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They Never Really Left
Salvia divinorum (5x extract)
Citation:   Sage of Entity. "They Never Really Left: An Experience with Salvia divinorum (5x extract) (exp12469)". Erowid.org. Feb 20, 2023. erowid.org/exp/12469

 
DOSE:
5 hits smoked Salvia divinorum (extract - 5x)
I have had experiences in the past with both plain salvia leaf, and 5x extract; but they were both threshold doses. Nothing prepared me for what I experienced last night. I'm in fairly good physical condition and good mental health aside from issues I've been having lately with feeling alone. I feel like all my friends are ditching me, have forgotten about me, and that played a very important role in my experience with salvia. I consider myself to be pretty well experienced with drugs, having tried many things ranging from alcohol and pot to lsa, lsd, ketamine, dxm, pcp, opium, coke/crack, nitrous, nutmeg, speed, mushrooms, mdma, and many, many different kinds of pharmaceuticals; most of them being some sort of painkiller, but I've also tried different kinds of anti-psychotics and valium. I had researched salvia many times.

I ordered my 5x salvia incense from an online ethnobotanical company, and received it yesterday afternoon. I waited until later that night to try it out. My friend Steve had just left to go home, and my mom had just left to go visit my grandmother. I was sitting on the couch in the living room, and my brother was in the room to the right, on the computer. I had informed him that I was going to try it, just so he knew so he could keep an eye on me in case I started to freak out. I took in three slow, deep breaths of fresh air, and then lit the salvia and took in 5 lungfuls, holding each for about 25 seconds. Before exhaling the last lungful, I turned off the light, and closed my eyes. I waited for a few seconds, unsure of what I was feeling, and then suddenly it was as if I were outside of my house, watching everything from the side as if the walls weren't in my way. They were still there, but I could see through them.

Then everything around my brother and I disappeared. I still saw me on the couch, and my brother to the right of me on the computer in the next room, except the room itself wasn't there. It was just me and my brother and the floor, except it wasn't even really a floor, it was almost like a platform of some sort. The platform began to spin clockwise like a ferris wheel or some other sort of carnival ride, and once it completed a full circle I divided into two people and so did my brother. Then the ride would speed up. Another circle would be completed, and all four of us would divide into two people, and the ride would speed up once more. This probably happened for about a minute or two, until I got too dizzy from watching and had to open my eyes.

I was back in my house again, but everything still looked very strange, and my thoughts were still quite abstract. I saw in my head both my mom and Steve leaving, just as they had done a few minutes prior. I began to think 'They both left my house. They left me.' And as I thought about this, I felt both of Steve and my mom leave from my body, almost like I had started to morph or melt. They had formed, and once they were completely formed, they'd detach from my body and disappear. I couldn't actually see any of this, but I could feel it happening to me. I started to think about that, and how they never really left.
They had formed, and once they were completely formed, they'd detach from my body and disappear. I couldn't actually see any of this, but I could feel it happening to me. I started to think about that, and how they never really left.
Because I've learned things from both of them that will stay with me forever, whether it be views, thought processes, or ways of handling situations they are a part of me.

This is when I started to have a slight paranoia / anxiety attack. I was thinking about how they never left, so I envisioned my mother coming back through the door and finding me in the state that I was in. I started to freak out a little, but I didn't scream or anything. My peak was over and the trip was disintegrating very quickly, and by the time I started to freak out I realized I didn't have a reason to.


Exp Year: 2002ExpID: 12469
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Feb 20, 2023Views: 287
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