DOSE:	100 mg	oral	MDMA
	repeated	smoked	Cannabis

About 3 months ago a friend of mine had told me that he could get me some pure mdma. As I had been really wanting to try it for quite some time, I thought that this was an extremely good opportunity, so I took him up on it. I had such an incredible experience that I felt that I must write something down about it to share with the rest of the world. Sadly, however, I did not get around to it untill today, but that will save this report from being like a small novel.

I had read a great deal about ecstacy's potential as a psychological tool, and this was the main reason that I wanted to take it. I had done a great deal mentally to prepare for it. I was really baked the night that I took it, but I remember taking it and waiting in my room trying to figure out what would be the best thing to do would be. I chose to put in the movie eyes wide shut for various different reasons, the main one being that I had read that watching a good movie can be good on e, and that I just like stanley kubrick movie. Previous to my putting this movie in, I had been walking around campus for about 45 minutes telling people that I was about to roll (hence my being so fucked up).

About 1hour and 15minutes after I had taken the roll some friends of mine who I had talked to earlier were sitting by me in my room. I was laying down on the floor just groovin to the music from the movie when all of the sudden it just started sounding really good, I mean like really really fucking good, like I couldnt describe it, like everything just felt so good I just couldnt believe it. I just wanted to drape myself over everything because it all just felt soo good, and the only words that I could form in such a state of awe at the beauty of everything around me was 'awwwww man' so I just kept saying that over and over again. Then one of the people who was there in my room at this point (many people came in and out during the hours that I was just rolling around my room amazing myself at how good everything felt) told me that there was something that he always did when he rolled. He told me to stand back to back with him while another person faced me. He then told me to close my eyes while he grabbed my arms and the other person grabbed my ankles. The first person then put me upside down laying on his back while the other person put my ankles over his head. This just blew me away. I felt as if I were actually flying through a soft blanket of blue skies and fluffy clouds. Smoking also felt absolutely divine. Everything felt divine. I was just rolling around gaping in awe about how great everything was.

After about 4 hours of this incredible feeling of goodness and peace, it started to feel a little less intense, and eventually it felt like the smoke was settling after the door on the safe of my inner mind was settling. This was when I began the really deep conversations and mental healing that I had heard so much about. I talked about some stuff that had been bothering me and actually worked out a lot of stuff in my own mind that had been making me unhappy for months. Even now several months later, I feel as if I am learning from this experience. One thing that I distinctly remember is that I wanted to go to some resturaunt with someone at like 6:00a.m. but nothing was open. I just wanted to do something with someone. For about 4 days after taking that pill I felt this way. I was just so energetic, and I was running around everywhere trying to find people to talk to. I didnt care who, I just wanted to talk to people, and I still feel more open than before.

I believe after my experience with ecstacy is that it gives you the power to open a door inside your mind that many of us do not have the power to open. I believe that once this door is open the choice of whether or not you enter that door is up to you. I believe that it is a key that gives you the power to do things that you couldnt do before. It does not do anything itself, but it gives the user the power to do anything as long as the user is willing to accomplish these things.

Exp Year: 2001	ExpID: 12079
Gender: Not Specified
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: May 14, 2020	Views: 707
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