DOSE:

18 seeds

oral

H.B. Woodrose

BODY WEIGHT:

160 lb

This happened in college in 2014

Me and my friend John got some hbws online. He had lots of psychedelic experience through the dark web and had tried all the 2cx compounds and had tried acid multiple times. I had only had what I thought was acid, but was nbome (which was honestly incredible either way).

We were in college at the time and I was still finding myself. I am a trans woman and this trip literally showed me who I was.

We got the seeds and I was an idiot and decided to take 18 seeds. I have no idea what came onto me to take a ton. It was a combination of naivety and a need to look deeper at myself. John had about 8-9.

As we waited, we were watching YouTube videos and listening to music. I remember about a half hour after consuming the seeds, we were watching a video and I saw the stars in the background of whoever was singing and they really became pronounced. I was floored by it. It was just such an intense focus brought on by the seeds.

We were coming up and just chatting and laughing and John put on the reality show “the biggest loser”.

It made me feel awful. The whole show is about shaming fat people. It’s very judgmental. It was seriously bothering me. Finally we just put music back on and I completely stopped being able to speak, but I was fine with it.

At some point John’s roommate Paddy came home and a bunch of people were hanging out in different rooms. My friend Sprout was there and could tell I was being quiet.

I remember being so out of my mind, that I laid on the floor and looked up at a led light that was always on. It had about 6 tiny lights in it in a circle. The pattern was so intense that It looked completely insane to me, the lights were forming fractals and creating a sort of kaleidoscope view.

Sprout asked me if I was ok and I really opened up to them. I told them that although I came out as gay a year before I felt like something was missing. They were just listening and I told them that there was something more. I had always been feminine and never really identified with being a man. It was foreign to me. This was something that I had always pushed down, but here I was at the beginning of my massive trip on LSA already crossing into that territory.

From there I had a bit of a breakdown not understanding anything and time warping to the point of me feeling like I had completely lost my mind. I was so wrapped up in the head trip that I dont remember any visuals or anything. My body felt cold, I had awful vasoconstriction and I was so delirious, but silent.

I went into the bathroom and my face morphed into a kaleidoscope with my eyes bulging at one point.

Then finally I decided to go home. I forgot my keys and locked myself in the courtyard. Although I had my phone, I had sworn I wouldn’t use it. I had an imaginary lock on it, like if I used it I was breaking some ancient code. So I threw it across the courtyard, realized what I did, ran and grabbed it and put it back in my pocket. I vomited everywhere and eventually laid on the ground in the cool Liverpool night. I closed my eyes and saw my life flash before my eyes - from when I was very young all the way up until the present. This all happened at the same time. It’s the only way I can explain it. It’s like time didn’t exist. All of it was happening in my mind and I was experiencing it all at the same time.

I completely forgot my name, who I was, what was going on in my life. It was very scary, but I also didn’t care because I had no idea who I was. There were no consequences because I had no grasp on society or what it meant to be human. I just laid there, flabbergasted at my existence.

Finally, I came to about an hour later. It was still night time and nobody had woken me. I finally decided to turn on my phone. I was a lot less high, but still tripping heavily. I called Sprout. They opened the door and let me in to get my keys. It was there that I would tell them my deepest secret. The secret that I barely let myself explore. I am a woman and at the time, I was very in denial of this fact. I told them on the spot. From there my life was saved. I became myself and I have never been happier.

Exp Year: 2014	ExpID: 119439
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 18
Published: Jan 17, 2026	Views: Not Supported
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