I'll Only Try It Once...
Citation: M.S.. "I'll Only Try It Once...: An Experience with Cocaine (exp24110)". Erowid.org. Mar 10, 2018. erowid.org/exp/24110
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I was always the straight edge girl that everyone assumed did drugs. I had never tried anything before in my life, not even marijuana. On December 12th, 2002, my friend asked me if I wanted to do some cocaine with him and a friend. 'We'd all throw some money in for a gram.' he said. Saying sure, knowing that IF we actually did get it, I wouldn't touch it.
I brought $40 with me, and he picked me up. He told me how he only had $10, and the gram was $50. The other friend was broke, so I payed for most of it. We then went over to his friends house and got 3 CD cases, and he made us all a line. I rolled up the dollar bills because I too wanted to help. They said cheers and waited for me to put the dollar up to my nostril, and sniff this white death. After waiting for 15 minutes of trying to pursue me, they did theirs. Then they did another, and another. Already 3 lines ahead of me, I said I would. They made me a big line, and I looked and decided it was now or never. As they sat around, I asked for another, I wanted to catch up.
After a while of 'catching up', I wound up doing half the gram to myself. For some reason, I always thought there was more to it then that. Just more than that numming-up feeling. I was sure drugs had no effect on me, and they were a waste of my time. I was still that 'straight-edge', I insisted afterward. That one time didn't count. 'I'll only try it once...', I said.
A week later I hung out with my friend Sara. I stayed at her house for over a week, doing about a gram plus of cocaine to myself a day. After messing up in school, and losing credit, I decided enough was enough. I would just finish this last little bit I had. I went home, did the gram I had left in under an hour. With only two lines left my nose began to bleed and I started to freak out. I thought I was going to die. I vowed to never tough it again. 4 months had gone by, and I stuck by my word. Then, I did it again with another friend. Then, a month later with another.
It isn't my favorite drug, but my one time use led to a lifetime of not being able to say no. 'I'll only try it once...' led to a life time addiction.
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