Citation: the piper. "The Crash: An Experience with MDMA (Ecstasy) (exp18048)". Erowid.org. Oct 9, 2002. erowid.org/exp/18048
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This was the first time I had ever tried XTC before, and I was really anticipating it. I had just started hanging out with an old friend of mine whom I played football with in High School again. He introduced me to a couple of his 'mental expansion' buddies, and we hit it off, smoked out, and I expressed my interest in X.
We arranged a day, and I took two tablets of what my new 'emmissary' called 'RN'. They were that puke medical green that Nurses wear, hence the 'RN' title.
This is an account of a crash, not of the good parts (which there were plenty, believe me!). I started to feel the pills after an hour and a half or so, and enjoyed myself immensely, mumbling things to people around me that were TOTALLY nonsensical. Then my 'emmissary' and his girlfriend went off to bed to do whatever it is that they went to do, and left me alone in the living room. Uh oh. it took me a few minutes to realize it, but the lack of human companionship made for a wierd psychological conflict. And it was about 3 hours into my experience, so.....I crashed. It was the most compellingly horrible experience i have ever been dragged through. One minute I was feeling ten-thousand times better about everything imaginable than I ever thought possible, and the next minute, everything I had been feeling good about felt equally as awful. It was indescribable. I assumed that this was normal behavior for someone on XTC, but apparently it isn't.
Here's how my timeline went, whenever i did it (the crash didn't perturb me from doing it a few more times...)
0-1.5 hours....Anticipation..glorious anticipation (and regret on having spent as much damn money as I did!), and towards the end of this period some restlessness and a bit of uncertainty.
1.5-3 hours....OH MY GOD GOOD PILLS....GOOD PILLS....GOOD PILLS...REGRET? WHAT'S THAT...I'm gonna start a turkey farm, and make infants fly jets...
3-36 hours...CRASH AND BURN....REGRET!!! REGRET!!! REGRET!!! Try to drink myself unconscious (which isn't really possible I've discovered.) Sit in the tub trying not to grind my teeth to nothingness.
My advice to those looking to try it. No matter how right it seems, or no matter how much you really really wanna do it, DO NOT CALL YOUR MOTHER AT 3:30 a.m. AND TELL HER YOU LOVE HER! THE SAME GOES FOR YOUR FATHER!!!!
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