombardments. Actually, everything you don't create yourself is always associated with costs ...

9:30 I observe, parallel and try to take a snapshot of the mind every now and then. Definitely a lot of thoughts, the attempt to capture something here is quite natural and always brings a collective consciousness – consciously not subconsciously. It is very easy to recognize, because it is not these empty phrases that you keep suggesting to yourself, but rather a firm feeling that something is the way it is, that something is pure and unadulterated, that intentions do not have to be viewed with suspicion, but that nothing negative can arise by itself. No, not here in this plane, here the game of manipulation is not played, but here in myself existence reigns and no more and no less. There is no room for negative intentions, because that would only harm existence. It's the moment when it just makes sense. Why should it be complicated? Life is not a challenge that you can fail at if you live consciously and do not surrender to the confusions of everyday life.

The feeling of a real truth has an emotional, high energetic level. Do people use this level? A deceptive moment that invites you to fall in love with yourself. It's easier to miss – little tricks from the ego to color everything in such a way that there are always only external problems... there is no incompetence of the ego, there are no bad qualities and besides, there is a reason for everything that does not suit you and that is definitely outside the ego ...

Around 10:30 a.m., my wife has had breakfast and wants to go with me to the Sunday shopping. I think the idea is nice and would like to have new impressions – especially a bit of nature would be very nice now. I hope people don't bother me...
We walk through the streets and the color of the sky changes cheerfully between blue, green and a glittering turquoise. I see the trees standing in the middle of the autumn leaves and the leaves stand like in a cold fire.

The city center is filled with stalls and people. The smells are fascinating and the goods on offer are simply too much. I watch the spectacle like a tourist and am overwhelmed by the mass of people and the selection.

A few minutes later, a tiny booth with an old woman. Honey... two products and I'm only interested in one – I can manage that. The woman was so friendly and beamed inside and smiled at us so kindly and asked us to try. The honey was an explosion of flavor in my mouth. Another man came to the booth, the husband of the old mother and he had to tell us about something special. This year, for the first time, there was something he had never experienced before. Normally, the bee season starts in April, but this year the first harvest was already in April.

For me, the moment was so clear that these two old people absolutely had to distribute this information, which was so important to them, among the people so that it would not be lost. Death and being left behind by one's findings is a basic human need. I dare to say that it makes no difference what man can convey or what intelligence prevails. Every person has his or her core insights that make life worth living for him.

How do people think? Is it quite normal to question and want to know yourself? What else would be important in life? Don't you want to know an inner truth? Aren't you looking for answers to questions that you hardly know how to formulate?

What is the human being supposed to do with all the demands, the guidelines on how to shape and look at one's own life. So many supposedly important things that you have to do and follow just because a system likes it that way... A huge circulation mill ... Cascades of plains roll over and fall into each other – again and again ... it feels as if the room is folded in on itself and that with every flip ... but the space itself is also reality. What lies behind this level, which so outrageously simply turns over ...?

Back home, the desire arises to share the findings, to impart this knowledge, but it cannot be grasped and forced into a form that another person can still do something with. The feeling is overwhelming, as I feel unable to take these important things with me and give them to other people I love. Be careful with unearned wisdom – it wouldn't work either. Even the longing of the 60s to wake up and unite all people is unfortunately only a beautiful dream. 95% of people do not live consciously and I am not convinced that all people are suitable to explore their spirituality.

The trip begins to end. With wise foresight, I got some very light weed and can come down gently. Two glasses of red wine help additionally and around 8 p.m. I lie down in bed and have intense dreams. I wake up twice – 4am and 6am – drenched in sweat and with a wet pillow.

The next day very relaxed and energetic. The 100 pushups (morning routine) were very easy. An inner peace has formed and it is currently possible to stop thinking. Suddenly very easily and when the thoughts calm down, a peaceful inner peace comes up. A very nice feeling and I hope that it will also last after the holiday...

Exp Year: 2024	ExpID: 118492
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 48
Published: Sep 17, 2025	Views: Not Supported
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