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I Hate Lilly
Olanzapine (Zyprexa)
by Alec
Citation:   Alec. "I Hate Lilly: An Experience with Olanzapine (Zyprexa) (exp26573)". Erowid.org. Feb 13, 2004. erowid.org/exp/26573

20 mg oral Pharms - Olanzapine (pill / tablet)


I had to begin taking (olanzapine) zyprexa in order to help me withdraw from my fantasies with imaginary friends and wake dreams. At first I resisted taking it and if i swallowed it I would throw it up later. But soon I quit this and began taking it. I noticed a changed preception of life for quite some time as I had been taking the pill for about 4 to 5 months. I experienced a dreamless life, and a strange sort of, increase and simultaneous decrease in concentration during the daytime. I kept thinking about my imaginary friends but rather than them disappearing I just suddenly lost fascination and interest in them. And my emotional dependence on them faded away and for a while I felt empty.

I started eating uncontrollably. Before I was diagnosed I was 13 and weighed about 115-120 lbs. During the next month and a half I gained alot of weight...and lost alot of energy and personality. By the time my 14 birthday showed up after being on the prescription for about 3 or 4 months I weighed no less than 166 lbs.

I was taking about 40 mg per day because whenever I failed to take the pill I became extremely sick with flu-like symptoms and eventually I forced myself to quit which was a rocky road of mood swings and distance from my habitual life to where I am now...an overweight, stuttering, nervous change from my original self.

Exp Year: 2002ExpID: 26573
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given 
Published: Feb 13, 2004Views: 34,826
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