DOSE:

30 mg

oral

4-HO-MET

Every concept and stimuli melds together, blending and connecting with each other in ways incomprehensible to the sober mind. To hear something is to see it, to see something is to touch it and hear it and taste it and everything in between, a cascade of electrical impulses in my brain traveling every which way and ending up in places I could have never imagined. The shape of the mortal form appears to contort and twist in a manner beyond what is possible in our limited three-dimensional world. One's own humanity is called into question as the inventions and mannerisms of humans become ever more distant and unknown. To watch a movie is to forget what is real and what is only on the screen, to feel as though one can reach out and melt into it, a world that is just as real as the "real" world, if not more so. The carefully constructed pathways down which stimuli travel have become twisted, distorted, melted, and merged. One knows everything and yet nothing at the same time. The very concept of my reality crumbles away, and I finally realize how foolish and fragile it always was. Everything is one, and one is everything. I am soup.

I'm writing this the morning after consuming 30mg of 4-HO-MET. Previously I had taken 20mg, and I had a great deal of fun, but reality still existed. Now, it does not, I'm not sure it ever will again, and I think that's okay.

During the experience, I mostly just watched movies. The movie I watched during the most intense part was Project A-Ko, a very old and silly anime movie with some cool mechs. The image on the screen warped, twisted, and changed color in unnatural ways. But it wasn't distorted anywhere near as much as I was on the inside. On multiple occasions, I had to pause the movie to remind myself that it wasn't real life because it was getting very difficult to tell where the screen ended and reality began, who the cartoon characters were between myself and the ones in the movie.

When I was done eating off of a plate (while incredibly aware of the exact position of every particulate anywhere in my mouth), I placed it on the floor instead of the table because everything felt so close together that the floor seemed as reasonable a place to set things as the table did.

For a few minutes, I lost all comprehension of what it means to be human, all understanding of human speech. I'm told that I was acting just like a puppy would.

I looked out the window at the horizon and the world outside seemed so much bigger than normal, and yet it also seemed to just be a paper facade feigning depth.

After that, I had come to my senses just enough to understand what I was watching when I watched Redline, an absolutely incredible movie with the most gorgeous animation I've ever seen. I don't normally watch anime at all, but that movie is so good that I loved it regardless. It's awesome. I'm slightly biased because I watched it while in a state where I was far more prone to appreciate the beauty in things, but even revisiting it now while sober it's still beautiful.

The sheer beauty of Redline put me in the mood to appreciate gorgeous visuals, so I decided to watch some music videos. Never before had I realized just how pretty the visuals for Deco*27's Blue Planet, Neverland, and Monitoring are. There isn't enough appreciation for the incredible animation that went into them and others like them.

Throughout this entire experience, time seemed to have slowed to a crawl, giving me even more time to take in every last detail of the beautiful visuals. I was also constantly smiling so wide that it hurt (though I didn't mind much). Even now, my mouth is still sore from smiling too much.

4-HO-MET is only supposed to last a few hours, but I felt it for several hours longer than I was supposed to, albeit at a reduced level of soupiness, possibly because I smoked weed a couple times midway through , which can have strong and unpredictable interactions with psychedelics, and can become one itself in their presence.

The final movie I watched was Jesus Hates You Now. It's a strange movie that many people will no doubt find unpleasant and boring, but I quite enjoyed it.

I had a good time, both because of the drugs and the excellent art I witnessed while on them, and I came out the other side feeling a newfound appreciation for art, life, the world, and everything in between.

Exp Year: 2025	ExpID: 118895
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Jan 20, 2026	Views: Not Supported
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