DOSE:

repeated

insufflated

Methamphetamine

(powder / crystals)

BODY WEIGHT:

50 kg

Coming Down on Speed

Speed is a great drug like all drugs but it lasts longer, it makes me more active, concetrated, powerfull, confident everything I want. I have experienced speed lots of times and even now it seems impossible to quit. I did speed and after 4 days I did it again and I almost overdose. I couldn't breathe and I got so pale I looked half dead. Even then I did not hate speed although I announced to my friends that it would be the last time. Today I did speed again but although it felt the way is supposed to am not able to enjoy it because an awfull experience will begin for me after its gone, although I do not know when thats going to happen.

Coming down on speed is torture! I have tried xtc, coke and this is the worst. I keep crying everything looks depressed am pissed and at the same time am hurt. I wanna die but I wanna live. I hate people I love and feel desperate and confused. The even more screwed up fact is that I have no idea thats my comedown since I think speed its over long time before my world falls apart before my eyes. I would like to specify that I did not have a comedown like that for my two first times.

Trust me I know I have everything to be happy for and completely satisfied from life but after speed's comedown all I want is to ...snort more lines.

Exp Year: 2002	ExpID: 20064
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Jul 27, 2018	Views: 1,659
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