DOSE:

insufflated

Cocaine

(powder / crystals)

BODY WEIGHT:

180 lb

So now its thursday night. Monday night I was up until 5 doing lines of Peruvian Flake, some incredible coke that a coworker of mine came across. In fact it was the end of two weeks in which I used (that seems like such a rehab word) almost every day.

I have been doing coke or E about 5 to 10 times a month for the last two years, but never really letting it affect my life. Recently I have found myself doing more and more coke. I have been doing it at stupid times which is what bothers me, tuesday nights alone in my apartment, or all day on a wednesday to go to the store and run errands.

Well it has been three days and tonight especially I can't stop thinking about it. Even in writing this, another person who I should call comes to mind. But I won't, not tonight, its nearly 3. Luckily most of my urges have been subtly masked by Heineken and cheap Cabernet.

Addiction has never occured to me as a reality. I am too strong of a person. I’m college educated, young, determined and just like to have a good time. Whatever.

Exp Year: 2002	ExpID: 18737
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Feb 5, 2005	Views: 8,702
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