DOSE: T+ 0:00	25 - 35 g	oral	Cacti - T. pachanoi	(ground / crushed)
T+ 2:00	4	oral	Psilocybin	(edible / food)
T+ 3:30	3 hits	sublingual	LSD	(blotter / tab)
T+ 4:30	150 mg	oral	MDMA	(capsule)
T+ 4:30	4	oral	Psilocybin	(edible / food)
T+ 4:30	5 g	oral	Kratom
T+ 0:00		smoked	Cannabis
T+ 5:30	3 hits	sublingual	LSD	(blotter / tab)
T+ 6:30	60 mg	oral	MDMA	(capsule)
T+ 6:55	15 mg	insufflated	MDMA	(powder / crystals)
T+ 6:55	50 mg	insufflated	DMT	(powder / crystals)
T+ 0:00	repeated	smoked	Cannabis	(plant material)
T+ 0:00	repeated	smoked	DMT	(powder / crystals)
T+ 18:00		inhaled	Nitrous Oxide

BODY WEIGHT:

210 lb

Some of these doses combined seems to be a bit cartoonish or outlandish. This is certainly not for the uninitiated. My tolerance for these states coupled with the detailed planning can make this possible. Multiple people that do not know each other have referred to me as a Shaman, that’s probably because over fifty people can say they were initiated to DMT through me. It is such an honor to be able to bring this medicine to those who might not ever cross its path and to guide them on such a personal moment. I have been front row for over fifty people inhaling DMT for the first time. A vast majority of these people had meaningful or great experiences while a few minority expressed having an okay experience. I am unbelievably lucky that not one of those, who put their trust in my hands with this substance, has had a challenging or traumatic experience in my presence. I do not refer to myself as a Shaman, but rather a connoisseur of the classic psychedelic experience. I find great benefit in using substances that stimulate the 5-ht2a receptors. I do not have experience with deliriants or dissociatives. I will binge on DPH, salvia, datura, etc audio trip reports. They are extremely interesting, but absolutely not for me. I advise anyone I care about to steer clear of deliriants or dissociatives for the most part. Hypocritically, nitrous is intriguing to be because of how brief the effects are. More on this later.

It has been an especially cold winter and I was getting a severe case of cabin fever. All winter long, my psychedelic sessions, which are usually every other weekend, occurred in the living room in darkness after the family goes to bed. This means I am not able to fully let go. It also means I have to wear head phones in order to listen to music. Another drawback is the time constraint. Everything has to be wrapped up by 4 or 5 am. This constrains any re-dosing. Also, our family has outgrown our home. This means we will be moving soon. Part of my intention for this particular evening was to start to let go of my attachment to my home I’ve had for the last five years. I am able to let go to attachments when meditating in these states of mind. I can let go of the past and move forward to the next venture in my life with much less internal resistance. It is a process of reflection, appreciation and love and excitement for change in my life.

In the beginning of February 2025, I planned an outdoor session as soon as the weather broke. I really value being outdoors and alone so I can fully let go. There have been plenty of times I lay underneath the stars all night next to a campfire until sun rise. I needed another one. These days, I’m responsible for other family members, which was not the case around five years ago. Before the responsibilities in my life, I could disappear on outdoor excursions for the better part of week. This included canoeing and camping alongside of a river or camping alongside a hiking trail. The time for this does not exist for me anymore. So, I wanted a campfire all night with a place to sit and meditate next to the fire that is close to civilization allowing me to be gone for around 24 hours. I was to find my spot in a conservation area with camp sites. This has been my go to spot since the previous summer. After obsessively checking the weather for an evening that would not have freezing temperatures over night, I ended up delaying my trip for one week from the original target. This ended up taking place at the end of February on a night with a low of 40 degrees F. Perfect!

It’s important to detail my history with these substances so there is an understanding on why I am able to navigate these molecules. For this report, I will be using Timothy Leary’s five levels of the psychedelic experience to convey the intensity of experiences. Believe it or not, I approach these doses with certain measures of harm reduction. This is meant to introducing myself to new substances starting at relatively small doses, and gradually increasing the doses in following sessions as intuition allowed. This also includes previous substance mixes at low doses in order to gauge the intensity of the combinations. Another layer of harm reduction is verifying the identity of the substances being used. All responsibilities in life were put on hold for the next 48 hours. The body was properly prepared through diet. All of the experience and detail I give to the preparation of my solo ceremony style psychedelic sessions always allows calmness in my mind.

It is common for me to have a psychedelic session 2 to 4 times a month. Psilocybin is the usual route for these sessions and a typical dose is anywhere from 2 grams to 5 grams in capsules. This has been the case for about three years now. So I’ve had plenty of experience with mushrooms, in particular, Golden Teachers, B+, Gulf Coast, and Amazonian varieties. My first mushroom experience at Bonaroo 2006 was overwhelming. This was a level 3 experience I was not ready for. The confusion, the body load, the over heating and the incomprehensible visuals made me have the worst six hours at a festival I’ve ever had. There is a photograph with all my friends and I that shared a camp together, and I remember when this was taken. It is the knowing the panic was beginning to surface. I never got over the come up. I couldn’t believe what was happening to me, because alcohol and cannabis made up my frame of reference for being intoxicated. I found a chair with minimal shade in the Tennessee June Sun, and proceeded to pour sweat for hours trying to find some relief. Although, I was in the middle of camp with more than a dozen friends, I sank into lonely despair that only lifted many hours later when sunset brought excitement for the coming evening festivities. I hated my first mushroom experience when it happened. It was fifteen years before I ever tried mushrooms again. But, as I will explain later, this is nowhere close to the experience I have now with mushrooms these days.

The summer of 2004 was my first ecstasy trip. I was stunned by the effects of this substance. At the time, I was completed unaware that a molecule could do such a thing. It was the most pleasure I had ever experienced in my life, possibly better than sex. I thought I was being electrocuted with joy and pleasure. Every part of my body felt indescribable. I tripped 5 or 10 more times on ecstasy in the following year or so, and none of those experiences compared to my first. Very much, a let down. I guess the magic was gone. Later on, I started to believe that some of the ecstasy pills I got between 2004 and 2006 were fake or cut with some nasty stuff. Getting ecstasy from a random person at a festival is an extremely bad idea, in my opinion.

Also, between 2004 and 2006, I had about 15 to 30 experiences with LSD. Most of the experiences were enjoyable. One evening, I can remember taking 3 or 4 tabs and tripping harder on LSD than I can even fathom to this day. This was hours and hours of a level 3 to 4 experience. The image of myself while on LSD gave me the feeling of inadequacy. I do remember developing an uncomfortable relationship with tripping probably around 2006, mostly when catching a glance of myself in the mirror. This is when my interest in tripping all but left me. I then drifted into becoming a raging alcoholic . Working as a bartender did not help my habit very much. I drank a lifetime of booze between 2006 and 2013. Psychedelic meditation helped me to quit alcohol for good in 2023 after nearly a decade of tapering my habit. That's a story for another report.

I did a candy flip a handful of times. During one of those trips, I was handed a nitrous balloon. I never did many balloons in my life. It is anywhere between 2 and 10 times but there was one time candy flipping that the balloon catalyzed an out of body experience. My world turned into millions of vibrating cords. That must have been 2005 or 2006. This brief experience is still one that most stands out from my young adulthood. I have not even thought of nitrous in over a decade following this.

I went through a serious medical event in 2014 which required 8 surgeries to remove a tumor on my spinal cord. I was back on my feet in 2016, working and trying to put a difficult past behind me. I, thankfully, was invited to attend an ayahuasca ceremony with a few friends, one who considered this treatment for a meth addiction. The ceremony was held four hours travel time from my home. In summary, the meth addicted friend never went to the ceremony and has gotten severely worse since. I, on the other hand, had an incredible evening. This was the first psychedelic I’d taken in over a decade. This time, I had proper intentions, and had not taken this to feel intoxicated by something. I went into the ceremony to process all of the recent trauma in my life. The results were incredible! Less than a week later, I started a ketogenic diet and lost 50 pounds. This was the beginning of me taking control of my impulses. I’ve had the discipline to treat my body a lot better since that ceremony. I went to eight ceremonies the following year and the last time I drank ayahuasca was in 2020. More on that in a moment.

In 2019, a friend of mine named Gordo, showed me how to access DMT. I had seemly an “infinite supply”. This started one of the most significant times in my life. I consumed 25 grams of DMT in six weeks. Repeat, I consumed 25 grams of DMT in six weeks. I have many stories from this time period I can write about. That will be for another time. By the fifth and sixth week of multiple breakthroughs a night, DMT visuals considerably diminish. It also becomes more difficult to distinguish the feeling of tripping and my waking reality. That run came to an end because I became “locked out”. It was almost impossible to remember a breakthrough dose anymore. I think that was a crystal clear message that this incredible era of my life had come to an end. Since then, I use DMT two to four times a year. During my six weeks of DMT every night, I would smoke/vaporize it until I was unable to operate the lighter and device anymore. The mentality was to go as deep and as far as possible. Sub breakthrough doses were never considered. Now a days, the mentality has changed. Instead of taking hit after hit until reality is no longer perceivable, I will spread out the inhalations with 10 to 15 minutes. I have gotten tons of value from these longer lasting low level DMT sessions.

About 4 months following my 25 grams in 6 weeks experiment, I consumed two doses of Ayahuasca gifted to me from an Ayahuascaro I met in 2017. I chased the Ayahuasca one hour after drinking with 1500 mg of DMT. This was only 40% larger dose than I had a month prior which lead me to a level 2 intensity. This time the timing of the MAOI and the oral DMT was too perfect, and the 1500 mg of DMT brought me to a level of 5.5 intensity. It was partly a white out and what I can remember about the peak is I saw my wife at an advanced age in a hospital room in a vision. At the time I had only known her for a month. This was almost five years ago and that was the last time I drank ayahuasca, for now. We now have two children so some day I will find out if it was an actual vision of the future. This is what I believe affected my tolerance for psychedelics to this day.

Since 2021, I’ve consumed mushrooms 2 to 4 times a month. Psilocybin is the substance I am most familiar with recently. Two years ago while eating mushrooms with neighbors, one of them showed interest in smoking DMT while on mushrooms. This seemed to me to be a risky combo because I believed the effects would multiply and be exponentially greater than either by themselves. But I thought it would be interesting to try so we did. I was very impressed at how well everyone did. My intuition on this was not correct. I was pleasantly surprised how very well the two molecules worked together. I tried this combo with a few others and those experiences went great as well. I believe mushrooms nerf the edges of the DMT trip and counter to my intuition mushrooms might lower the DMT intensity. Maybe that’s not 100% accurate, but it may lessen the DMT come up since I am already under the influence. My interest in flipping began to peak.

In my recent psychedelic experiences, something is starting to change. Effects like time dilation, open eyed visuals, and departures from our consensus reality started to greatly diminish. This leaves me in a state that resembles the effects of meditation and breath work. During my time of full immersion into the DMT realms, it was always at night in complete darkness. I was completely uninterested, or maybe even frightened, of the open eyed visuals DMT can produce. To this day, I get very few visual phenomena from these substances for reasons I am unaware of. Weirdly enough, I love this about my most recent experiences. My stream of consciousness has fewer distractions.

Recently, I came across legitimate LSD. Also, around the same time, I found MDMA crystal. Both tested and pure. I took one tab of LSD about 4 or 5 months ago. I got the familiar feeling while looking in the mirror on the come up. This was another layer of insurance that what I had 15 years ago was LSD as well. After about 2 hours after taking the one tab and realizing that the intensity was most likely maximized, I took 2 grams of mushrooms. Adding mushrooms to LSD makes LSD less abrasive, in my experience. Two weeks later, I tried 1.5 tabs. Good results. Then another two weeks passed and I tried 2.5 tabs. I worked my way up to 4 tabs under the tongue. It turned out to be nowhere near as intense as I remembered 15 years ago. I did a similar process being reacquainted with MDMA. I started at 75 mg and worked up to 125 mg in three sessions. These MDMA sessions were each a month apart. This was also while taking mushroom and LSD. The most important adjustments to doing MDMA again after haven’t considered its use in almost 20 years was not to overuse it, as I believe I did in the past, treat my body well before and after the experience, and to remove expectations on what it is to be under the influence of MDMA. In fact, I only use it with mushroom and/or LSD. So the focus is more on the spiritual psychedelic head space, and not maximizing the most fun in a short period of time. This has made the sessions I have had with MDMA more satisfying.

I also got my hands on dried San Pedro cactus powder last fall. Took a while to learn how to work with this substance. It takes some precision in preparation to defeat the nausea. I took slightly higher and higher amounts while never feeling the effects very strong. The doses started out 30 grams and increased to 50 to 60 grams, almost always with a couple grams of mushrooms. I drank the San Pedro one night with mushrooms and Syrian Rue tea. I was caught off guard by the depth of that experience. I have never experienced visuals like that evening. I kept seeing white flashes of light in a pretty dark room. It made me believe head lights were shining into my living room like cars are driving past my house. Walking was extremely difficult that night. Despite how awful my stomach felt, that was a very healing experience with San Pedro, because most of the night was laying on the couch trying to internally escape from the physical discomfort. This always forces me to have deep introspective experiences.

Sometime in late 2024, I mixed 20 grams of San Pedro, 100 ug of LSD, 5 grams of psilocybin, 125 mg of MDMA and 20 mg of vaped DMT. This occurred 100 yards upstream from where this story takes place. This was a level 2 intensity. I felt extremely present, although, I was very cautious of how I would react to this combo. Not very many reports of this many classical psychedelics. I started around 8 pm that night and by 5 am the next morning still sitting next to the campfire with no crashing come down feeling extremely satisfied and elated that I was an incredible controlled session. By that, I mean nothing compared to drinking alcohol all night and blacking out. I could recall the entire night. I know this when I immediately replayed the 14 hour playlist that ran that evening. I could attach where my stream of consciousness was during all of the songs with the exception of those that played from 5 am to 7 am, I was in some version of sleep at this time.

I am a cannabis user. I have been through all stages of cannabis use since my early 20s. These days I abstain during the work week and will indulge on the weekend if there is a planned mushroom session. I do not like to take psychedelics if I do not have cannabis as a back up. I use it while tripping to ground me and reduce anxiety. It’s similar to how some people use benzodiazepines for tripping.

At the time, alcohol had been out of my life for nearly two years. Also, being over 40 has brought more pain than I’m use to, particularly back pain. I do not take OTC pain pills or other pharmaceutical pain reliever. This lead me to cautiously try Kratom. This works great for me when my back is acting up. Does not create any high while the sharpness of pain is gone. It does not rid of the aches, but it does make me mobile again. I will never take it 3 days in a row, and I always do more than a week long break. Kratom is not worth being addicted to, however, I have learned a certain dose makes me a little chatty and mildly euphoric. I found it can help in social settings when most people are drinking.

The research for executing this session included the drug combination charts/websites, in particular, combo.tripsit.me. This claims the mix of mescaline, LSD, MDMA, DMT, and mushrooms are low risk and have synergy. Another substance with the same relationship to the first five I listed was nitrous. Given all my recent research on nitrous, all the trip reports I consumed, and harm reduction practices, I decided to get crackers, balloons and whippets. I am a novice at the operation and execution of this method and that will come into play later in the story.

Another substance that intrigued me and considered adding, because its relationship with the previously mentioned six substances is also low risk and has synergy, was ketamine. I have researched ketamine a fair amount recently, because it seems to be all the rage lately. I have even tried a small amount in the form used in clinical settings. It most have been a small amount, because I did not notice the effects. I believe I could get any amount I wanted if I asked the right people, however, ketamine is not a chemical I am confident that I could use, and remain in control. God bless all those who use it while improving their lives. I have only seen the damage it can do if the wrong person gets a hold of it. Some restraint was used here.

I planned this session to be solo. That means the planning must be complete and air tight. Four weeks out, I planned the carefully measured doses with a detailed schedule that started at 5pm and ended at midnight. Alongside the schedule, I created a Spotify playlist which was over 12 hours long. I would be bivouacking this evening which means sleeping under the stars. Remember the temperature would be in the 40s. Planning included having enough water, supplies to build a fire that is hot enough all night, everything needed to administer the medicine, folding chair, tarp/blanket, hygiene supplies, and speaker for the music.

The dietary preparation started one week prior to the session. This included two 36 hour water fasts. One started on Monday and the other started on Thursday. Also, I had an increase in the intake of supplements. Everyday: 2 servings of NAC, 4 servings of Lions Mane Mushroom extract, 4 servings of Reishi Mushroom extract, 4 servings of Chaga mushroom extract, and 6 servings of vitamin B12. Supplementation also followed the session to combat the depletion of serotonin from the MDMA and the depletion of B12 from nitrous. The session started Friday night. Late Friday morning, I broke my final fast with a large serving of fruit and nuts. There was no dinner leading up to the session.

By Friday afternoon, I have relieved myself of responsibilities for 48 hours and I head to my spot. It is roughly an hour drive. When I get there, I see no one is set up to camp. I park, find my spot (200 yards from my vehicle in the woods next to a stream) and I ferry all my stuff to my spot with a wagon I brought. Next, I gather up all the firewood I can get my hands on. My schedule was to have everything set up by 5 pm. At this time, I would start to take the San Pedro. I brought 100 grams of San Pedro but I could only take a little more than a fourth of it. It is difficult to keep this down, but I was satisfied with the level I reached when I saw faint flashes of light that reminded me of the mescaline high. I started with San Pedro, because mescaline is a long time coming up and coming down.

I set aside two hours to achieve a couple things, consume as much San Pedro as I could comfortably consume, and gather wood. I made a fire pit by digging a hole 10 feet from the stream on a rock beach. The hole was 2 feet deep, and 5 feet by 5 feet. The entire time I consumed San Pedro, I was throwing wood into the fire so that by 8 pm, the hole I created was pure coal and ash. The speaker blasted classical psychedelic rock.

Once two hours passed since consuming San Pedro, psilocybin mushrooms were next. I consumed 4 extracted psilocybin gummies that each have more than a grams worth of mushroom psilocybin in them. These gummies are made with lemon juice as an ingredient so the effects are likely to come on sooner. At 8:30, two and a half hours from first ingestion of San Pedro, I consumed 300 ug of LSD. Three tabs right under the tongue. 20 minutes under the tongue, and then down the hatch. This is the time I felt the sensation of lead in my ass. I mean the mescaline, psilocybin and possibly the LSD had produced a body load where I was content of sitting there all night. This is where I am slipping into a trip where I am not going to want to move until sunrise.

The playlist started to transition into upbeat fun songs; hip hop, ska, reggae and pop. 9:30 dosing included 150 mg of MDMA in a capsule (this is the largest starting dose I will knowing take), another 4 psilocybin gummies, and 5 grams of Kratom. At this point, I had a tremendous body load from the mescaline in the San Pedro, psilocybin and the 300 ug LSD come up. In retrospect, the tabs are a little weaker than the typical 110ug per tabs, so this was closer to 120 or 150 ug of LSD. I had been wondering back and forth from brush piles located on the beach to the bonfire feeding the fire. Flames had reached 4 and 5 feet since I began consuming the San Pedro. The music was asking me to dance, but between 9:30 and 10:15, I sat frozen in my chair watching the fire, occasionally smoking cannabis.

Somewhere around 10:30, the MDMA started to do its job. I felt it gradually increase its intensity starting at 10:15 for the next 15 minutes. This is when the lead in my ass disappeared and I shot up. I got back to work finding even more downed wood to burn. It was also time for the LSD redose which was another 3 tabs, about 2 hours after the initial 3 tabs.

At this point, I had taken a total of 6 tabs of LSD, anywhere from 200 ug to 600 ug. I separated the dosing by two hours. I believe that if I had taken all 6 tabs at once, then it would be far more intense for my own good. Also, I had taken over 8 grams of psilocybin mushrooms. The intake was also separated by close to two hours. This is all on top of a moderate dose of San Pedro. Two hours after the first MDMA, I took the booster dose, 60 mg in a capsule. This is part of my psychedelic flipping strategy. I take my time when coming up. More times than not, I end up taking less than planned because of how I feel in the come up. I do not want to ever find out what happens when you take 6 hits of LSD, 8 grams of psilocybin mushrooms, 25 grams of San Pedro, and 225 mg of MDMA all at once. When there is a controlled ascent, then I can achieve the desired intensity for longer periods of time.

11:00 pm and I am peaking on mescaline, psilocybin, LSD, and MDMA. If anything, Kratom is undetectable behind everything else going on. The atmosphere of the playlist shifted. This is the portion of the night with songs stolen from various candy flipping playlist. EDM, as the kids would put it. One thing I would have changed is lowering the MDMA dose by 30%. Time seemed to fly by very quickly during the EDM portion of the night, maybe 10:30 to midnight.

Also, following the MDMA booster dose, I layed out two lines of mixed substances that I would insufflate. 50 mg of DMT mixed with 15 mg MDMA. This was all planned a head of time. All I had to do was wipe a glass plate, dump the contents of a vial onto the plate, line it up with a card, then sniff it through a straw, a line for each nostril. I do not consume anything through my nose but DMT is tricky. I cannot eat the DMT since MDMA and MAOIs do not mix. I wish I was brave enough to boof, but I’m not. I will not use needles without a trained professional. Smoking/vaping is extremely short acting. I intended to inhale nitrous following the DMT. Smoking/vaping DMT brings on the effects too rapidly to move on to operating another device, like a whippet cracker. This is why insufflating the DMT was the route taken. Another question, is why did I put 15 mg of MDMA in the DMT mix? This gave me so much motivation to insufflate all the DMT. This is how my sober self convince my tripping self to insufflate all that DMT. I was under the impression that it was going to be a horrific feeling of those crystals in my nose. To my surprise it was easy, with no burn or discomfort that I remember. I put my head back and looked at the stars in the moonless night for the next 15 minutes so the DMT would absorb in. Any drip that got to my stomach would not be activated. I had no residual sensations from insufflating something in my nose after that 15 minutes. I was surprised by that.

Here is where my technique was lacking. Once the fifteen minutes had passed since the DMT, now it is time to add the nitrous. I received the whippet crackers in the mail two weeks prior to this and only practiced on two balloons/cartridges. Imagine peaking on LSD, mescaline, psilocybin, MDMA and DMT while attempting to operate a nitrous cracker for the third time in your life. I either got very small inhalations, or the gas escaped or the balloon popped and so on. After maybe 5 to 10 attempts I gave up on the nitrous on went on with an incredible time. It’s fair to say that nitrous did not happen during the peak of LSD, psilocybin, mescaline, MDMA, and DMT. I did get one balloon to work very well the next morning between 10:00 am and 11:00 am.

Shortly after letting the insufflated material absorb in, then spending 5 to 10 minutes fumbling around with nitrous, the experience began to change. Anxiety I had been carrying about planning and executing this solo ceremony had concluded. This is when I ate the remaining 10 psilocybin gummies amounting to approximately more than 10 grams of mushrooms. The ingestion of the gummies earlier that evening allows me to build a tolerance. The result is stretching out the peak. I had nothing else to hold on to until morning. The first six hours were focused on slowly ingested all the entheogens while maintaining the space so that by 2 am, I had enough heat in the fire throughout the night and medicine to sustain a level 2 intensity that lasted until sunrise.

2:00 am, the playlist now resembled an Ayahuasca ceremony playlist. I moved to a spot on a tarp and blanket a couple feet from the fire. I had my water, a bong with DMT infused cannabis, a bowl with regular cannabis and my phone to control the music if needed. This is where my revelations and healing took place. The 10 grams of psilocybin hit when I believe the MDMA started to subside. I never experienced the dreaded MDMA crash, just a very easy transition into deep meditation and contemplation of my life. Periodically, once an hour for the next five hours, I would light up the bong to get a decent draw of DMT. This was maybe an added 100 mg spread out in those five hours.

By now it’s barely above 40 degrees, but I am a couple feet away from an overflowing pit of ash and coal. Every half hour, I reach over to my piles to place a couple logs in a keep the warmth going. All the while, I am meditating on the teachings of Rupert Spiro and the quotes we have of Meister Eckhart. For so long, the world appeared to me, to be consciousness arising from matter. In other words, the genesis of the universe proceeded awareness. But upon further inspection a different reality presents itself. Matter exists within consciousness. We are all living out the dream of the one single universal Mind, individual fingers of the single conscious flame that is our agreed upon reality. In recent years, disease and sickness has found its way into the lives of many people close to me. Some of them facing death. That night sitting in front of the fire, forces were tugging at my in all directions. In these states, it is absolutely clear to me that the eternal I, or what is actually having the experience we call life, will never cease to be. I actually felt a small amount of sorrow for the universal Mind being the only thing that actually exists. This is an incredibly lonely place. This is why there is the experience of life, to temporally extinguish that cosmic loneliness. The universal Mind is immortal. I believe that’s why the experience of life must have a beginning and end, because consciousness does not have a beginning or end.

Just before dawn, I’m taken to some of the past trauma my family has experienced. My mother has been married twice and I am from the first marriage in which my mom's first husband passed away. She is still with her second husband who adopted me. They added more to the family, my brother and my sister. Unfortunately for my brother, he is in the depths of depression made worse by daily drinking. We are not on the best terms. From my perspective, it has much to do with the choices he makes with alcohol. I had a decade of struggle with the same stuff. It is a monster for sure. Sometimes, we are able to use alcohol to cover up the monsters that attach to us through trauma. The loss of my mom's first husband, although, it occurred before any conscious memories of mine formed, it did leave scars. What I never suspected is how that could have impacted my brother even though the events are five years before his birth. While in the depths of the synchronized peaks of LSD, mescaline, psilocybin, MDMA and DMT; I have realized I must find a way to tell my brother that for all the pain that the death of our mom's first husband brought me personally, I am still glad it happened because it led to the life of my brother and sister. Maybe such a statement could penetrate enough for him to attempt to put value back in his life.

Now as the sun rises, the intensity begins to subside. Sometime between 6 and 7 am, I turned off the music, stand up and stumble to the bush to urinate. I had been sitting in front of that camp fire for 4 hours without moving much. Then I spend the next couple hours laying on a rock beach next to a stream. Very tranquil meditation/sleep.

By 11:00am, the effects from everything had completely subsided. This is around when I tried a nitrous balloon, because I really wanted to know if I could execute it well enough to have some effects. I believe it worked very well after the third try.

This is a combination that I believe should be written about and my first ever trip report. I have a dozen plus other meaningful psychedelic experiences I should write about. This was not the deepest or most intense trip, maybe not even in the top 100, as a result of the numerous DMT breakthroughs and Ayahuasca ceremonies I have had. This was likely in the top ten for most profound, and revealing experiences in my life. There are crucial details in the carrying out such a flip to maximize the benefits while minimizing the risks. I have not seen anyone write about the combination of the 4 most recognized classical psychedelics with MDMA. The amount of psychedelic substances consumed in a six hour period is enough to change the lives of over a half dozen people. My intentions were to let go of any attachments in life that has me anchored and stuck. I achieved this and more. I am presented with an option to attempt to mend a wound that’s haunted the family for over four decades. The integration of this epiphany will be challenging, but the universe may present the opportunity later in the summer time. The entire family, extended and all, are going on a once in a generation trip to the beach.

Exp Year: 2025	ExpID: 118870
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 42
Published: Jul 14, 2025	Views: Not Supported
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