DOSE:

repeated

vaporized

Nicotine

BODY WEIGHT:

83 kg

(((Short info:

* 22 year old male, 83kg, 5'7(8), so far had experience with Alcohol (highest .14), HHC, 10-OH-HHC, Caffeine, CBD, L-Tyrosine, Melatonin, Valerian, Vitamin B-6, TRC5 and made contact with fake THCP, HHCP.

Diagnosed with ADHD, as a Child
Diagnosed with Depression as Teen (2018),
Diagnosed with Depression as Adult (2022)
Self-Diagnosed with Asperger Autism (as two psychologists push me into that area, and I check out many symptom boxes that fit into the spectrum quite well)

Currently a Trainee, along with school. )))


In the middle of December 2024, I tried nicotine for the first time. I went to a supermarket, a few districts away from me, just to randomly buy an ElfBar600. This vape contains 40mg of Nicotine, equal to around 20 cigarettes.

I tried the vape multiple times and got hooked on how it made me feel. I felt a profound light-headedness, along with the accompaning feeling of slight nausea and disorientation. A feeling I had on HHC, yet weaker.

In the bathroom I remember sitting on the toilet and vaping, just to stare at the ground for like 5 minutes without moving really. I could have moved, but on nicotine my sight sometimes gets blurry when not focusing on anything in front of me. So I temporarily zone out until I come down to a point where I can stand up again by my own will.

I have had bad experiences with Nicotine, where vaping too much left me in a temporary state of depression, along with nausea and a mentally dulling effect . I had to lay down 2-3 times and do nothing because the effect overwhelmed me. This most likely happened due to my compulsive redosing with this drug as I wished to keep the effect longer before it wore off.

I've used up exactly 3 Elfbar600's in a span of 19 days. So 120mg of Nicotine within 19 days. Equal to 60 cigarettes. 3 Packs of cigs. As a usual non-nicotine smoker.

During the time of vaping Nicotine, I tried to vape HHC as well and 10-OH-HHC. Although I found that the HHC and 10-OH had no effect. I'm not sure if this is because of my tolerance to it (as I'm using HHC since March 2023), or the product itself. However with the nicotine use as well, I noticed slight chest pain forming.

I was curious first to see what exactly caused my chest pain. I had chest pain before with HHC and quit the drug for like a week, before resuming and reporting no issues for months. This time however, it was a weak, barely noticable pain that persisted for days and still does now slightly (though less than before).

I decided to quit nicotine and have been off of it for almost 7 days (if you dont count the remainer being sucked out each time during the 7 days, which left me with 2 small puffs minimum, without effect). Today, 14th of January would be a day for example with NO contact with the vape (it's empty now anyways).

The after effects of Nicotine are psychologically challenging.

Today for example, I was driving to school after picking up 2 tiny bread rolls with an energy drink and 2 cans of 10% Vodka. Reason for the Vodka was a presentation that I had to present in 1st lesson. I've used alcohol before for presentation as the lack of inhibition caused me to present more openly and better. I was planning to drink one and a half cans once I got to school, yet during my drive to school while eating a bread roll, I noticed nausea and my uvula seemed to be really sensitive. I coughed along with a gag that felt like I was going to vomit, even tho I didn't. This happened multiple times this morning. When trying to drink the alcohol after I parked my car, my nauseous state persisted and I did not manage to drink more than a full gulp.

Since my nausea was pretty bad especially because of my irritated uvula, I had to dump out the alcohol since an opened container of alcohol in my car isn't a good look. I emptied the second can at home after getting home from school, as this can alone would not leave me with an effect, rendering the alcohol itself useless and a waste of money. I also didn't wanna have an argument with my mother if she found my alcohol, since she does not want me to drink alcohol in secret, because she fears I might become addicted to it, and with that an alcoholic (I don't get drunk often. Throughout 2024 like.... 3-4 times?)
In hindsight I'm glad I dumped the alcohol.

Online I looked up that nicotine can cause users to feel nausea and their uvula is irritated because the toxins in the body slowly clear up and your body is in like a repair mode, where it aims to fixes the damages done by nicotine. My appetite has been affected to days where I don't feel all that hungry what so ever, and 2-3 select days where I was starving constantly.

But not only the physical symptoms like an irritated uvula accompanied by nausea, wheeze coughing and slight chest pain affected me. The psychological part might be a bit worse.

Since I quit vaping Nicotine, the world around me... Has felt so foreign and ..... Strange to me...... For 3-4 days now, I feel strange when coming home. Like I slipped out of this authentic self that I have and instead I dive into this new personality of someone who.... is not me.

I'm not trying to say that I claim that I'm in a different body or that a foreign identity took control of my consciousness, it's just that I feel..... Off. I noticed throughout these past few days, that I can talk easier with people. Something I had issues with.
I am more adult acting and more "confident". I do tasks like cleaning my room, cleaning the kitchen and taking out the trash and doing more things, which I havent done before and take no joy in.

I feel mentally drained at the end of the day, and go to bed with a weird feeling like something is wrong internally, yet I cannot make out what it is.

It's like a question regarding the state of my mental health, that my brain has no answer for. Like a computer code trying to find a bug, because the debugger showed problems, yet the debugger did not specify what the error is, and the code looks normal.

These effects persist till today still.

When asking AI about my symptoms I get the following:

" Feeling "Weird" or Unusual:
This can include feelings of detachment, fogginess, or a sense of unreality (sometimes described as depersonalization or derealization). These feelings often stem from the brain adapting to the absence of nicotine, which previously acted as a stimulant and a regulator of certain neurotransmitters like dopamine. "

And

" Manic-Like Symptoms:
Some people may experience bursts of energy, racing thoughts, or impulsive behavior. These are less common but could result from the brain's fluctuating neurotransmitter levels and a rebound effect as it seeks to stabilize. "

Surprisingly enough, just now I would understand that "manic" symptoms also accompany me. I suddenly have this ability to properly handle tasks quickly. I have a sudden increase in physical activity like cleaning the house by choice or working on projects or music without getting much joy from it, yet doing it still. Perhaps that explains, why I'm lately more open with the people which surround me in my work or school life.

Bottom line is, the withdrawal of nicotine is something I haven't felt before.

When quitting HHC and 10-OH-HHC, the withdrawal symptoms did not include most of my symptoms with Nicotine, which surprised me as I thought HHC and 10-OH would have worse withdrawal symptoms than nicotine (as these two drugs are stronger in terms of effects and last way longer than nicotine itself).

As I'm writing this I feel strange still.

It feels like my depression, somehow worsened, yet it worsened in a way that my brain cant seem to properly decode. Everything within me is experiencing a delay. My brain has to re-adjust to normal levels without nicotine.

Several times I thought about buying a new vape and using it only during times where its best applicable. Then however I remember that the withdrawal effects of nicotine can leave me psychologically drained and in a state of irritation, mania, depression, depersonalization and more.

It is extremely painful and soul crushing to have a brain wired in a way that easily leaves a person subsceptible for a quick development of addiction, due to a temporary relief for mental health problems like depression. A mental health issue I often coped and overlaid, with Caffeine.

Knowing that I am subsceptible for such a quick development of addiction, I am somewhat fearful that my mental health will one day leave me in a state of ignorance, where I buy this vape again and think to myself

"This is my last one, after this one I quit and I promise I wont use it daily and often" Before then thinking that same thought again and realizing that my vape is yet again empty, just to THEN realize that symptoms will start from all over again.

Please stay away from Nicotine as far as you can. I've had a particular classmate from a previous school, who told me that she cannot quit nicotine. She needs to smoke cigarettes. She cannot quit. After experiencing these symptoms, I am extremely curious and fearful how this person might react after quitting smoking, when they tell me, they need it.

I know I don't need it, and yet I have issues with these withdrawal symptoms. How harder will it be for them???

Nicotine causes Cancer and other health issues that can severely impact your mental health, physical health and it can dive your friends and family into a state of worry. I have learned from this (at least I hope...).

So to finish this experience with a TL:DR:

PRO: The effects of nicotine are awesome. I feel light headed, comfortably dizzy, talkative, its easier to socialize, the day goes by faster, I'm euphoric and I feeling a sense of contentment and happiness.

CON: The physical and mental withdrawal symptoms are challenging. They can cause me to experience a state of irritation, depression, slight mania, a feeling of "everything feeling weird and foreign", physical discomfort, an irritated uvula causing me to wheeze cough like I'm about to vomit and general irritation.

Con outweighs the pro, for such a short duration of effects and cost.

I dont recommend this what so ever... Its crazy that its addictive.... So short in terms of effects... And yet it hooked me.

Exp Year: 2025	ExpID: 118656
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 22
Published: Feb 2, 2026	Views: Not Supported
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