DOSE:

oral

MDMA

(pill / tablet)

BODY WEIGHT:

110 lb

Don't get me wrong, I love ecstacy, I've been doing it every weekend for 5 months straight. But besides all the great weekends me and my friends have together rollin on E, I'm gonna tell you about the horrible after-effects. Doing it every weekend, sometimes twice a weekend, and doin more than one pill definetly will do damage to your mind and body. Since I've been doing ecstacy I've been realizing I am not as expressive or as alive as I use to be, and I get depressed real easy. I have really fucked up dreams, not so much scary, but dreams that just make no sense. Sometimes I get so damn confused I forget what I'm doing, and I just feel dumb. When people try and hold a long conversation with me I cant do it, I have to stop them and ask them to repeat themselves, I also realize I stutter alot more now. I've chipped my tooth from grinding my teeth, not even when I was rolling, I just did it the other night actually. I get extremely bad headaches, I've lost about 15 pounds, and dont have a very big appitite. I've also noticed I've been REALLY moody lately.

But yet I just cant stop doing it, I love it so much. Even though I've read so many stories and watched so many reports on TV about ecstacy I still think to myself 'it wont happen to me,' and after a while it will..I'm just scared to find out what will happen or when. Me and my boyfriend have become alot closer since doing ecstacy. Me, my boyfriend, and our friends have quit for one week now...goin on two..hopefully..

Oh ya and how can I forget to tell about my blackout/ODing experience. It was a friday night I took 4 pills that night, but my roll was really weird and confusing, things didnt feel all that great, I was EXTREMLY confused and I had heatflashes, and when people would be talking I would see their mouths moving but I couldnt hear what they were saying. My vision would go blurry at times, I was just REALLY confused. I didnt sleep at all that night. But it wasnt just me everyone elses roll wasnt that great either, we think it was the pills. The next morning on my way home we smoked some weed and that brought my roll back hard, then I got dropped off at home, and I took a little nap, for maybe about 30 mins, then I woke up, still rollin a little bit, I walked upstairs and there was a radio playing quietly in my brothers room, I remember going to open my door to my room then everything started getting real dark, and then I couldnt hear the radio anymore, I started hearing this beeping noise in my ears, and I couldnt see anything and just fainted right on the floor. I woke up a few mins later in a cold sweat, and I got up sat on my bed and just said to myself 'what the fuck just happened?' I couldnt believe it.

you'd think I'd stop rollin after that, nah I've rolled MANY of times after that. I should stop..I really should..me and my boyfriend had a long talk about it the other night, we decided to stop until around christmas, do it then, then stop for a while. But we both know that we wont be able to stop, its scary.

Exp Year: 2003	ExpID: 29167
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Jan 5, 2004	Views: 5,371
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