DOSE:

MDMA

(pill / tablet)

BODY WEIGHT:

145 lb

[Erowid Note: While it may be that the substance described is pure MDMA, Ecstasy/Molly tablets and powders are notoriously impure, misrepresented, or adulterated. Ecstasy sold in retail contexts such as festivals or parties often contain chemicals other than MDMA.]
I've dropped 'E' 10 times. Everytime I've dropped at a rave. I think it's the best place to do it because of the beautiful and friendly atmoshpere. The last couple of times it hasn't been the same. I didn't get that same sensational feeling all over my body, and I didn't get the urge to scream like I would usually get. I felt sober but at the same time my jaw would keep popping and my teeth wouldn't stop clenching. I was so confused??? I looked to my friend and she told me 'I've never seen your eyes so big.' I thought, oh cool I'm gonna start rolling. So I ran to the closest speaker and I started to fell it, it felt like i was flying through teh clouds. And then all of a sudden I wasn't felling it anymore it stopped. I stood there trying to let it hit me again, but it wouldn't come back. An hour or so later I gave up I popped another pill. I'm chillin' with my girlies and they are all rolling hard, and I am still not feeling the pills like I wanted to. So I just chilled the rest of the night.

Then about 2 months later I went to another Party (rave) and I thought about not even roillin because it would be a waste of money and time, but I thought what the hell why not. So I got a pill and dropped I am so glad that I decided to roll that night, I've never rolled so hard in my life, It was the greatest expierence ever. I meet the coolest people that night, I looked at the world with a smile that night and since then I haven't been able to get rid of that smile, I dont know what it was but I have never felt so complete in my life. I felt like there was nothing I couldn't handle and there was nothing that I couldn't do. I was on top of the world.

After that night I didn't believe in the 'Loss of Magic' it's that sometimes there's good pills and sometimes there's bad pills. I know one day I am lucky and another I am not. So I don't believe that you can loss that E-magic. I Just make sure I know where your pills are coming from :)

Exp Year: 2001	ExpID: 12136
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Feb 8, 2018	Views: 986
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