DOSE:

60 mg

insufflated

5-MeO-DMT

BODY WEIGHT:

103 lb

I did a solo high dose 5-MeO-DMT trip. I didn't know the differences of NN-DMT and 5-MeO. I didn't even do much research on 5-MeO. So what I thought was "I'm gonna have a wonderful trip and a very good time with entities and elves and what not"

I took around 50mg nasally and layed down. It was strong stuff and started to burn in my nose instantly. I started to feel my heart rate go up very fast and anxiety raising like crazy. Started feeling super dizzy and wanted to vomit. Absolutely no visuals and started to think i was sold poison. I started to feel my whole body giving up on me. Seizure, heart-attack, problems with breathing. I stood up to take deep breaths and was shaking like never before.

Once I put both my hands on my chest to help me breathe and relax I noticed my first visual. My hands looked like demon hands, scaly, long nails, holding my physical body. Then I decided to sneeze all the DMT out of my nose to get out of this ASAP. It was a physical nightmare and I was in state of almost like an epilepsy but barely hanging on. Took about 20 minutes before my body relaxed and gathered my thoughts. Then I learned about 5-MeO and got to know that it's nothing like any other psychedelic. Its basically death. It's not an Ego death. Its more like physical death.

Next day, I was more prepared. I lighted a graveyard candle for myself. Switched off all electronics and sat in pitch dark with only the light from my candle. I took around 60mg nasally. I focused on the light and prayed to God for guidance. I prayed and prayed, watching the candle. I felt my body giving up on me. All my instincts wanted to fight back but this time I was guided and I died.

All of my deepest spiritual questions that I ever had about life was answered with direct experience. My spirit went through a Divine spirit processor that decided if I'm worthy to know or not. I was judged before my meeting with The Almighty. I lived through every situation and decision of my life that defies my spirit. Every second of my life was judged to know how wicked I am or was. How much truth do I deserve or if any at all.

I was granted full access. There is Divine Law, Divine Order and a Spiritual battle that is going on. Life is a spiritual test to sort out the wicked and Divine. Physical reality in which we live in is ruled by the sons of darkness aka the wicked. Those who turn to darkness will be left in there. Those who find the spark will be united with the One.

God is consciousness, a big ocean of it. Humans are vessels of God with a little spark of that consciousness in them. Almost like tentacles of God touching the very depths of hell to learn about it. We are actually all One, but the human experience is what makes us think different. This is an animal kingdom, the kingdom of the beast. We live by the rules of the wicked in this realm. The only job for the wicked is to keep us away from this consciousness. The only job for us is to reach this consciousness. They are ahead of us and can rule over us more easily because we are in their realm, the realm of the beast. We have free will to become one with the beast or to unite with the Divine. They rule over us by fear, hate, lust, war etc. To keep us occupied. To not look within but to pay attention to their circus.

I came out of this trip on the floor in a fetus position face covered with snot and tears. Was crying like a newborn straight out of a womb of a mother. The Brilliance, The Perfection, The Love, The Knowledge: it's all a Masterpiece for the spirit.

Next day I tried to smoke all that was left of it and I smoked til I knocked out but I didn't remember anything. I didn't have any questions anyway and it was pretty pointless trip. I guess it's a once in a lifetime experience and I'm not trying it anymore. I got all I ever wanted.

Bless all

Exp Year: 2024	ExpID: 118598
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Mar 4, 2025	Views: 15
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