DOSE:	4 - 10 mg	oral	Methamphetamine	(liquid)
			Vitamin C
			Magnesium
			Melatonin
			Pharms - Alprazolam

Meth as ADHD Medication

⚠️ I am not a doctor. Do not assume that I know what I'm talking about without at least fact-checking first

I have ADHD and severe executive dysfunction that renders me nearly entire unable to focus on things or do things, even when it's things that I like doing. I haven't had a chance to get ADHD medication from a doctor, but I decided that it would be easier, cheaper, and faster to get it myself.

The most commonly used ADHD meds are various stimulants:
-Adderall, which is a mix of 75% Dextroamphetamine and 25% Levoamphetamine
-Lisdexamphetamine, also known as Vyvanse
-Racemethylphenidate, also known as Ritalin or Concerta.

There are a few other ones that are used less commonly, such as the isolated Dextro isomer of Methylphenidate, brand name Focalin.

However, I settled on a less commonly used one: Desoxyn, also known as Dextromethamphetamine. It's typically only used when a patient has already tried one of the above drugs and found it ineffective. I chose it almost entirely because it was much cheaper than any other option, and I have very little money.

When taking stimulants for any reason, keep in mind that they deplete various resources from your body, so you need to keep an eye on your diet and ideally take some supplements to manage problems. I've done a fair bit of research on this, but it's all very complicated, and everyone you ask will tell you something different, so I'm not entirely sure about all this myself. I settled for just taking Magnesium supplements, Melatonin (which I was already taking to help me sleep), and Vitamin C when I need to eliminate the drug faster. There are a lot of other things I could and potentially should be taking, but it's all either too hard to find or too hard to tell if it's actually important.

A prescription of d-Meth for ADHD is 5-25mg orally (rarely, more if needed). I decided to start a little over the lowest end of that, at 7mg.

Typical milligram scales are somewhat inaccurate, especially at low measurements, so I decide to mix it into water so I can dose volumetrically. A quick search seemed to say that Meth dissolves in water up to a maximum of 500mg/mL, but I decided to only do 7mg/mL, as it's much easier to dose a weaker solution, and it won't taste as bad. I mix 70mg of Meth into 10mL of water and stir it until it all dissolves, which was significantly faster than I expected. I'm used to mixing solutions of Ketamine for injection, and Ketamine is much more reluctant to dissolve in water. This solution is also a lot easier to prepare, since I'm only taking it orally and therefore don't have to be anywhere near as careful about avoiding contamination (though I do still keep everything clean).

Meth is very acidic, and you really don't want the crystals touching your teeth or throat, but a small amount of a solution this dilute should probably be fine, in my very much not professional opinion. I'd say it tastes less acidic than a soda, at least.

I was tracking everything I eat just in case it's relevant, but I cut those bits out in the final draft because it didn't seem to be relevant in the end.

DAY 1

0:00 I woke up a few hours ago and have not eaten. I squirt 1mL of 7mg/mL Methamphetamine water into my mouth. Despite the low concentration, it tastes horrible.

0:40 I'm starting to experience the desire to do *something*. Normally I'm content to just lay down and do nothing, and while I still could, I actually want to do something. I may be experiencing mild euphoria, though I might also just be feeling happy due to the desire to do something. My movements are somewhat faster and more eager than usual (I'm usually akin to a sloth or slug in terms of movement). I do feel somewhat as though I am on drugs, but it's mild; I can still act normal.

0:45 I feel like I can listen and pay attention to others when they talk. Someone is talking to me and I'm picking up every word instead of being too distracted to listen. Maybe I've actually been taking Estrocillian (joke).

0:57 I'm typing faster, especially on my phone. Though my accuracy might be worse I feel increased focus on the game I'm playing and increased willingness to move. When I do move, it is faster. I'm more willing and able to talk about things, and my speech comes out faster. It's not to a huge degree; it's all pretty subtle.

1:28 I just cleaned the house. I can't believe there has been so much shit just laying on the ground for weeks and no one picked it up. I notice that I'm talking faster than normal, and am overall more eager to talk about things.

2:38 I start drawing, and focus on it for a while with very few distractions or breaks.

3:00 I don't really feel like I'm "on drugs" anymore; more so I just feel normal and able to function. I take a momentary break to walk to the store. While there, I feel very...healthy? It's like I belong in the world, like I'm a living creature just like everyone else there, instead of feeling like I stand out by being a lifeless husk.

5:25 I finish a drawing. It's not great, probably because I haven't drawn in 8 months due to my horrible executive dysfunction, but I'm really hoping to stick to it and seriously improve going forward.

6:00 As I type the introduction for this, I find myself typing faster, not having to pause to remind myself what I'm doing as often, and being able to actually focus on doing it instead of spending 90% of my time checking other things instead.

6:35 As I eat, I can't help but feel as if I should be doing something more productive than just sitting here and eating. I'm fully able to just sit here, but it feels a bit wrong. I want to be accomplishing something.

10:05 I take 1g of Vitamin C. I should have done this earlier, since I don't plan on staying up much longer.

12:00 I think I feel normal now? I'm quite tired though. It might be completely gone, or maybe there's a little bit of it left still
I take 3mg of Melatonin and go to sleep.

DAY 2

I decide to not take it today. I feel like a brick, unable to do anything but repeatedly refresh my Twitter notifications and get upset about whatever I see, barely able to eat, much less accomplish anything with my life. This is not unusual for me; I have felt like this for as long as I can remember. It just hits harder now that I know what it feels like to have the drive to do something.

DAY 3

0:29 I start frying eggs. I feel mostly normal, but completely comfortable writing this while waiting, as I feel I won't forget what I'm doing like I normally might. I think that's just placebo, though.

0:54 I still feel pretty much normal, which makes me anxious, since by this time the first time, I felt distinctly not normal. It could just be my stomach being different today. Alternatively, I might have built some tolerance already, but my hope is that I only build tolerance to the effects that are distinctly being high and not to the part where it makes my brain work normally.

1:11 I feel a sudden urge to get up and clean up somewhat. It's weaker than I felt last time, but I decide it's in my best interest to follow it regardless.

1:27 I'm starting to feel it somewhat.

2:40 I just spent an hour infodumping to someone about my special interest (drugs). I probably would have done this normally, but the Meth probably helped. My movement also seems to be faster than normal, but I wouldn't describe it as "frantic". I seem fully in control and coordinated.

2:50 Now I'm reading about the different types of opioid receptors and their effects. This is so fascinating. Again, I probably could have read this without meth, but it does make it easier to focus and absorb the information instead of just skimming it and playing Balatro instead.

4:25 I spent a while in the time vortex learning about why Ketamine acts as an antidepressant. From what I can gather, there are many theories, but no one is entirely sure.

5:12 For months now, I've had a very minor issue with my computer. After months of ignoring, I just fixed it. It only took a minute. I'm noticeably more mentally capable and desiring of movement than usual. I'm fully capable of sitting still, but it's not my only option.

7:00 I start drawing.

11:00 I finish drawing. The Meth might have worn off while I was finishing up. I do feel fairly normal. I was worried there would be some horrible comedown or something, but I haven't felt anything like that

16:32 I go to bed. I'm able to sleep just fine, despite forgetting to take melatonin like I normally need to.

DAY 4

I decide to not take it today.

DAY 5

0:57 I definitely feel something. I'll try to put this towards doing something productive in a bit...after playing some games first, lol.

1:42 I start frying some eggs. I should have eaten earlier, but the reason I didn't was because I was focused on doing something else (playing Project Sekai), and not because I simply couldn't work up the energy to do something like it normally would have been. The pan I wanted to use was dirty, but instead of getting paralyzed by this like I normally would have, I simply cleaned it.

9:23 I have spent the past many hours attempting to learn Godot. I haven't done anything of the nature so the going is rough, but there is progress. However, I feel I have hit both a good stopping point and a brick wall, and also I really should eat something.

13:14 I probably don't need Vitamin C or anything; I imagine it's worn off already.

14:11 I take 3mg of Melatonin, 360mg of Magnesium (as Magnesium Glycinate), and 1g of Vitamin C (it's probably not neccessary for eliminating the Meth since it's been so long, but I do still feel a little odd, and Vitamin C is good for you anyway, so it can't hurt).

15:11 Time to go to bed. I should have done this a while ago, but I got distracted and the time disappeared.

DAYS 6-8

I don't take it these days. I feel as though I don't even have enough motivation to want to have motivation by taking the medicine.

DAY 9

0:00 I take 7mg. I realized that the thing that was making me not take it the past days was actively not wanting to be motivated to get anything done because that sounded like a pain. I had to remind myself that taking it makes getting things done seem pleasant and appealing, and not like a huge chore.

1:52 Not feeling much so far. Maybe a bit more functional. I do my estrogen injection and realize I forgot to eat something, but I'm not feeling up to making actual food, so I just eat a protein bar.

2:09 I'm definitely feeling more awake and energetic.

2:30 I spent some time cleaning.

2:50 I'm somewhat annoyed because I have enough motivation to want to do something but not enough to actually do something, which just makes me feel pent up, and the game I wanted to play (Project Sekai) won't work, seemingly due to some server issues (though I seem to be the only one experiencing issues).

Was 3 days off enough to make it like the first time? I feel distinctly "high" and not just normal, albeit only very slightly. I decide to spend some time going through my backlog of music I've been meaning to listen to but haven't had the motivation to. I feel so empty and depressed. I think it's unrelated to the Meth. It might be worsened by knowing that I haven't accomplished anything meaningful today despite taking Meth.

8:16 Having done my estrogen shot today might have something to do with why I feel so emotional, come to think of it. Especially since I've been fucking up the shot and not getting much estrogen in me for the past 2 weeks.

13:22 I go to bed

DAYS 15, 21, 23, and 30

I take it, and it works as expected, allowing me to accomplish various things, but nothing of note happens.

I did record all of these days, but I feel like these descriptions are getting stale, so I've cut them for brevity's sake.

DAY 37

0:00 I decided to try upping the dose from 7mg to 10mg to see if it's any more effective.

1:00 It doesn't seem to be, but it does seem noticeably more euphoric, which was not my goal, but I feel pretty good, so I can't complain too much.

1:30 I'm a lot more comfortable just laying still and feeling good than I'd expect from Meth.

2:03 I'm feeling heightened anxiety and paranoia, which is overshadowing the euphoria and making me feel crazy, so I take 0.625mg Alprazolam to try to calm myself.

3:00 They didn't cancel each other out as much as you'd think. I'm still feeling pretty stimulated, but also more relaxed. Between Meth making me more extroverted and energetic and Alp making me way less anxious about bothering people, this combination makes my desire to talk to people ungodly strong.

6:30 I'm feeling mostly stimulated, and starting to feel anxious again, without much euphoria.

7:00 I'm not feeling very stimulated anymore, even though the Alp should be wearing off and the Meth should still be somewhat present.

7:30 I feel mostly like I'm just on Alp. I've seemingly flipped between which one is "winning" a few times now, which is unexpected and very interesting.

8:30 The euphoria seems a bit stronger, but I'm not really sure which drug is winning anymore. I think it's still Alp, but not by as much?

8:38 Okay, the Alp is definitely winning, but I'm probably more able and willing to do stuff than I would have if it was only Alp

9:10 Feels like pretty much entirely Alp now.

11:00 I'm going to bed now. The effects of the Meth seem to be pretty much entirely gone. I expected the Alp to be gone long before this point, but I can still feel it, albeit only a little. I'm capable of staying up, but I have a feeling I'll be able to go to sleep just fine.

Onward

I've tried various things in the months since then; I've tried dropping the dose to 5mg and even 4mg, and it felt pretty much the same as 10mg did when I tried that. I even tried snorting 10mg, which also felt pretty much the same, other than not lasting as long. I'll probably try more things in the future.

Conclusion: This definitely works as medication as expected, though it isn't enough to make me entirely functional without significant effort on my part.

When it's working well, it's a fantastic feeling, like I can just do what I want to do without problems.

I'm curious what it would feel like if I took a more typical recreational dose, but I don't think I'll actually do that, at least not anytime soon, as it sounds like it could be somewhat unpleasant.

Exp Year: 2025	ExpID: 118977
Gender: Not Specified
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Jul 11, 2025	Views: Not Supported
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