DOSE: T+ 0:00	20 mg	oral	4-HO-MET	(edible / food)
T+ 9:37		oral	Cannabis	(edible / food)
T+ 10:10	20 mg	IM	Ketamine

Some of this was written during the experience, and some was written the next day. Time is measured in time since ingestion

0:00 I drink 20mg of 4-HO-MET in the form of melted gummies. It's very sweet (I think the gummies are supposed to be lime flavor?), but also very bitter immediately after from the chemical itself

0:13 When I close my eyes, I don't quite see anything weird, but I feel as though I almost can

0:15 I start to feel a bit weird, and as though somethings wrong with my vision, though it seems to be fine

0:20 I'm nervous, but it's important that I just relax and let it happen
I feel kinda dizzy

0:22 my head is further away from my hands than normal???
I guess it makes sense that I feel that way because these hands are just for moving things and I do a lot of thinking in my head here which is very different and more important

0:25 My whole body feels small and far away
I'm watching family guy funny moments but the videos look weird. Maybe just bc its a weird edit idk
I'm typing and my hands feel cold and far away

0:30 I can feel my throat???

0:33 I keep swiping my glasses in front of my face and they make weird trails
As I type this on my phone I'm goubg faster than usual with less mistakes

0:37 I'm noticing more glowing from my screen
Also I'm more aware of details of the ui I'm looking at

0:39 I'm in awe of how much my screen is glowing

0:46 I'm feeling intense deja vu

0:48 I'm feeling the urge to revisit a song I listened to yesterday that I didn't think much of (I didn't note down when, but eventually I did revisit it, and I felt that it was beautiful much more strongly than I had before)
I need to be more confident

0:51 Opening project sekai, I'm in awe of how colorful it is
I'm just staring at it like holy shit this game is so pretty
It doesn't really look much different than it normally does, but I'm so much more aware of how pretty it is now
I felt the urge to show it to someone, but then I realized that its ok if no one else is here to watch this bc I can watch it myself, and I matter
Really, no one but me matters right now
Also my ears feel a little weird

0:52 I feel like I'm vibrating and leaving the world behind a little bit
I struggle to understand the shape my body is formed into despite sitting pretty normally

0:55 I play a chart. My fungers feel weird, but I tell myself dont worry abt it its fine
I feel that the static bg visual is almost moving and like it isnt super obvious to my brain where the game and real world meet

0:56 I should try turning on the visuals (I keep most of them turned down/off for better visibility and focus, but now I wanna see them)

0:57 Some people are yelling outside and I found it off-putting
I almost feel like I'm moving

1:01 I become enraptured in the games visuals

1:05 I should just let myself smile instead of trying to hide it due to being embarrassed to be happy or something
I am very aware of my mouth

1:09 The game is playing itself as I fruitlessly flail my fingers at it
Or am I just that good
Wow my name is a very pink color (I was taking these notes in a private Discord server where I have a pink role)

1:12 My screen looks like its warping and I'm just like ok sure

1:16 I feel like I'm still wearing my glasses
I am way too aware of my mouth
I find everything funny or joyous

1:17 Idk how to play this game but it seems my fingers do so I'm just gonna let it happen and not ask
I'm kinda just watching it happen in awe
Wow my fingernails are sharp. Interesting

1:21 I know exactly what I'm doing. My victory is a foregone conclusion
But I can stop directing and these hands will still finish the chart
Without me
While I think about more important things

1:25 Wow this game is very pretty
I could be thinking anything right now and no one would know
I'm safe inside my own head more than I've felt before

1:31 I can just look at the background and not pay attention to the notes and my fingers still do just as well
I got myself into a bit of a thought vortex wondering if thats really true or if I'm just glorifying all this
WOW I HAVE TEETG
Teeth

1:39 Why would I care if someone thinks I'm weird
Thats my business not theirs
Wow I'm like weirdly wet from sweating

1:41 My feelings about everything are far more meaningful and less defeated
Its like my ability to truly feel anything beyond the bare minimum has been returned to me

1:46 I closed my eyes and there were mild visuals. I was disinterested at first but then I realized that they were something incomprehensible that latched onto me (it resembled broken shards of something)
I tried to go back, and I did see some beautiful shapes, that I found so awe-inspiring, but it wasnt the same as whatever I had first seen that confused and entranced me so (it resembled a hexagonal, infinitesimally complex labyrinth, and then it morphed into infinite lines carrying triangles on their points in a kalideoscope-like formation)
WHY AM I TALKING LIKE A WANNABE POET
Eh whatever just let it happen

1:49 This game is so pretty I'm in awe
Its like my fingers are dissolving into the screen where they meet it
Ok but why can I feel my mouth

2:00 I think id find anything either funny or horrifying
This screen is glowing so fascinatingly waow

2:05 It feels like this started such a long time ago

2:15 Its mostly in my head, I'm not visually seeing all that much out of the ordinary

2:23 I keep laughing for no reason

2:28 I'm eating a granola bar and I'm very aware of the taste and texture of the food
This is very fascinating
Maybe I should eat more

2:33 I eat a sausage and its quite something
I can still feel it all over my mouth
I should floss

2:35 I did it
There might be more space between my teeth than normal

2:43 I got 2 ancient rings of mastery in melvor (which is rare) and said "Woah!" out loud. I don't normally react to things out loud like that

2:51 I'm really enraptured by my pretty glowing screen

2:56 The concept of superpowers is super awesome actually
Theres a childish whimsy in everything

3:00 I suddenly became very aware that I'm not wearing socks
What

3:06 The stand on the back of my phone gets stuck and I'm like wow and then I fix it

3:32 I've noticed I've always had trouble just saying what I like or asking for it
I should work on that

3:54 My skin and things on it feels weird
I keep rubbing my fingers together

4:27 The light is comforting but I'm nervous that it will eventually go away
Its ok though ill be fine

4:42 Feeling mostly normal but not entirely

5:42 I think it might have made me more aware of my astigmatism
When I was on it I was just like wow glowing cool but now it feels like its going back to being annoying and I'm more aware of it

7:19 I feel like I'm still noticing bright colors more than before

9:37 I eat some weed butter. The last time I did weed, it was shortly after doing DMT, and the weed had many similar attributes to that DMT. It's not unheard of for weed to take on psychedelic properties after doing a "real" psychedelic. I'm curious if it'll be the same this time, or if it'll be closer to the experience that I had with 4-HO-MET, or possibly neither. Last time, it was smoked, which may also make a difference

10:10 I inject 20mg Ketamine into my leg, because I felt like it

10:26 Smth weird happens on psychs and I'm like wow that is fascinating
Smth weird happens on Ketamine I'm just like ok idc

10:40 I become preoccupied with determining whether I have an accent (I don't)

10:43 A specific line on my blanket stands out to me

10:57 I'm feeling much more talkative than usual

11:10 The human brain is incomprehensibly complex

11:41 My mouth is so dry suddenly when it wasnt before this whole time
Its stull hard to tell if I'm wearing my glasses sometimes
I feel sparkling all over my forehead
Like I am separated slighly from the world
Not like leaving it but like bringing into a new focus with only me
Its still clearly there it just feels insignificant
My keyboard seems noticably more purple just like last time I did weed (and also just like when I did DMT), though it's not as strong as before
Words not easy
I can feel my skin

11:50 I can feel a sensation moving down my throat snd then restarting at the top repeatedly

11:55 The glowing aura around things seemed to have lessened but might be increased again

12:42 I keep worrying my teeth are gonna be ripped out by the gummy candy that I'm eating

13:16 My mouth feels strange in a way thats not just dryness its almost like awarenes but not like before

13:19 Eating food seems different but not like before

13:35 I can feel my throat

18:15 With someone laying on my shoulder I can feel everything in her throat and neck

18:30 I go to sleep

Conclusion: For most drugs, you can at least give someone a pretty good idea of how it feels by simply describing it. But psychedelics have such uniquely complex and incomprehensible effects that it seems nearly impossible to describe to someone that doesn't already get it

If I were to try, I'd say that my experience with 4-HO-MET was like I was experiencing everything in the world for the first time. I had an innate understanding of how it all worked, but the childlike joy and wonder I felt witnessing things was something I doubt I've felt since I really was a very small child

I'm going to try to take that feeling forward with me into the future, and try to stop taking things for granted. There's so much beauty in this world that I just don't recognize because I'm used to it and I expect it

I'll leave the visuals on in Project Sekai, at least for a while

Don't take the world for granted

As far as the weed goes, It had some mild psychedelic effects, but nothing super impressive

Exp Year: 2025	ExpID: 118846
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Jan 20, 2026	Views: Not Supported
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