DOSE: T+ 0:00	20 g	oral	Mushrooms - P. atlantis	(sclerotia)
T+ 6:00		smoked	Cannabis

BODY WEIGHT:

65 kg

I had planned on taking psilocybin truffles with some friends as we all wanted to try them. I had tried them once before and I had a spectacular first trip (dosage of 10g). At the time I was mostly uninformed on the psychedelic experience and did not know about what to really expect with a bigger dose. I am a daily cannabis user. The trip was also during the nighttime.

(T-4:00)
Me and a friend met up to buy the truffles. We had planned to buy the same dose I had tried, 10g. However, due to some misunderstanding while buying, we accidentally got 20g each. I went back and did not really take a second look at the dosage listed.

(T+0:00)
A few hours later, I took the truffles making sure I was following the beginner guidelines I had read online and waited for them to kick in. I met up with my friends who I was taking them with and a few sober friends just to hang out with.

(T+0:30)
As I met one of my friends, I was informed that the dosage that I actually took was 20g. I knew that my mindset going in to the trip would be hugely influential on the experience, and that I should accept what will happen to reduce any chances of a bad trip, instead of resisting. As such I kept my calm and repeated a few times that it'll be completely fine (as you will find this did not really work haha).

I also have aphantasia, this means that I am unable to visualize much. I am unsure if this changes the visual aspect of psychedelics for me, but it is of note. I would love to see more trip reports by other people who have aphantasia.

Now on to the actual trip!

(T+1:00)
Consistent with my first trip, the come-up felt quite euphoric after the initial nausea subsided, a bit stronger than what I had expected. I noticed as well that my vision felt as if it was 10 times as vivid. I stood on the balcony and looked at all the light and windows and buildings but since it was nighttime the thing that stood out the most were the lights. As far as visual effects this is all I noticed during the come-up.

(T+1:30)
Later we went back inside to hang out, listened to music and joked around. During this period I was laughing at everything and anything. In the background however I slowly felt my body feel heavier and heavier. At some point I made my way to the couch and laid there listening to my friends but no longer speaking as much. I do not remember the visuals at this point in time, I can only remember my vision in chunks. As my friends are talking I just zone-out on the couch.

(T+2:??)
After around the 2 hour mark, everything stops making sense and a sense of deep surreal confusion overpowers me. I realized that this confusion was already brewing in the background but that I had pushed this to the side. I am still on the couch but it feels moreso as if I am slowly physically merging with the couch, or melting into it. At this point, while I am trying to figure out what is happening, I notice that my memory is worse than usual and that I get this sense that I am starting to forget things that are really important to me. My state here slowly gets worse and worse. Everyone in the room slowly began to feel like a complete stranger, and I was left feeling like I was in a very uncertain and dangerous place. The only visual effect I remember here is that my entire vision had a different hue, I was too overwhelmed by the headspace to really pay attention to any visual details. I was completely silent during this period.

(T+2:3?)
I am not very sure how much time passed after the confusion had kicked in, however it was probably not long. Although I think I did not get to complete ego death, I believe I got somewhat close. At this point I had no idea what ego death even was, and as such I was terrified. At some point one of my friends noticed that I was not having a particularly good time, and asked me if I was ok. I was still confused and asked why he had asked me that. He said that I looked like I was not doing well. I turned to look in the mirror and even took a few selfies to check what I looked like, and I remarked that I looked completely normal. I excused myself and went to the bathroom.

It was at this point that I got into a thought loop. A simple thought overwhelmed my entire being. "I'm going to be stuck like this forever." I knew I wouldn't die, but I had forgotten that the effects of the truffles weren't permanent. I searched through my phone the same thing over and over again, "can I be permanently damaged due to mushrooms?" Never being satisfied with anything that I would find. I do not know how long I spent in the bathroom, and I do not remember any visual effects other than colour tinting and colour shifting, it is possible that I was simply too overwhelmed by the experience to remember any visual details. The next I would say hour and a half felt like pure agony. It was the most pure confusion I had felt in my entire life and no thought in my brain really made any sense. I also felt extremely strongly that I could not ask for help or tell anyone what I was going through mentally at this point. Gravity also felt as if it were much stronger.

I had also heard that orange juice would help make the trip less intense, and so drank over a liter of orange juice during this whole experience. I feel like it did absolutely nothing for the trip other than make me feel nauseous due to drinking too much juice which affected me negatively instead.

(T+3:??)
One of my friends checked up on me and asked if I was doing ok. Although still experiencing what felt to me like pure mental torture, I was careful to speak in a fashion that did not give this away. After I told him that I would be ok, I decided I would go back and join my friends. After joining the group again I yet again laid on the couch, however this time I was feeling much worse. It felt as if I was a prisoner in my own mind. One who had forgotten their whole life. The defining and strongest thought that I had during these moments were of me reassuring myself that I would be ok, and this thought stirred with itself a new layer of emotion. Enveloping the pure agony that I was feeling was now a warm blanket of love, this felt specifically as thought I was somehow in my own embrace. This, however, did not completely overshadow my negative emotions, but merely functioned as a sort of guide and sense of hope through them. I felt strongly that my own being was guiding me through this deeply rooted confusion and despair. At some point one of my friends asked me how I was doing again, and I built up the courage to say that I felt extremely alone. My friend replied that I was not alone and that they were all there for me and this had a slight positive effect on my mental state. This complex mix of emotions layered over each other persisted. At some point I wondered to myself how deeply emotional this experience truly was. Inside my mind it was as if I uncovering layers upon layers of emotions that all interacted with each other in a way that made perfect sense even if the emotions were negative. I do not remember how time went by here.

(T+5:00)
At this point, my brain had calmed down a fair bit. My friends also noted that I looked like I was doing better. The confusion was slowly starting to wear off and I was starting to regain better control over my body. However I noticed no particular increase in the positive layer of emotions. It was not as if my emotions suddenly changed from negative to positive, but moreso that the negative layer was now significantly weaker, which let me more clearly see the positive layer.

I asked one of my friends if he could stay with me until I felt fully sober again and he agreed, this made me feel more secure.
At this point I was still feeling a bit negative but this was slowly going away. We kept listening to music and I tried to make more sense of what I was feeling emotionally, as my friends just hung out.

(T+5:30)
After eating some snacks and trying to play a mobile game, we decided to disband and meet up in a short time to smoke a joint. After my friends left I went out for a run because I felt like it would help sober me up. I ran on the balcony for around 10 minutes and this helped calm me down a fair bit. At this point any and all visual effects were gone.

(T+6:00)
I felt almost completely sober now. I met up with my friends to smoke the joint together and I told them of the experience and mostly described it as very negative. The friend who bought the same dose and did the same dose with me apparently felt completely sober during the whole day, which I find very confusing. Another friend had a good trip but had a different dosage and variety.

I don't really know the dosing for the cannabis, but we shared a joint between I believe 3 people including me. As we smoked I felt a deep sense of satisfaction and self-love. The gentle cannabis effects made me analyse what I had just gone through and it made me appreciate myself a lot more. I was very grateful that I could handle such an experience and I was also very grateful for my friends to be there and for the herb that I was smoking. I noted that the joint made me feel like I had returned right back home.

(T+6:30)
We decide to call it a night and disband. I called my boyfriend later to tell him about the experience. At this point I was enjoying the cannabis synergizing with the remaining effects of the truffles. I spent around an hour reflecting on the experience.

I had a bit of trouble falling asleep however I have pre-existing sleep problems, so that could be unrelated. The next morning I felt refreshed and as if I could be somehow more free, I did not notice any other residual effects.

Overall I would say that although the experience was extremely hard, I did not regret it and felt as though I had grown from it and was glad that I had done it. It also left me much more interested in the world of psychedelics and psychonautics. I will always remember it as it is one of my first intense psychedelic experiences.

Exp Year: 2024	ExpID: 118647
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: Aug 18, 2025	Views: Not Supported
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