DOSE: T+ 0:00		oral	Ginger
T+ 0:00	1000 mg	oral	Mescaline	(capsule)
T+ 14:00	0.5 mg	oral	Pharms - Alprazolam

BODY WEIGHT:

135 lb

DOSE:
T+ 0:00 1000mg oral mescaline citrate
T: 14:00 0.5mg oral alprazolam

# Background
39 year old healthy male with a three year history in exploring various psychedelic substances for recreational, therepeaitic and spiritual use.

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I've been growing out trichocerius cactus for 18 months and have eagerly awaited what would be in store for me with mescaline. I invited three family members and none of them are strangers to drugs. We've done psilocybin, mdma, lsd, ketamine, 2cb, etc. Most of our experiences have been very positive and this trip was no exception.

Our small group of four gathered in the living room, bright and early at 7:30am as we knew mescaline was known for having long legs in terms of trip duration, and we all have busy lives so we wanted to be able to get to bed at a reasonable time. We had our usual chit-chat before we threw back six capsules each that contained a total amount of 1000mg mescaline citrate -- the conversion to mescaline HCl is about 663mg, a medium to high dose.

T+1:00: I noticed my hands feeling a little tingly, similar to what some would experience as first indicators when taking MDMA. One person in our group excused himself to go outside to get some fresh air and started throwing up. I go outside and ask if he needs anything and I get him a cold damp cloth to wipe over his face and mouth.

T+2:00: Slight nausea begins to settle in for me but nothing out of the ordinary or intense. I took a good amount of ginger 30 minutes before consuming the mescaline and while things were a bit uncomfortable, they really no harsher than when I'm coming up on a strong dose of 2cb. We're all vibing out to music and casually talking about things that are going on in our daily life. I feel like at this point we're all just sort of waiting for what might be in store for us around the corner.

T+2:00: I'm full on tripping right now. There's physical euphoria which was appreciated but it came with a strong level of stimulation, more stimulating than LSD and MDMA. I feel utter gratefulness for where I am in my life, as if the universe paused and came together to give me the push I needed for all of these years to keep me going the way it has for the last two decades.

I knew things were going to start ramping up in the next hour or so and I take my dog out to stretch and go potty so she's comfortable for the next couple of hours so I don't have to worry about her too much while I'm peaking.

I had an immense amount of gratitude toward my dog as she's been my rock for these past couple of years of big life adjustments. Having a kid really changes you and she's kept me sane through some really tough days and I felt a deep appreciation for her being by my side and showing me the unconditional love that you sometimes don't really get to see out of a tantruming toddler in their first few years of life.

T+3:00: Our group decides to take a stroll outside. Our backyard bleeds into an elongated park that stretches for miles of green grass and trees. We all join a curated playlist that I made a week before the trip that I thought would lift everyone's spirits.

T+3:30: While walking and listening to the playlist I experienced an onset consisting of waves of euphoria. Sound was crystal clear and I was able to slice through every layer of tones and vocals that the producer wanted us to experience. Almost as if I was there with them when they were recording this in the studio. The air outside was crystalline and my field of view becomes larger, with everything looking much clearer. Leafs on the ground have deeper outlines and every blade of grass was dancing like they're all in on the cosmic joke and welcoming me in the whole joke.

T+4:30: During our walk we all were laying down in spots of a green field. It felt like I was receiving energy from the soil in the ground and my brain and my body felt like it being wrapped up in the mycelium just underneath the ground, feeling completely connected to nature and the earth.

I thought about my older sister who left this earth a little too early for me (but seemingly the right time for her) and wondered how her soul is doing, where ever she might be adventuring off to. I created a memory of her getting to meet my daughter for the first time and they a cute conversation even though neither of them audibly said a word to one another.

I thought about how my sister decided to leave this world early and left behind her son when he was a young age and how hard that must have been on him. I hope he's doing okay in the best way that he can.

T+5:00: We come back inside after our walk and decide to pick at some fruit. The mescaline definitely suppressed my appetite but I knew I should try to eat some berries and drink some water at this point. Fruit nor yogurt seemed to taste better or worse, it just was just something to do while being this stimulated.

T+6:00: Still laying on the ground, I thought about my loved ones and how we're all experiencing life together and why we all chose to be here at the same time. I sat there for a bit trying to get a better picture of how I can be a better person to all of these people and how I can show up for them in different ways.

T+8:30: I'm still tripping a good amount but things aren't as intense as they were during the peak. I felt like I was finally able to write some notes down so I got out my phone and wrote my toddler a letter, it reads:

Hey Jane,

Dad needs to be way more patient with you. Even though you can be difficult at times, it's on me to help you get through these moments and you don't deserve any of that other bullshit that I bring to the table when you're having a rough time...and that's on me.

I love you so fucking much and I have a lot more live, care and understanding to give, if you'll let me do that with you and experience this whole thing we call life together.

Thank you for letting me be your dad. I'm glad me and your mom are stilla ble to hit it off and feel all thjis magic together, no matter how difficult this shit can get sometimes.

Love, Dad

PS: Oh, and if we sometimes don't know what to do in difficult moments, just play music. you'll know what to do. be you. only you. because that's me and you <3

T+12:00: By now it's about 7pm and we're all winding down from the trip. I still feel wired and my hands have felt a bit weird for last couple of hours, almost like a sore or stiffness. I try my best to make our group of journeymen and their girlfriends, my wife and daughter a meal. It felt challenging to make spaghetti but I managed to do it with a bit of help from the others here and there.

We all reminisce about the day and how it meant to all of us. The entire day felt grounding and exactly what was needed. I gave a nod an appreciation to the substance for its longevity. You really have to plan for something like this because it takes the entire day and so much out of you. This is a medicine that demands your attention and stops you in your tracks -- forcibly sitting you down to ponder the inner-workings of your brain and how you fit inside this world of yours.

T+14:00: I draw myself a hot bath and soak while drifting into a dream-like state. I still felt so overwhelmingly positive and grateful to experience what I did that day.

T+15:00: I end up taking a small amount of alprazolam to help me get to bed at a reasonable time, as I needed to wake up reasonably early to be on dad duty.

I learned a lot about myself and what I experienced. There's so much more to learn but I can see why mescaline has stood the test of time and folks have often gravitated back to this drug time and time again to seek the light and receive guidance in uncertain times. Mescaline is truly a teacher, but to only those who can listen.

Peace n' love :)

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ADDENDUM 31 Dec 2024:
The mescaline citrate was extracted from Trichocereus bridgesii using simple organic chemistry -- the Crystals In Ethyl-acetate Lazily Over-the-counter (CIELO) Tek.

Exp Year: 2024	ExpID: 118556
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 39
Published: Dec 24, 2024	Views: Not Supported
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