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Complete Confusion
Citation:   thr33. "Complete Confusion: An Experience with Ether (exp17173)". May 1, 2018.

  repeated inhaled Ether
[Erowid Note: The "water extraction" method is ineffective in separating diethyl ether from the volatile hydrocarbon liquids/gases in "starter fluid". Our understanding of the literature is that there is no such thing as safe use of volatile hydrocarbon gases: their psychoactive effects are inseparable from nerve and organ damage.]
confusion through ether

I had made some ether using starting fluid, I had put it in a container, and decided to try it out, I put some on a cloth and after the first three 'huffs' my head starting pulsating, (waw-waw-waw-waw) just like inhaling nitrous, I thought, hey its just like nitrous, just stronger, I took the container into my living room, and started inhaling it out of the container in deep breaths, it just got stronger and stronger, until finally I felt like every nerver in my body was pulsating, like an electric fence that is static, I did more, until I was so out of it I couldnt really, and realized it was getting hard for me to.

So I stopped laid back and started watching tv, it was on cartoon network, everything seem hilarious, before I knew it I felt like everything was trying to tell me something, and I was taking everything said out of context and twisting it to support what I thought was the great truth, I was pretty much tripping for about 30 minutes before I snapped out of it, I went through many different 'trips', although I can never fully explain what they were I will do my best.

one, I was the son of god, but he was kind of like a preacher, and he and his wife were going to sleep, and I had just found all of this out, but it was also like the whole world was going to sleep too, after I realized this it kind of merged into another as I suddenly felt that the world was coming to an end, and I being gods son, had great influence, I smirked thinking the world was ending, and looked at the tv, and saw a hug glowing wavy mouthed smile, a commercial came on I later saw what it was, cartoon cartoon weekend august 23, but it said ALL WEEKEND LONG, and for some reason I felt like I was stuck for eternity, and the next thing I know I really really thought, like staring off into space, that I was the butt of some huge joke, and I would be like, what the? And not understand but being very mad and disturbed that this happened to me.

It went on through several different things, but the last thing before I snapped out of it was that I got as far away that I could from doing the right thing, and failed, and my life was over, I started feeling really bad, and I probably laid there staring at the ceiling for 15 minutes and I guess the ether wearing off, I suddenly thought, hey, thats my ceiling, I'm not dead or stuck, and quickly got up and was like holy shit. But the weirdest thing about it all is I will never feel like I got 'out' of the trip, I just feel like I realized all these things, and then suddenly realized nothing was forcing it to be true to me, so I 'escaped' it by going on living, but it really sucks because I still feel the same, I didnt change, I just didnt fall out of the trip or anything, and what is really scary is I did it a second time, with my friend because she wanted to and I thought hey maybe I can overcome it, but just when I started doing it not but like 5 or 6 huffs, a little cartoon devil came on the screen and said thats right, it totally scared the living shit out of me, my face dropped, and she knew something was wrong, I said I had to stop, it really sucked, still does. I just wish I could figure it out.

Exp Year: 2002ExpID: 17173
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: May 1, 2018Views: 1,906
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